Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing and I don't own the song "Good Riddance," Green Day does. This is an old fanfic, but the old GW addict in me decided to post it again. I originally intended to write a few more chapters to this, but I have decided I like the angst. The beauty of the imagination is that you can make your own ending to this. ^_^
Hilde looked at Duo sleeping on the couch and a guiltily feeling came over her. You shouldn't sneak out like this. One part of her mind told her. But if you don't go like this you'll never leave. The other more reasonable side of her mind stated.
*Another turning point a fork stuck in the road*She thought about the reason she was leaving. "I just can't stay in the same house with someone who doesn't love me. All that I would be able to do is think about him if I stayed. How could I ever have a real relationship if I did that? I've been here too long and now I have to move on."
*Time grabs you by the wrist directs you where to go
So make the best of this test and don't ask why*I guess it took me a while to figure that one out but now that I have, I have to act on it. But why does it have to be so hard? At least I'll have Sally shoulders to cry on for a while. It's great that she's going to let me stay with her. Hilde walked over to Duo and brushed the hair out of his face. Tears began to form in her eyes as she thought about a future with out this crazy, wonderful guy. Will I ever get over you Duo Maxwell? Can I ever love someone else as much as I love you right now, in this moment?
*It's not a question but a lesson learned in time*
Stop Hilde, you can't have him. He doesn't love you like you love him. It is the right path you are taking. Follow through with it for once! Hilde leaned down and kissed Duo on the check. She then brushed away her tears and walked toward the door to pick up her bags knowing that this was the right path. I have to follow through with it. Besides he won't miss me that much; that is until he has to cook for himself. Hilde smiled to herself at that thought and picked up her bags.
*It's something unpredictable but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life*
I hope you remember our times together Duo. I know I will. I had the time of my life with you.
*So take the photographs and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoo's of memories and dead skin on trial.*
Hilde took one last look at the room she was standing in. There are so many memories here; I can't believe I'm just going to leave them like this. Hilde began to think all the times she has spent there with Duo. I remember last Christmas when everyone was here. Duo loved it. She remembered that all the ex-pilots had seemed so normal that night. They laughed and talked like they had never seen a day of pain.
Unfortunately you've seen too much in your life haven't you Duo? Hilde knew that beneath that cheery exterior was a very hurt man. Sometimes she could see it in his expressions and when she would ask about it he would just tell her. "Don't worry about it Hilde. Hey, I'm hungry let's go get something to eat. My treat!" That's another reason she had to leave. He obviously didn't trust her. Sometimes at night she would cry for him. She cried the tears that she knew he couldn't. Snap out of Hilde, you have to leave. He can take of himself. Maybe if you leave he will deal with his pain.
*For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life*
Hilde headed for the door and opened it. She reached in to her purse and pulled out an envelope. She laid it on the table and with out turning around she walked out of the door, tears streaming down her face.
*It's something unpredictable but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life*
It wasn't to long before Duo woke up. He stretched a bit and then realized that he had fallen asleep on the couch. He had done that a lot lately. It had been harder and harder for him to sleep lately. He would never admit it but his dreams were beginning to get worse and he knew he was going to have to talk about his past soon before it ate him alive. Hilde, she would listen to me. I hear her cry sometimes for me. But what will she think of me? Will she ever want to love a street kid that caused the deaths of so many people?
Duo had been in love with her for a long time but didn't know how to tell her. The whole concept of love was so foreign to him. The only people who had ever loved him were Father Maxwell and Sister Helen. I'm going to have to tell her soon. I'm going to loose her if I don't. Duo made the decision to at least talk with her about his past, he might not be able to say he loved her yet but it was a start. It was the least he could do. He knew she had been wondering about his past for some time. He had seen the hurt in her eyes a few times when she had asked him about his thoughts and he hadn't told her. I'm such an idiot sometimes. But I'm going to fix that problem today!
It was at this point that Duo noticed a envelope on the table with his name on it. It looks like Hilde's writing. I bet she had to go do a few errands and left me a note telling me where she went. Duo opened the note and began to read. It wasn't long before he dropped it. It floated to the ground unnoticed. It can't be true. I just read it wrong. Duo raced to Hilde's room.
"Ha, Ha! Hilde You got me. That was really funny, I almost believed it. Hilde?" Duo banged on her door. When no one answered he forced open the door. There was nothing left in the room. She left me. Duo sat on her bed and for the first time in many years he cried.
*It's something unpredictable but in the end is rightI hope you had the time of your life*
