Title: Down
By: N170017
Note: So I wrote this chapter not really knowing where to go with it. As I reached the end I decided that I would take the majority of suggestions and place the two love birdies together... but if you want to know who I picked your gonna have to read it cuz I don't want to ruin it. So I don't know how much more of this story there will be, it seems I can't really think of anything to write at the moment and if you have an idea please, please tell me! I would be friends with you forever (jk, or am I?). lol anywho so now that I've bored you... here's the next part of Down! Oh I almost forgot Thank-you, thank-you, thank-you for the reviews you guys are so nice!
"So we uh heard ya know..." Ray stuttered in typical Ray fashion. I smiled but wished I hadn't. I wish I were gone already... I wasn't in the mood to say goodbye. It was too much right now. Nodding I let my smile fall.
"Lily you know we didn't want any of-"I cut Travis off.
"I know, I know. Heck we all know. I just wish my mom knew," I stated. Maybe if I explained to mom... and hadn't I been through this? Hadn't I already decided that I should leave? Yeah, I had but looking at Ray, Travis and Robbie was changing my mind. I know that when I go things will be left unfinished but I guess this is just how it has to be.
"We're gonna miss our little singer," Ray mumbled. I stared at him. I really shouldn't have kissed Travis. I did really like Ray. He made the mood better; he made me miss him when he was right here. I really liked him, oh god, I really liked Ray and look what I've put him through. I couldn't ever have forgiven me... would Ray? Did we have a chance? Not now, since I'm going...
"RFR's never going to be the same," Robbie told me smiling, although we all knew it was forced.
"Just remember what Gandhi once said, 'when I despair, I remember that all through history the way of truth and love has always won. There have been tyrants and murderers and for a time they seem invincible but in the end, they always fall -- think of it, always'." Travis told me. I smiled inwardly. Travis was Travis just as much as Ray was Ray.
"I wish I'd be staying... I wish I had more time. This all got way out of hand. It seems so wrong for me to leave with all this happening. I guess I seem a bit selfish," Robbie stared at me while Ray shook his head, "I mean leaving you to deal. Funny thing is I want to deal with you all, here... I guess it's cause I know that we'd deal eventually, and be just as we were... or really close anyway."
No one spoke after my little outburst. The room was muted. We all accepted my moving, all the while knowing that none of us wanted it. Then a voice spoke from the hallway. "Lily I didn't know that you felt that way."
I averted my glance to the doorframe, which was occupied by my mom. "Mom!" I stated. How much had she heard? I don't want to make her feel bad for the move. I just didn't want it...
"Yeah Lily... Can we talk, you know just us?" Her question was rhetorical. The guys each in turn looked at me and then slowly made their way to the door.
Turning back Robbie added, "We'll really miss you."
"Dito," was all that I could think to add. I really wish that I had great comebacks like Ray. Maybe then I could help make everyone feel a little better but not even Ray could've saved this situation from being horribly depressing.
Then they were gone, just as simply as they had come. My mom closed the door, I felt closed off. "I didn't know everything about the event... I wish I had. Lily I see or hear rather that you don't want to go. We, that is your father and I really did think leaving would be better, but after hearing what you've said I think we were wrong," Her face was ridged as she continued, "Your father called me about an hour ago and it turns out someone else got that job. So there really isn't much need for us to go."
"REALLY?"
"Yes," my mom repeated softly. I hugged my mom hard and slowly let go. "This doesn't mean that you're totally off scotch free, ya know?"
"Yeah I know," My cheeks hurt from smiling but I didn't care, everything in the world was better now... everything was like it should be! I loved my mom and I loved my dad but I didn't know if I could have really moved. I didn't know if I could have left Ray, Travis and Robbie...
"So tomorrow me and your father are going to come pick you up and take you home. You'll be home for the week then it's back to school with you. I want you to fully heal so nothing strenuous..."
"Yeah, yeah mom," I replied tiredly. I felt peaceful inside. I didn't care that mom and dad would be watching me like a hawk even if it would be annoying. I would be staying... you heard it here first... I wasn't going anywhere.
"Okay well I'm going to let you get some sleep..."
"Sounds like a plan."
"I'll see you tomorrow honey."
"Bye!" I whispered as my mother slowly left my room. Sleep pulled me down and I found it incredibly easy to drift away on a sea of cotton candy.
Morning
I opened my eyes and rubbed them while yawning. Today I would finally get to go home, I was so happy!
"Morning sleepy head," I heard briefly beside me. I turned my attention to the boy that was slumped against one of the walls. Ray. Why was Ray here?
"Ray what are you doing here?" I responded.
"Your mom told us all about you staying and I couldn't help but bound over here in a fit of Hitment."
"Hitment?" I asked.
"Oh um, happy and excitement... best of both worlds." I laughed.
"Not your best combo ever."
Ray laughed nervously, "Yeah, I know but... Lily I just wanted to say, um I wanted to say that..." Ray took three breaths before he continued. As he talked I stared at him. What was up with him today? He seemed oddly different while he was all around the same. "Most of everything that happened was my fault. I over reacted. I know, me never," Ray gave a sarcastic smile and I smiled back. "It's just that thinking that he kissed you-"
This was where I interrupted, "Ray it wasn't anything like you think, we just, you know. We just?"
"Kissed? Yeah I know. Lily it's not that he kissed you... it's that you let him," I opened my mouth to object but Ray just kept talking, "Wait Lily I need to get this out," I closed my mouth and listened, "It's that you chose him over me, your bestest buddy ever. It's just that I like you Lily. I don't know if you knew that, but I do and I've liked you for a while and when you and Travis kissed a part of me just fell apart and I couldn't help but- well you know." My mouth was dry. Ray liked me? I suspected something but I was never sure... Ray watched me waiting for a response. I didn't know what to say... Ray had just told me he liked me and all I could do was gawk. "Lily? Lily say something?"
"Ray I can't- I mean I don't know what to say," Ray's face fell.
"So you don't then?" He turned to leave but I wasn't gonna let him get away so fast. I got out of the bed slowly for the first time in far too long.
"Ray wait you don't see," I desperately pleaded. I needed to explain and I needed to right now, before anything else is my life falls apart. Ray by now was at the door reaching for the handle. He turned at my words. But could I really say what was in my heart to him? Could I really be so brave? I guess this is for all those marbles people are always talking about....
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