Disclaimer: I wish I was smart enough to come up with half the stuff JKR
comes up with but I'm boring and unoriginal so I'm borrowing her themes and
characters and turning them into horrible and boring people. Sorry about my
pov of James, I don't know how he thinks and never will.
*writing* is what the character is thinking
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Chapter 4
Confusion and delusion
Lily had fallen asleep as soon as her head had touched the pillow. She had lasted through the sorting and the banquet and the long boring dronings of the headmaster, Professor Dippit who was old and boring. Most students couldn't wait until his retirement. There was a rumour that once he had been kind and wise in the eyes of the students, but then something happened and he changed. He had been greatly disappointed, no one new why, but now he didn't have as much respect as he deserved.
The next day, James Potter woke up early, ready for a new day of fun. There were girls to impress, first years to scare, teachers to annoy. He couldn't wait. He made his way down to the Great Hall, which was almost deserted. He looked around, searching for someone he knew.
Slytherin first years, no.
Ravenclaw Quidditch captain, no way.
Pretty third year, hmmm.
Who else could he harass or show off to. Or both. Who?
*Aaaah perfect.*
"Hey Evans," there she was, thick red hair shining in the enchanted morning sunlight. "What do you want Potter?"
*Hmmmm. what do I want?*
He didn't know.
"Ah, just wanted so say." To buy some time he swung one leg over the long bench and sat, facing Lily so he could look into her green eyes and almost see her soul. "Thanks for yesterday."
"What did I do yesterday?"
"You saved Mooney's ass. I would've been in deep shit if you hadn't said anything. So thanks. You're a real friend."
"Yeah, too bad you aren't." Lily didn't need to hear James be nice to her, her feelings about him were confusing enough already. "You really could have got him in trouble, but you don't think before you open that fat mouth of yours, do you?"
"Look, I know you think I'm a dickhead, but everyone makes mistakes. We're not all perfect like you, Evans. Mooney's my mate. I'd never let anything happen to him, but you're right, sometimes I need to think before I talk."
"Stop acting like you give a shit about everyone else. I know how you treat people like they aren't important, like you're superior."
"Like who?"
"Snape."
"Fuck, that evil bastard?" James laughed. "He deserves it."
"And you have to be the one to make him pay, right?"
"Well who else has the balls to?"
"That's all life is to you, balls? Well, what about Peter?"
"Who the fuck is Peter?"
"Peter Pettigrew, your friend. You just proved that you're an asswipe."
"Fucking Wormtail. Little bitch loves me, that's all he wants."
"I can't believe how immature you are. I never liked you but at least I used to think you had some shread of decency. You just proved me wrong."
*She never liked me. I know that but why does it hurt so much to hear?*
"Fuck you Evans. Look, I don't know if you can take back a thank-you but if you can then that's what I'm doing, yeah." James stood up and walked away, not entirely impressed with his final comment, but at least he wasn't completely hammered. He had to hand it to her though, she was tough. She was strong and smart. She was made for him.
*She's perfect for me. Why won't she give in. Forget her, look there's Janet Brown, she's wanted you for ages dude. Now's your chance.*
But James did something he'd never done before, and thought he would never do. He ignored her and went back up to his room, feeling as though his day couldn't get any worse.
Lily sat at the Gryffindor table, completely confused.
*Why was he so nice to me, and why did he care when I wasn't nice back. Why did he care at all. He's never given a fuck about anything. That's what I like about him. Like? Why did I say that. I don't like him. I hate him. Don't I?*
"Hey Lil." It was Wendy Rosehorn, Lil's potions partner, "Glad I found you. Remus is looking for you and I have to tell you about Gladis."
"Gladis Thumstump?"
"Yeah, she's pregnant."
"Gladis? Prenant? With who? And how do you know?"
"I saw her in the toilets, crying. I asked her what was wrong and she told me." "So why are you telling me? Isn't it a bit personal?"
"Hell yeah, that's why I'm telling everyone. I hate that bitch."
"Wendy, you can't do that. She trusted you and you betrayed her. I'm not sure I wanna be friends with someone that would do that."
*What the fuck did I say that for? She's gonna be pissed off at me now, I really couldn't be bothered with that now. I have enough problems.*
Wendy started to cry. Lily new it was fake but felt bad anyway. "I thought you were different, Lil. You're not. You're a stupid stuck-up cow."
Lily just stood there, stunned. Not knowing why she said what she said. Wendy wasn't any different that normal. Lily always put up with her and her gossip. Why was today different? Why was today turning out to be such a drag? Why was it that she might of just lost a friend, but she was still thinking about James Potter?
