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Hey guys thanks for the reviews, I appreciate it. Keep reviewing and keep me writing. I hate to inform you that chapter 15 will be the last, and now on with chapter 12.

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(IN RYAN'S HOSPITAL ROOM, INSIDE RYAN"S HEAD)

"I can't believe you Theresa, how could you have an abortion and not tell me?" Ryan asked.

Theresa just looked at him.

"I love Marrissa and you may have ruined my only chance with her."

"How can you love that Rich Beotch?"

"Theresa you don't know what love is."

"I love you."

"And you do this. You really don't know what love is."

"I know what love isn't."

"And what is that?"

"Walking away."

"Then figure this one out Theresa." Ryan said walking away.

Ryan got to Marrissa's new mansion and tried the door in was left unlocked. He had never been here before so he went up stairs looking in every room until he came across one that could be Marrissa's. He stopped and walked in just in time to see Marrissa pour a bottle of vodka off her balcony. She turned around. She saw him, and he saw her face. They ran towards each other and hugged,

"I love you Ryan Atwood." Marrissa said.

"I love you." Ryan said kissing her.

"Ryan I'm leaving." Marrissa said entering the poolhouse.

"What why?" Ryan asked confused.

"I can't stay here."

"Marrissa what's wrong?" Ryan asked.

"Ryan I'm pregnant."

"Really?"

"Yes. And I can't raise this child here."

"You can't raise it alone either."

"I need to leave."

"We need to leave."

"What?"

"I'm not letting you go alone."

"Are you sure?" Marrissa asked although secretly she was thrilled.

"Yes, Marrissa I love you."

"I love you." They kissed.

"Marrissa when are we leaving? Where are we going?" Ryan asked sitting her on the bed beside him.

"I don't really know.'

"Are you telling someone?"

"I was telling you."

"Well now I'm coming you need to tell someone else."

"I'll tell my dad."

"And I'll tell Kirsten."

"Can I come with you?"

"Ya sure, let's go now."

"Kirsten?" Ryan asked coming into the kitchen.

"Ya Ryan?" Kirsten asked back.

"Can we talk to you?" He said gesturing to Marrissa.

"Of course."

"In the poolhouse."

"Okay." Kirsten said slightly worried now.

They walked into the poolhouse.

"What is it Ryan?"

"We're leaving." He said.

"What?"

"Marrissa and I are leaving town."

"Why?"

"I'm pregnant." Marrissa said.

"Oh honey congratulations."

"We don't want to raise this child here."

"So you're leaving?"

"It's the only way."

"Where are you going?"

"We don't know we'll call you when we get there."

"Ryan are you sure?"

"Ya we're sure." Ryan said, "And Kirsten don't tell anyone."

"But Ryan they'll all be worried sick."

"Kirsten please, if I had thought you would tell I wouldn't have told you."

"Okay."

"Thank you."

"Goodbye Ryan I love you." Kirsten said tears running down her cheeks.

"I love you too, mom" Ryan said hugging her and they left through the poolhouse door.

It was a week after leaving Newport and Ryan and Marrissa were in their new house. Ryan was happy he liked it here, it wasn't like Newport. And that was bad and good. He was sitting in a chair staring out the window when a teenager probably around their age with curly brown hair rode by on a skateboard. This boy reminded Ryan so much of Seth his only real brother, that a few silent tears found their way down his cheeks.

"Happy anniversary!" Marrissa said handing Ryan a silver wrapped gift. It was their one-year anniversary, this exact day last year, they had gotten stuck on a Ferris Wheel and had their first 'official' kiss. And true they had broken up many times since then, but since they would have about three dates to use for their anniversary, they chose this one.

"Happy anniversary!" Ryan had planned this special evening just for them, it was their anniversary and Marrissa had gone to her usual yoga pregnancy class. He had set roses and candles out while she was gone, and he had also made dinner for two.

"Open it!"

"Okay, okay, "he said peeling back the paper of the gift.

"Marrissa!" He exclaimed looking at the watch carefully. It was a beautiful gold ROLEX.

"Turn it over," She replied. He turned the watch over and gasped. Written on the back was 'Our love will last forever, Marrissa' and underneath it was a small carving of a Ferris Wheel!

"Wow, it's amazing thank you so much. I love it. I love you," he leaned over and kissed her.

"I love you too," She said when they pulled away.

"I have something for you too,"

"What is it?"

Ryan got of his chair and got down on one knee, He held out an open box "Marrissa, will you marry me?"

"Oh my god!"

"Is that a yes?'

"Yes, yes!" she said kissing him.

"Good," he replied slipping the simple yet elegant ring on her hand. It was an emerald cut diamond (3 karat) with two pink diamonds on either side.

"Oh my god Ryan. It's beautiful!"

The twin girls Marrissa and I had are in grade one (seven). Wow! I feel old. The girls just got home from school, and everyone was sitting round the table having a snack. Tradition.

"So Madi, how is Jake?" Marrissa asked.

"Fine." Madi said huffily.

"Did you sit together at lunch?" Ryan asked.

"Ya, he sat with Madi and I." Liz said.

"Madi has a boyfriend." Scott said in a sing-song voice.

"No I don't." Madi said angrily.

