This is a really good chapter (I think). Thanks to Sarah, Kim and Kirstin (Don't say I never thank you)
And heaps of thanks to my reviewers. I love you more than...I love you all, more than something.
I hope you love this chapter, I'm sorry I've been slow with updating but i have a life besides fanfiction...not really, but school work.
Chapter 28
It's my party and I'll cry if I want to
James slammed the door as he left and punched the wall.
"AH, ow. That hurts." He gasped. Not only talking about his fist, but his aching heart.
He stood outside the door for a couple of minutes, wanting to do something, but still too full of fury to think clearly. He eventually went back upstairs to the party, grabbing a bottle of firewhiskey as he entered and downing half of it.
"That was quick." Sirius said when James had found him. "Where's Lily?"
"Shut up, Sirius. Are you okay James?" Kim asked in a comforting voice.
"How did you know?" James muttered and took another swig.
"Ummm, oh, it's a girl thing." She replied.
"What's going on?" Sirius nagged. "I'm not a girl so I don't have the girl thing telling me so you're going to have to fill me in."
"I said shut up." Kim said angrily.
"Me and Lily broke up." James said, louder than he was meant to. Unluckily for James, Snape had been walking passed at the wrong time.
"Poor Potter got his heart broken by a mudblood." He taunted.
"Fuck off, this has nothing to do with you. At least she went out with me. I didn't write disturbing poetry and keep it in a box, I asked her out." James yelled. A few people around the group had stopped dancing and turned towards them. "And I broke up with her."
"For no reason?" Snape questioned.
"No, I had a good reason. It's none of your fucking business though." James pushed past Snape and walked towards an empty chair. He sat and drank the rest of the bottle of firewhiskey, ignoring the stares and whispers from the dancing people. He got up swiftly, his chair falling back against the floor, and made his way back towards the door to get another drink. Remus stopped him.
"Haven't you had enough, Prongs?" James pushed him out of the way and grabbed a bottle of MagiRum. Remus followed him as he crossed the room. Sirius soon joined them.
"Prongs, what the fuck is wrong with you mate?" Sirius asked as he stopped him. "Lily won't want you to be like this."
"I don't care what Lily wants. She's just a lying, betraying EX-girlfriend. She's out of my life forever." James drank some more. "I hate her."
Sirius tried to grab the bottle out of James's hand but James pulled back and ended up smashing the bottle against the wall behind him. "What the fuck was that for Padfoot? You broke the rum." James's words were becoming slurred already.
"You don't need anymore rum, mate." Remus said.
"Yes, I do." James took one step and Remus and Sirius grabbed him.
"Prongs, its not worth it." Sirius whispered. James stopped. "Maybe we should leave."
"Yeah, I should."
Just as it looked like Remus and Sirius had calmed James down, Snape had come back.
"What a loser. Look what you've become without Lily. She's been out of your life for an hour and you've already become a drunken fool. What a disgrace." He sneered.
"I'm a fool? Who's the one who paid a fifth year slut to give him some good insults and tell some other sluts that he's good in bed?"
"He is good in bed." Piped up Laura, the fifth year slut. She didn't look entirely convinced, but then Snape mouthed what looked like Potions Final and she grabbed onto his hand. "And he came up with those insults himself. He's so smart." Snape grinned.
"I told you I was meeting a girl, Black." He spat at Sirius. "Thanks for letting me in for half price, friend."
"Half price?" James coughed.
"Yes, seems your friends aren't as arrogant and self-centred as you." Snape swanked.
James laughed and swayed slightly. "It was free, loser. I can't believe you payed."
Snape scowled. "So, Black. I was right about you. You could never change."
"You're the one that will never change." James growled, angry again. "You'll always be a loser. You'll always be alone."
"Did you ever think that maybe the reason I'm alone is that I want to be?" Snape snapped as Laura backed away and joined her friends again.
"No. You're alone because you could never be anything else. No one could ever like you, because you are stupid." James slurred.
"What would you know? You're just a drunken idiot." Snape said in a clear voice.
"I should've killed you when I had the chance. I would've if it wasn't for..." James trailed off.
Kim stepped forward. "Maybe we should go now James."
"Now, here's a loser. She can't make friends either; she has to hang around with you losers." Snape barked.
"I do have Slytherin friends. They're just older. It's not my fault I choose my friends carefully." Kim spat. "I used to be friends with you Snapey, if you can remember. You were kicked out of that group long before I left."
"Left? You left?" Snape huffed. "I heard they never liked you."