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A/N sorry about the excessive swearing but I was in a bad mood and I'd just watched the real cancun and my head was filled with fucks. It seemed to fit well so I kept it. More swearing and some sex scenes (hopefully) to come so beware.
*writing* is what the character is thinking
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Chapter 4
Confusion and delusion
Lily had fallen asleep as soon as her head had touched the pillow. She had lasted through the sorting and the banquet and the long boring dronings of the headmaster, Professor Dippit who was old and boring. Most students couldn't wait until his retirement. There was a rumour that once he had been kind and wise in the eyes of the students, but then something happened and he changed. He had been greatly disappointed, no one new why, but now he didn't have as much respect as he deserved.
The next day, James Potter woke up early, ready for a new day of fun. There were girls to impress, first years to scare, teachers to annoy. He couldn't wait. He made his way down to the Great Hall, which was almost deserted. He looked around, searching for someone he knew.
Slytherin first years, no.
Ravenclaw Quidditch captain, no way.
Pretty third year, hmmm.
Who else could he harass or show off to. Or both. Who?
*Aaaah perfect.*
"Hey Evans," there she was, thick red hair shining in the enchanted morning sunlight. "What do you want Potter?"
*Hmmmm. what do I want?*
He didn't know.
"Ah, just wanted so say." To buy some time he swung one leg over the long bench and sat, facing Lily so he could look into her green eyes and almost see her soul. "Thanks for yesterday."
"What did I do yesterday?"
"You saved Mooney's ass. I would've been in deep shit if you hadn't said anything. So thanks. You're a real friend."
"Yeah, too bad you aren't." Lily didn't need to hear James be nice to her, her feelings about him were confusing enough already. "You really could have got him in trouble, but you don't think before you open that fat mouth of yours, do you?"
"Look, I know you think I'm a dickhead, but everyone makes mistakes. We're not all perfect like you, Evans. Mooney's my mate. I'd never let anything happen to him, but you're right, sometimes I need to think before I talk."
"Stop acting like you give a shit about everyone else. I know how you treat people like they aren't important, like you're superior."
"Like who?"
"Snape."
"Fuck, that evil bastard?" James laughed. "He deserves it."
"And you have to be the one to make him pay, right?"
"Well who else has the balls to?"
"That's all life is to you, balls? Well, what about Peter?"
"Who the fuck is Peter?"
"Peter Pettigrew, your friend. You just proved that you're an asswipe."
"Fucking Wormtail. Little bitch loves me, that's all he wants."
"I can't believe how immature you are. I never liked you but at least I used to think you had some shread of decency. You just proved me wrong."
*She never liked me. I know that but why does it hurt so much to hear?*
"Fuck you Evans. Look, I don't know if you can take back a thank-you but if you can then that's what I'm doing, yeah." James stood up and walked away, not entirely impressed with his final comment, but at least he wasn't completely hammered. He had to hand it to her though, she was tough. She was strong and smart. She was made for him.
*She's perfect for me. Why won't she give in. Forget her, look there's Janet Brown, she's wanted you for ages dude. Now's your chance.*
But James did something he'd never done before, and thought he would never do. He ignored her and went back up to his room, feeling as though his day couldn't get any worse.
Lily sat at the Gryffindor table, completely confused.
*Why was he so nice to me, and why did he care when I wasn't nice back. Why did he care at all. He's never given a fuck about anything. That's what I like about him. Like? Why did I say that. I don't like him. I hate him. Don't I?*
"Hey Lil." It was Wendy Rosehorn, Lil's potions partner, "Glad I found you. Remus is looking for you and I have to tell you about Gladis."
"Gladis Thumstump?"
"Yeah, she's pregnant."
"Gladis? Prenant? With who? And how do you know?"
"I saw her in the toilets, crying. I asked her what was wrong and she told me." "So why are you telling me? Isn't it a bit personal?"
"Hell yeah, that's why I'm telling everyone. I hate that bitch."
"Wendy, you can't do that. She trusted you and you betrayed her. I'm not sure I wanna be friends with someone that would do that."
*What the fuck did I say that for? She's gonna be pissed off at me now, I really couldn't be bothered with that now. I have enough problems.*
Wendy started to cry. Lily new it was fake but felt bad anyway. "I thought you were different, Lil. You're not. You're a stupid stuck-up cow."
Lily just stood there, stunned. Not knowing why she said what she said. Wendy wasn't any different that normal. Lily always put up with her and her gossip. Why was today different? Why was today turning out to be such a drag? Why was it that she might of just lost a friend, but she was still thinking about James Potter?
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A/N sorry about the excessive swearing but I was in a bad mood and I'd just watched the real cancun and my head was filled with fucks. It seemed to fit well so I kept it. More swearing and some sex scenes (hopefully) to come so beware.