"Don't get so mad Madi." Ryan said. And from that day on she was known as Mad Madi.

Marrissa. I want to see her again. I would do anything to see her again. Her soft flowing blonde hair, her eyes how can you resist those eyes. She's so sweet to me. She took me back after that beotch Theresa had an abortion. She always needs something, and I love the way she let's me take care of her. She's had her rough moments but she's a great women and always will be. Like in Mexico, she was so upset, her parents were getting divorced. They fell asleep on each side of the bed but when he woke up and she was in his arms he wished that's how it would always be. The next night she decided she couldn't handle things, which was wrong. Because he would always be there to help her. She drug overdosed, and when he found her slumped over in that ditch he feared for the worst. He lifted her and would have carried her back to Newport if he had to. He was upset when she had believed Oliver over him but he had no real proof to prove that he was right. And she wasn't the only one that didn't believe him so... But god when she had called out to him that night 'he has a gun' he had never been more scared. For her of course. He knew right then and there that he would do anything for Marrissa, the rich girl next door. But he was scared, and he couldn't forgive her right then anyway. When he did forgive her he was so happy, he had everything he'd ever wanted. A family, a girlfriend, friends, and then the night he came back from Theresa's they had well you know. And two months later she had came to him, saying she was pregnant. They had than left and he always wondered what it would have been like if they had never... But he would never let anyone take away his Mad Madi and his little Lizbit his angels.

Mad Madi. That day the name was 'bestowed' upon her was a wonderful day with his family. Madi was one of his angels, and he would do anything for her. Her and her sister were smart from the day they were born. But they were so different, Madi was so upbeat and loud but her sister was the quietest girl he knew. She took after him that's for sure. But she was different he knew that. Lizbit was like him in many ways but she has her own personal way of dealing with things. She wouldn't give people a look when they said stupid things she would tell them plain and simple why they were wrong. It drove people crazy sometimes, but she was the sweetest little girl and she would never do anything wrong. His girls, angels, he wanted so badly to see them again. Madi was such a talker, she rambled, and rambled, and rambled just like her Uncle Seth Ryan thought knowing perfectly well any traits that the girls had, couldn't come from his 'brother'.

Scotty. His little boy, who would grow up in a perfect family nothing like him. Scotty needed this drama to be over Ryan knew that. He wasn't a wimp, that boy could hold his own but he was a family guy and he needed his father to be okay. His personality showed how much he cared about his family even if he was only four. Whenever Liz and Madi went to a sleepover or something he'd get scared thinking they would never come back. He would fear that his dad would never come back so Ryan knew he had to wake up even if he could just see his son for a few minutes. Ryan and Seth had had a tight relationship before Ryan had left, but Scotty didn't have that. He had two sister's and two girl cousins. He was surrounded by girls, all the guys were. There was Sandy, Seth, Ryan, and Scott who were the men of the family. And there was Kirsten, Marrissa, Summer, Lizbit, Madi, ivy and Ella as the girls. Scotty was going to be trouble growing up Ryan could tell, but he would be a good kid Ryan could see that too.

His relationship with the Cohen's could no longer be considered that of child and guardian, he was family now. His new found relationship with Kirsten was strong. They shared a lot of stuff him and Sandy didn't. They had shared 8 years of Ryan's life that Sandy didn't have. She was a better mother than Dawn ever was, could ever be. But sometimes he could feel that line as if it was stopping him from telling her something, holding back. He knew he could tell his mother everything but sometimes he could really feel the fact that he wasn't her child. That was back in high school, now there was nothing there they had the relationship of mother and son because that's what they were. He had let her know that he excepted that by calling her mom when he left eight years ago. Him and Sandy had established that relationship long ago, but now Ryan had to find out what of that relationship still existed.

Now Summer she was one unforgettable person. Her wacky personality and fun spirit made her hard to forget. Maybe it was the way she said 'Ew' maybe it was the crazy nicknames, but there was something in there that made her who she was. She was a great friend and a cool person and she gave up her coolness in high school for Seth Cohen emo geek extroardinare. Ryan thought that was a really cool thing to do. And he was glad that Summer had stayed friends with him, and Marrissa after everything.

Seth. He was not your average teenager that's for sure. That was one of the first things he learnt about Seth. The day him and Seth went sailing and Seth told Ryan that his boat was named after her, and that she had never even spoke to him, Ryan knew Seth was crazy. Or at least he thought that. But now he knew that Seth wasn't crazy he just strongly believed in the fact that things happened for a reason. That made Ryan think, If he died would Seth be upset or would he just go 'it must have happened for a reason'. Now Ryan thought he himself was crazy. Seth would never think that, I mean Ryan just did what he thought was best by leaving with Marrissa but Seth would never see that. Ryan thought Seth was perfect the brother he never had, and he loved him. Ryan only hoped Seth felt the same way.

(IN RYAN"S ROOM PRESENT TIME)

Marrissa watched as Ryan's eyes fluttered.

"Ryan? Ryan wake up!" Marrissa said.

Ryan's eyes opened.

"Ryan."

"Marrissa... I," He took a deep breath, "Love, you." He finished finally.

Marrissa instinctively looked up at Ryan's machines when she heard that beeping sound, and a flatline was moving across the screen.