THE BEST FOR EVERYONE
Whether my mother knows it or not I am doing this for her, thought Kendall.
Dear Erica,
I didn't want to leave without saying good-bye. I am not trying to hurt you by leaving, quite the opposite. Your life has been filled with so much ugliness, mostly in part due to my very existence. For that I am sorry. I can no longer put you through that on a daily basis. I wish that ugliness never happened to you even if it means that I never would have been born. Know this from here on I will never celebrate my birth, for I can not celebrate your pain. I won't tell you that I will keep in touch, but I will always make sure everything is ok. There is another envelope addressed to Bianca please see that she gets it.
Mother I do love you.
With all of her loose ends tied up sooner than she thought Kendall said I might as well leave earlier, if I can get a flight. She would miss her family, Bianca whose love helped make her a better person and her mother who she really did love. But it was better this way. Why was it so hard for her to believe then.
Kendall finished her packing and set her bags by the door. Just then the doorbell rang, it was Bianca.
Kendall opened the door just enough to peek out of, she didn't want Bianca to find out she was leaving. "Bianca, What brings you over"?
"Well aren't you going to invite me in Kendall"?
"Actually the place is a mess so how about another day"
"No now" and with that Bianca pushed her way in. "Going somewhere Kendall"?
"As a matter of fact I was, business for Fusion."
"Really" Bianca said as she looked around the room. On the table were 2 letters one addressed to her and the other to their mother.
"What is this Kendall?" she asked holding the 2 letters.
Kendall tried reaching for them but Bianca was quicker. "I was just leaving you guys notes as to where I would be staying."
"So you won't mind if I read mine then", asked Bianca.
She was not going to wait for an answer and tore open the envelope. It only took a couple of minutes to read the note, but it seemed like forever. Kendall now knew that leaving was not going to be easy.
"Kendall you can't be serious, you can't leave." What about me, what about mom." Bianca was not going to let her sister leave, not if she could help it. "Why are you doing this we need you now."
"You don't need me, remember I am the product of sick people" "If I thought my life was bad before just being a child of rape, Bianca you can't imagine how I feel now."
"I have to get away from all of you, I can't drag you down. Not to mention I refuse to hurt mom anymore." Kendall was crying again it was getting to be a habit, one she better kick.
"Don't you think Mom should be the one to decide what is best for her?" Bianca could see that she was serious about leaving.
"No I don't, not in this case anyway. She would have me stay no matter how upset it got her just so that I wouldn't think she didn't love me. Bianca I know she does that is why I am leaving, it shouldn't have to hurt her to love me."
"Can I trust you not to tell mom".
"Actually Kendall I won't tell mom but if she asks then all bets are off." Bianca hugged her sister then left. No Kendall I won't tell mom, but I will give her your letter. Bianca rushed back to the penthouse.
"Mom, Mom" Erica and Jackson were sitting trying to work out a plan for dealing with Kendall when Bianca came charging in.
"Kendall is leaving today, here read this she doesn't realize I took it." Erica took the letter and went over to the window to read it.
"Uncle Jack, Kendall is so sad it is unbearable. She actually thinks that we would hold her birth against her now that we know everything."
"Its like her spirit is broken, she is pathetic and you know that is not Kendall"
"Jack I have to stop her" Erica crying said handing him the letter. "Please check and make sure she did not leave yet. Call me on my cell I am going to Kendall's to try and stop her."
"You want me to come mom"
"No Bianca this is something that I have to handle alone".
Kendall had a couple of hours before she had to go to the airport, so she poured herself a glass of wine. This past year was like being on a roller coaster, in 12 mere months so much happened. She had grown, she no longer just thought of herself. She might not be able to trust everyone but with Bianca she knew she could trust at least one. She was so wrapped up in her thoughts , that she didn't notice when Erica came in.
"Kendall" Erica spoke the name so softly so as not to startled her daughter. But never the less she was flustered.
"Erica I thought we concluded our business earlier."
"Kendall I read the letter." Erica was talking very softly so softly she could barely be heard which was the effect she was going for. This meant the Kendall had to listen and not talk.
"I know what you think you mean to me, now let me tell you what you mean to me."
"Yes the details surrounding your conception were horrific, I shielded myself by keeping everything in the dark. When you first found me the darkness was getting small cracks of light in it. Over the past few years more and more light was getting in."
"The night of the storm a huge chunk of light broke in, yes there was darkness but it was getting lighter. The closer we got as mother and daughter the more light it became. After the intervention all the darkness was gone. Do you know why?"
Kendall shook her head no.
"It was you. You Kendall brought in the light. I needed you in my life but I never realized it. You the light covered the darkness."
"Kendall you are the proof that out of the dark can come light. Something bad can bring about something good."
"Kendall you are my good." From this day on we will honor your birthday, so that we can celebrate you life. You are my daughter and I love you, please don't leave. I will help you get over whatever demons that haunt you. I mean what are mothers for if not to help their children."
Kendall was in tears how did she get so lucky.
"Mom tell me I wont be hurting you if I stay, I couldn't stand it if I did. I've done so many horrible things since you've been gone, you may not want me around." "No one else does."
"It doesn't matter besides they aren't your mother" with that she put her arms around Kendall and hugged her as if her life depended on it.
"I've lost to much time with you so any problems there are we will face them together." "I love you Kendall always remember that, no matter what you will always have my love." "I love you too mom"
They were holding each other crying when Bianca found them. This was what Kendall had needed and wanted all of her life. Erica's love and acceptance. Now she had the family that she had always dreamed of .
Whoever said you were never to old to dream was right, I finally have my dream. Kendall thought.
The Kane family was on its way to being whole.
