This chapter is dedicated to Casey who was insanely jealous that she wasn't in my story. The description is accurate enough. Thanks to all my reviewer. Sorry I haven't been the best updater, but I wrote three chapters on the weekend so I will post them as soon as I can. And holidays next week means frequent updating, if anyone can remember last holidays. Hopefully it will all end soon and you can know the exciting ending I have planned. Then i can get to work on the sequal!!!!!!. anyway, enjoy...


Chapter 31
No secrets required.

Casey Schofield opened the door to the change rooms and jumped at the mob of faces staring up at her. Sirius burst out laughing. Casey was short and awkward looking. Her hands were balled into tight fists and her body was tense and rigid. Her face however, was dreamy and bemused. Her red hair stuck out in anomalous places and looked as though an angry child had cut it, or perhaps she had attempted to do it herself.

"Are we goin' to play Quidditch or what?" She said in a heavily Scottish accent.

Sirius was now coughing violently.

"Is 'e okay?" Casey said, sporting an even more confused look on her face.

"I've been wondering that for years." James said happily, but jumped when Casey began to snort with a hideously dangerous laugh. The rest of the team seemed to come out of their shock and were grinning profusely. James took a breath and assumed his responsible captain voice. "That's enough. Settle down." When the laughter stopped, he continued. "If you'll just take a seat Casey. Thanks." He cleared his throat and gazed at his team. "You've all been informed of the departure of Stephan Lawes? Yes, good. Well in case you've been living under a rock, Sirius has taken his spot as beater and Casey Schofield will be our new chaser." He stopped and Casey looked around, waiting for some sort of recognition. "Well, good luck Casey." She made another odd laughing noise.

"Can we get to practice now?" Tara Wood asked as she suppressed a yawn.

"Well, before we do, I need to remind you that this is our last game before final. If we win, we could win the Quidditch cup. I don't want another failing season like last year, not that it was our fault the Slytherin's played so dirty. This year we're in for a chance. We have our own tactics and our own style. And in honour of our new team member I have devised a new play, which I have called the pouncing cat. Now, gather round and I'll explain…" James spent the next half an hour explaining the new play and then a further half an hour questioning the team members on what he had just said.

When they got outside, Sirius took a deep breath and sighed. "You better know what you're doing, Prongs." He muttered in James's ear.

"Look at that." James said nodding his head towards Casey, who was already in the air. She was speeding along beside Travis and stopped in less than a second and turned back the other way before Travis realised she had stopped.

Sirius raised his eyebrows. "She's better than she looks. But I suppose that isn't hard." He began laughing again and took off on his broom.

"Okay, guys. Let's try this." James yelled as he threw the Quaffle high into the air and released one of the bludgers.


A few hours later, Sirius and James entered the common room with the rest of the team. James had put away his responsible voice and was now laughing hysterically as Sirius and Travis made up a song about the Professors they liked the least.

"Professor Heath, you are a geezer. Couldn't get a girl so you fucked Professor Preasa." Sirius sang horribly between laughs.

They spotted Lily, Ebony and Terran sitting with a group of sixth years. When Lily saw them coming she waved, but went back to her homework. "You're such a nerd Lily." James joked when he neared.

"You're the one who distracted me from my work all week. I'm just catching up." Lily said as she wrote. "But there's something else we had to catch up on." She looked up at James suggestively. "Something I thought we could catch up on tonight?"

James shook his head. "Full moon, sorry."

Lily nodded and went back to her work.

"Hey Prongs." Sirius said as he pushed James away from the group. "I need a favour."

"What kind of favour."

"Not anything really…its just Kim…" Sirius sighed. "She's been really down lately. I don't know if it's stress or if she's sick or something, but I haven't spent much time with her today. Could you guys go without me tonight?"

"Yeah, that's cool. But has this got anything to do with, you know…Malfoy." James said lowering his voice.

"I'm not sure. Probably nothing, but…" He trailed off and shrugged. "I just wanna be with her."

"I get that." Sirius gave James a pat on the back and they went back to join the others.


That night, after Remus, James and Peter had gone to the Shrieking shack, Sirius was waiting outside the Slytherin common room for Kim. He looked at his watch. She was late. He sighed and kept waiting. He heard a noise and turned to see who was coming out of the common room, hoping it would be Kim. It wasn't.

"Snape. Haven't seen you for a while." Sirius said in a friendly tone.

"No, not since the party." Snape simpered.

"So, what have you been up to, mate?"

"Shut up Black. Don't pretend you even care." Snape said bitterly.

"Have you seen Kim?" Sirius decided to ask, knowing he probably wouldn't get his desired answer.

"Oh, you haven't heard?"

"Heard what?" Sirius responded blankly.

"Heard about Kim, and the accident." Snape looked puzzled.

"What happened?" Sirius asked, heart dropping.

"Maybe she doesn't want you to know…" Snape yelped as Sirius grabbed him by the collar and swung him around into the wall.

"You're a psycho." Snape coughed.

"You're dead if you don't tell me."

"Funny you should say dead." Snape tried to smirk, but his purpling face wouldn't let him. He felt a jab in his side and looked down to see that Sirius had his wand out. "But not that funny. Actually, not funny at all."

"What happened? What happened to her?" Sirius whispered shakily.

Snape looked over Sirius's shoulder and groaned. Sirius turned his head to see Kim looking on with a look of confusion on her face. Sirius dropped Snape and let him slump to the ground. Ris-Ris appeared from behind Kim and hissed at him.

