I awoke, unaware of everybody around me that were gasping and hugging each other. I opened my eyes so slowly and blinked a couple times before taking in my surroundings.
Alive? But how...I I killed myself didn't I? Was this heaven? A hospital bed and....SANGO!
I looked up at Sango as she came over to me and hugged me. I was to weak to push away.I didn't feel comfortable at that moment with my ex-best friend hugging me but, really what could I do.
The hugging ended and my eyes finally examined the people standing and sitting in the chairs beside me.
Miroku was here..probably because Sango told him to come although he probably didn't want to come. He's so sick and perverted anyway.
I glanced at the figure with silver hair and frowned.
What was Inuyasha doing here? He shouldn't be here . He's probably just one of Miroku's friends that like to try and act all tough but are real wimps. Some how I don't sense that totally on him.
I also so Sango with tears running down her face and she was smiling and somehow I wanted to smile back but, I didn't know how after so long.
Her tears? Are they tears of hate or tears of happiness? They look like salt water to me. Nothing more. It sounds harsh to think of someone's crying as nothing but no cared about my crying. No one. They all laughed at me and called me un-fitting names.
I tried to sit up and yelled out when I did. I had felt thew most pain I'd ever had that had happened in 3 seconds. A feeling of a knife tearing me from the inside and to all the way up to my chest.
Sango leaned over me and shook her head and smiled at me still.
I opened my mouth then saw in the corner of my eye ,Inuyasha move his head toward me. I looked back to Sango and talked as loudly as I could which was only above a whisper.
"Why am I here?" I asked her .It sounded like a stupid question but I remember nothing after stabbing myself. If I had my eyes open my brain wasn't going to tell me what had happened now.
Sango smiled and backed away from my table and took Inuyasha by the hand and dragged him over to my bed side.
I didn't understand this gesture from her but I did once she started crying on to Miroku's shoulder. He cooed in her ear gently and I felt like throwing up then.
Inuyasha must have thought I was going to throw up and placed his hand on back as i sat foreword.
I felt no connection between us.i only felt more pain. I didn't want to think or even know what love was. It had hurt me so many times and stabbed me in the back.
All the med I dated like Koga and Hojo turned away from me when I stopped acting so preppy and girly and turned to a more normal state of not being hyper all the time.
After all these times I'm learned how to push away feelings of love and anything else from my mind. Everything but depression and anger.
I felt Inuyasha move his hand from my back and sit down beside me. His eyes showed no real sign of emotion and I decided that he must be suffering from some what of a depression. Depreciate people know other depreciate people and can recognize them.
"You tried to kill your self ,Kagome," I heard Sango sob louder on to Miroku's shouldar until she made a sickening face and ran to the bathroom next to me. I heard a great heaving and something I don't really want to think about. Especially the smell.
"When I said lighten up I meant to be more open to people..not try and kill yourself." I looked up at him and reached up to his face.
Sango looked out of the bathroom probably thinking I was going to do something romantic. Good for you Sango.
A nurse came over and asked Sango to come with her for some tests. Sango shook her head and walked back to my side. The nurse followed her and I wondered why. This wasn't about me..it must of bin about Sango cause if it was about me she would have told us all.
"Please come. This could be serious if you don't find out!"
Find out what? I kept repeating the question over in my head then realized my hand was still on Inuyasha's face. I pulled my hand from his face and on to the cap her always had on his head.
I could feel him start to get a bit nervous and try to pull away. I tugged on his hat and tried to pull it off.
Inuyasha had gone pink from my hand on his face but that hint was gone now and all that was there was someone pulling away from me.
I felt instantly tired and saw Sango and the nurse approach my bed.
"I have to go with them Kagome. Just for a little bit. Inuyasha will stay with you alright?" Sanog was pulled out of the room by a nurse holding on to her hand tightly and a Miroku traveling behind her.
Inuyasha looked at me and shrugged.
"I guess it's just you and me kid."
Alive? But how...I I killed myself didn't I? Was this heaven? A hospital bed and....SANGO!
I looked up at Sango as she came over to me and hugged me. I was to weak to push away.I didn't feel comfortable at that moment with my ex-best friend hugging me but, really what could I do.
The hugging ended and my eyes finally examined the people standing and sitting in the chairs beside me.
Miroku was here..probably because Sango told him to come although he probably didn't want to come. He's so sick and perverted anyway.
I glanced at the figure with silver hair and frowned.
What was Inuyasha doing here? He shouldn't be here . He's probably just one of Miroku's friends that like to try and act all tough but are real wimps. Some how I don't sense that totally on him.
I also so Sango with tears running down her face and she was smiling and somehow I wanted to smile back but, I didn't know how after so long.
Her tears? Are they tears of hate or tears of happiness? They look like salt water to me. Nothing more. It sounds harsh to think of someone's crying as nothing but no cared about my crying. No one. They all laughed at me and called me un-fitting names.
I tried to sit up and yelled out when I did. I had felt thew most pain I'd ever had that had happened in 3 seconds. A feeling of a knife tearing me from the inside and to all the way up to my chest.
Sango leaned over me and shook her head and smiled at me still.
I opened my mouth then saw in the corner of my eye ,Inuyasha move his head toward me. I looked back to Sango and talked as loudly as I could which was only above a whisper.
"Why am I here?" I asked her .It sounded like a stupid question but I remember nothing after stabbing myself. If I had my eyes open my brain wasn't going to tell me what had happened now.
Sango smiled and backed away from my table and took Inuyasha by the hand and dragged him over to my bed side.
I didn't understand this gesture from her but I did once she started crying on to Miroku's shoulder. He cooed in her ear gently and I felt like throwing up then.
Inuyasha must have thought I was going to throw up and placed his hand on back as i sat foreword.
I felt no connection between us.i only felt more pain. I didn't want to think or even know what love was. It had hurt me so many times and stabbed me in the back.
All the med I dated like Koga and Hojo turned away from me when I stopped acting so preppy and girly and turned to a more normal state of not being hyper all the time.
After all these times I'm learned how to push away feelings of love and anything else from my mind. Everything but depression and anger.
I felt Inuyasha move his hand from my back and sit down beside me. His eyes showed no real sign of emotion and I decided that he must be suffering from some what of a depression. Depreciate people know other depreciate people and can recognize them.
"You tried to kill your self ,Kagome," I heard Sango sob louder on to Miroku's shouldar until she made a sickening face and ran to the bathroom next to me. I heard a great heaving and something I don't really want to think about. Especially the smell.
"When I said lighten up I meant to be more open to people..not try and kill yourself." I looked up at him and reached up to his face.
Sango looked out of the bathroom probably thinking I was going to do something romantic. Good for you Sango.
A nurse came over and asked Sango to come with her for some tests. Sango shook her head and walked back to my side. The nurse followed her and I wondered why. This wasn't about me..it must of bin about Sango cause if it was about me she would have told us all.
"Please come. This could be serious if you don't find out!"
Find out what? I kept repeating the question over in my head then realized my hand was still on Inuyasha's face. I pulled my hand from his face and on to the cap her always had on his head.
I could feel him start to get a bit nervous and try to pull away. I tugged on his hat and tried to pull it off.
Inuyasha had gone pink from my hand on his face but that hint was gone now and all that was there was someone pulling away from me.
I felt instantly tired and saw Sango and the nurse approach my bed.
"I have to go with them Kagome. Just for a little bit. Inuyasha will stay with you alright?" Sanog was pulled out of the room by a nurse holding on to her hand tightly and a Miroku traveling behind her.
Inuyasha looked at me and shrugged.
"I guess it's just you and me kid."