"I don't care if they didn't like me. They're losers." Kim said.
"No, you're a loser. You all are." Snape sneered. "I don't know what Lucius saw in you, Grima."
Kim flinched and Sirius looked confused. James swayed and had the look that Peter often displayed when he was performing even the simplest spells on his face.
"Oh, actually, I remember now." Snape continued. "We could hear you up there. We were kept awake at night listening to you two shagging in the head room."
"Lucius?" Sirius gaped. "Lucius Malfoy? I thought you guys were just friends."
"Well, we were more than that for a while. But I've always liked you more." Kim said in a tiny voice.
"You picked Padfoot over Malfoy?" James garbled. "He's so goofy though, and funny looking."
Kim and Sirius ignored him. "I broke up with him for you Sirius. I never loved him."
"But he loved you." Sirius's eyes were reddening.
Kim looked down. "Yes."
James looked around at the people who had now stopped dancing and where watching the group.
"THIS IS ABOUT ME!!!!" He yelled. "Me and Lily. Why is it about you now?"
"You're really drunk, mate." Remus said. 'Let's just go."
"NO!" James pulled back as Remus reached out to him. "I hate all this. I hate feeling so...so...shitty. I hate..." He turned to look at Snape who was smirking at him. "YOU!"
James gathered all his strength and anger, putting into a punch that sent Snape to the ground. Remus jumped to hold him back but James turned and Remus's face was met with a blow that hurled him into the jukebox, stopping the music.
A few girls nearby screamed and people started leaving the room. Others stayed to watch the fight. Ebony also screamed and ran to Remus's side.
James had now turned his attention back to Snape and was on the floor pummelling him. Sirius snapped out of his shocked state and grabbed James. He pulled him back and turned him round to face him. James's eyes shut tight as Sirius shook him violently.
"What's going on Prongs? This isn't you." He growled in a doglike manner.
James pushed Sirius to the ground. He pulled out his wand and stood over Sirius, Who just stared up at him significantly.
"Don't do it. You've caused enough damage. Just let it go. You don't really want to do this, something more powerful is at work here. MagiRum and Firewhiskey are no good, Prongs." Sirius said quietly.
At those words Kim gasped a last breath and her eyes rolled back into her head.
Don't do it. Don't do it. You've caused enough damage. Don't do it.
I love you Kim.
Kim let out the breath with a cry. Tears spilled from her eyes and she looked scared for her life. She looked at James, who had dropped his wand and then at Sirius, whose concerned face only made her cry more.
"No." She managed to say. "It can't be." She shook her head and then ran from the room.
Sirius got up from the floor.
"Where are you going?" James asked.
"After Kim," He said quickly before running from the room.
The crowd around James, Remus, Ebony and the now unconscious Snape remained silent as they stared at the retreating backs.
"Party's over." Ebony screamed at them. "Get the fuck out of here, or I'll require you all to Azkaban."
The people slowly moved out of the room. When they were gone, Ebony helped the moaning Remus to his feet.
"Mooney, I'm sorry." James bleated, head in hands. Remus didn't, and couldn't, reply. "Ebony, tell him I'm sorry."
Ebony ignored him and helped Remus limp out of the room, leaving James alone with the bloody body of Snape.
He walked towards the door and found a bottle of Firewhiskey. He sat on a couch and drank until he passed out.
Sirius followed Kim down two flights of stairs and along a lengthy corridor before he caught up with her. She was still crying when he reached her.
"Kimby, don't cry. I don't care about Lucius. I've had a lot of ex's, I don't care that you went out with him. Just...don't cry." Sirius looked close to tears himself. "I can't stand to see you cry." Kim was looking down at the ground, tears dropping and spattering on her shoes. Sirius reached out and placed one finger under her chin to force her eyes to meet his. She looked at him through blurred vision with a nauseous look on her face. Sirius tried to ignore the pain on her face. "I love you Kim. I could never stop loving you because you went out with someone I don't like."
"It's not that." Kim sobbed. "It's not that." She repeated. "I love you too."
She let out a loud whimper and flung herself into Sirius's arms and wept into his chest.
"I don't want to lose you." Kim's muffled voice said between sobs.
"Ssshhhhh." Sirius hushed soothingly. "You won't lose me, I'm right here. I'm right here with you, babe. You'll never lose me." He held Kim in his arms and rocked side-to-side, whispering comforting words to her, forcing the words in her head to quieten.
Don't do it. Don't do it. You've caused enough damage. Don't do it.
You don't really want to do this, something more powerful is at work here.
I love you Kim.
