Falling

Author: Nicole

Genre: Romance, Drama

Pairings: Duo/Heero

Disclaimer: Don't sue; I don't own Gundam Wing… though I would love to! Muahaha

Warnings/classifications: Shounen-ai/yaoi, PG-13

Summary: Duo feels lost without Heero; he starts to doubt their love… Heero's love…Will he lose everything? Duo's POV

Dedicated to everybody who could use the support

"Blah, Blah" = what they actually say

blah, blah = Duo's letter


A week later…

As soon as Heero heard from Wufei how Duo felt, he sent him a mail. A big balloon popped in his stomach, he was overjoyed! But now… that feeling was gone, again. He hadn't heard from Heero since… He sent him 3… no 4 mails! This was driving him nuts! Maybe I should… break up with him, he thought. But immediately after: No! Never! I never want to lose Heero!

God, this was killing him! And Quatre found out… So mummy Quatre moved in with Duo and he took Trowa with him… Duo appreciated the thought, but this was even worse! Seeing Trowa and Quatre hug on the cough when they thought he wasn't watching made him miss Heero even more!


Next day

"Duo, you look terrible! Get some sleep!" That was what Quatre said… And when Quatre said something like that, it had to be really bad! Duo crawled up in his bed… Heero, Heero, Heero, Heero… ZzZzZz… Heero… ZzZzZz… When he woke up he felt broken… like some giant tried to tear him into 6 pieces while he had been sleeping… He got up… "Let's see the damage…" He looked into a mirror… 2 violet eyes looked at him… a pale face… very pale, like he had been dead for a month… and a braid, a braid he made a week ago… Duo sighed and started to re-make his braid… just to do Quatre a favor but stopped halfway, realizing he hadn't shower, neither washed him the last 2 days… He pulles out his boxer and walked into the bathroom to shower… while the warm water run down his body, some of his worst thoughts left 2… He turned off the water, did his braid and got dressed… He looked… well… at least he looked less dead…


When Duo tries to open the door he heard something… giggling… All the bad thoughts returned… the terrible feeling of being alone…

He opened the door…

"Duo! Did you have a good night sleep?" "It was okay, thank you Quatre" Quatre frowned "Why are you being so polite?" "It's nothing Quat, just al little bad mood"

Duo sat behind the pc and started to log in… fingers crossed! "Hello Duo… You have… "please?" 0 new emails" The world collapsed, noooo! Why? C'mon Heero! You could have mailed or called or… anything…

Duo sighed… He saw that Trowa and Quatre pitied him…

"I'm going for a walk"

It had just rained… Everything smelled wonderful; he always loved to take a walk after it rained… Ooh, remember! When I dragged Heero outside into the rain and… Heero… He missed him so much… "Heero, you're deadly, you know that?"

He saw the café he used to go… aah well, a drink won't hurt… right?

The braided boy went inside an ordered a cup of hot chocolate… He drunk it, paid and left immediately… Too many memories…


When he got home, Quatre was waiting for him…

"Duo I have something that might work… How about you write down everything you feel right now? You might feel better"

What the Hell, why not? Everything was better then this… "Thanks Quat"

Quatre smiled "No problem"

Duo went to his room, got a pencil and a piece of paper and started…

Dear Me,

This is my therapy and I'm going to take it seriously…

First: I love Heero more than anything in this world! More than fighting, more than music, more than walking outside after it rained… My world would collapse without him; I wouldn't have a reason to live.

Second: I know Heero is not the social type, so I'm worrying about nothing! Its not like he does it on purpose! Right…?

Duo doubted… But continued writing

Third: Well… Sigh… I could… call him… again… I mean why doesn't he ever answer the bloody phone?! If he just let me hear from him once in a while I wouldn't be in this mess!

Not going like it's supposed too…

I mean, he knows I can't take this stuff! He knows I'm sensitive! He knows I'm not that confident about love! God! Why should I wait for him anyway?!

Duo stopped… His rage calmed… He sighed and read the letter…

Sound like a bloody suicide letter…

He signed it

Farewell and Good luck to you all,

Duo Maxwell

He put it on his desk and go in bed… he kept thinking… sounds like bloody suicide letter… Suicide… Suicide? He got out of bed and left…


Next morning

Quatre walked into Duo's room… "Duo, its 12.30 how about you get up" He turned to see that Duo wasn't lying in his bed… "Duo?" Quatre saw the letter on his desk… He read it and turned pale… "Oh, no… Oh no! TROWA!" Quatre started to cry… uncontrolled... Trowa came in and read the letter… "God… I'm sorry Quatre, but you HAVE to stop crying! We have to find Duo before he hurts himself!


Alright… it's gonna be 3 chaps! Review!

Nic