"Kim!" He yelled and ran to her, grabbing her shoulders. "Are you okay? What happened?"

"Nothing happened. I'm fine." Kim said, still looking confused. "What's going on?"

Sirius froze. He slowly turned to the pile on the floor that was Snape. He was leering joyously. Sirius shut his eyes and growled, furious that he had been fooled by Snape.

Snape began to laugh, but grabbed his neck and started coughing.

Sirius opened his eyes and smiled at Kim. "I thought something had happened to you. I thought you were…" He trailed off and hugged her closely, moving slightly so that Snape had a better view. "Thank Merlin, you're okay." He leant down and kissed her as passionately as he dared. He forgot about how badly Snape had gotten him and kept kissing. Snape may have won the battle, but Sirius had won the war. He was kissing the girl that had given Snape a boner all those many months ago.

Sirius pulled away and led Kim down the corridor, desperately wanting to look back at Snape, to see his bitter face, but he knew that if he turned back it would not seem as classy and he wanted it to be, so he kept walking and returned his mind to Kim. She seemed a lot better. She had not been the same in the weeks since the party. She and Sirius still had a lot of fun, but there were days when she would seem depressed and Sirius hated those days.

The room of requirement was no longer in use. The partiers seemed to ignore the fact that it had only been there for one night and never questioned its existence. Sirius had been thinking about taking Kim there for some time and tonight seemed to be the perfect night.

He stopped her in front of the wall where the door to the room of requirement should've been. "I always take you to places I like." Sirius said softly. "It's time you chose. You know what to do, require away."

Kim paced in front of the wall for a while, until it turned into a large blue door. She grabbed Sirius's hand and they made their way inside. They found themselves no longer inside, but outside. A large beach at sunset, much like the one they had spent Christmas at. Ris-Ris ran away to chase some birds on the far end of the beach.

"I had so much fun that week." Kim said as she stared out at the horizon. "There was nothing to worry about. There were no tests, no teachers, no…" She blinked and turned to Sirius. "There was only you and me and our friends." She sat down on the sand and took off her shoes.

"I love it there. I remember from when I was younger, when I was friends with Ebony before we came to Hogwarts. We went there for a couple of weeks, for a holiday. It was great until my mother had a fight with Ebony's mum. I didn't talk to Ebony again, until Hogwarts."

"You don't talk about your family much."

"That's because I hate them. I hate all their pureblood shit. Toujours Pur. I much rather talk about something that makes sense, not some bullshit about muggleborn's." He sat in the sand next to Kim.

"Have you ever done anything in your life that you truly regret?" Kim asked as she leant back to rest on Sirius's shoulder.

He thought for a moment. "No. Life's not worth living if you regret it. Everyone makes mistakes or stuffs up. It doesn't mean anything."

"I wonder sometimes if I should've done stuff differently."

"Like what?" Sirius asked as he stroked her hair.

"Like Lucius. There were so many things I hated about him, but he intrigued me. Everything he did was for himself, but I would never call him greedy. He could be cruel one minute and charming the next, but he was neither with me. I never loved him, but I felt about him differently than I'd ever felt about anyone else, except you. I always wanted you. I always wanted you to notice me. I never thought it would end up like this. I never thought it would be so…perfect."

Sirius closed his eyes as he listened to her. Kim had not been the only one requiring. He had walked quietly behind her, requiring for her to forget whatever it was that was making her so miserable. She now spoke so freely, not having to hold back, not having to think about what she was saying. It was beautiful. Sirius opened his eyes again and realised that the sun hadn't moved. It was a permanent sunset.

"I never really liked perfect." Sirius said softly. "I thought it was boring. We're anything but perfect and I love it that way."

"I guess you're right."

The two lay there talking until Kim had fallen asleep. Sirius listened to the waves and Kim's gentle breathing, thinking that maybe he was wrong and everything was perfect. With the thought he fell asleep.


Sirius walked through the darkness, searching for a light, any light. He heard a voice from behind him.

"Lets do something so against the rules. And lets get away with it."

"What are you saying?" He heard himself say, though his lips didn't move.

"Do you want to know what I have to say? Fuck them! I say stop thinking about them and start thinking about the people who want to have a good time with you. Don't think about tomorrow because what if it never comes?"

They stared at each other. Suddenly, Kim gasped and fell. Sirius reached out to her, but seemed to be getting further and further away.

He heard his own voice again, but this time it was Kim saying the words.

"You don't really want to do this, something more powerful is at work here."

He tried to reach her but she faded from sight. He could hear her screaming, crying.

"Kim." He yelled.

But the darkness enveloped him and he began to spin around and around, faster and faster.

He had stopped spinning. Lucius Malfoy was standing above him, wand pointed at his heart.

"Don't tell me what to believe, Black." His evil voice snarled. "Don't think you know better than me."

Sirius began to spin again and when he stopped it was dark again. He saw a body on the ground in the distance. He tried to run to it, to see who it was, to see if they were okay. He couldn't let them die. But as he got closer, he began to spin again. He could hear Kim again, screaming and crying.

He stopped spinning at a graveyard. He was standing on a fresh grave. He could tell the hole had only just been filled in with dirt. He dropped to his knees and tried to read the words. He had to know whose name was on it, but he had begun to spin again.

Kim's screams were getting louder.

"Kim" He whispered as he woke up with a jerk.


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