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Chapter 3: Confession

I walk into a room, it's crowded. But straight away I see Amy. She stands out like a torch in a dark room. I stand patiently, waiting for her to notice me. Not wanting to enter to far into the room. I want to be near the exit. She looks up and sees me, for a second it looks like shes going to run away from me, but she slowly walks over to me and speaks;

"I didn't realise you were a member of the womans bar association." I don't realise the joke, to be near her again clouds my hearing.

"I went by your house. Your mother said you'd be here." I concentrate hard so I can hear what she says;

"So you drove to Waterbury?"

"My boss isn't exactly in love with me right now, and I couldn't afford another sleepless night, so...."

"What's going to change that?" She jumps into my sentence, I see she wants to get this over and done with quickly.

"You hearing me out."

"Do I have a choice?"

"Course you do...." I look at her hoping she doesn't walk away, hoping she will hear me out. She nods and shrugs her shoulders for me to carry on;

"I didn't come here to apologise for going out of town," I can see she's slightly angry, but I carry on, "it was the right thing for me to do. But I don't blame you for being angry. I, I know it's not fixable. Amy, what I told you about Kelly the other night, I never said those words out loud. I used every connexion I had to keep it out of the papers, so that Victor wouldn't read it. But telling you, I couldn't help but relive it."

She now looks me in the eye, I carry on my explanation, and for every second she stands there, hope builds.

"The driving, I'm, it clears my head. I didn't mean to go that far, I don't know what I meant to do, but just think.... I wanted to be sure. I'm sorry, for everything I have ever put you through. I know that I am done running, and I know the only thing, that's going to make you believe that, is time. And I'm asking you for that time. I don't have any justification to offer you, except I didn't expect.... I was caught off guard."

"What caught you off guard?" I swallow, what I have to say has been eating me up inside.

"I'm in love with you...." It doesn't look like it's sunk in, I repeat myself, "I'm in love with you...." I can see she's shocked, but she doesn't say anything. She's speechless, I back away "ok." and I leave her standing there. The ball is in her court now.