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"Harry Potter and the On Going Struggle"

By SillyGillie

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Summary- Harry Potter's 6th year full of drama, mysteries, angst, and romance. Harry promises never to forget the people he's lost, the year goes on and more people are dying each day. Harry is trying to master his Occulmency along with NEWT classes, some interesting new classes, quidditch training, a new DADA teacher, DA still in progress, and the threat of the Prophecy grows closer each day. I hope you like it.

A/N– I am currently re-posting all of my first chapters, due to numerous grammar related errors!

A/N- Hey all!! Sorry I haven't been on in ages!!! I haven't been able to post or go online! Jeeze, I had soooo many projects and stuff due this week, but alas tomorrow is finally Friday! Halloween too!! Yay!! I hope you guys have an excellent time! Alright well, here we are. The sad chappy! I actually made my sis have tears in her eyes! LoL! (Note-she's not emotional at all) So Missy, I'm counting on tears you hear I want tears!!! : p! Alright again sorry for the delay and sorry that this chapter is sooo short, but I really want reviews for this one, so I can't post two chappys at the same time... Sorry, thanks for bearing with me! Luv you guys! *smiles sweetly*

Disclaimer- Sorry no ownership of the Harry Potter series, I didn't get the accent either...darn.

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"Sirius Black was my godfather. He was a very special person to me. When he came into my life, four years ago, he became the greatest person to me, the one whom I could talk to, share my problems with. He always managed to find a way to help me with little things like school work to bigger problems like my scar. He always found a way to help, to be involved, although he was restricted to hiding in alleys or caves he always found a way to see me when he could." Harry stated

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"I'll remember him because that's what he would have wanted, to be remembered. People close to me have told me numerous times that Sirius had always wanted to go doing something important. He wanted his death to have meaning. I understand from friends of his that he would have wished for nothing more than to help other people." Harry paused

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"I didn't get a chance to get to know him very well" Harry said as he felt his voice start to shake he paused a moment to regain his composure, "I didn't, but when he was with me he always made me feel welcome and a part of his family, he was the father I never had the chance to have" Harry said sadly "and he was the closet thing to a parent I'll ever have. He was my godfather and he'll always have a place in my heart"

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He finished and walked back to his seat between Remus and Dumbledore. Remus smiled at him sadly and Dumbledore nodded to him to give him some support. As he sat down, he caught sight of the Weasley's, Ron was staring numbly ahead with a saddened expression in his eyes, Mrs. Weasley was weeping openly and Mr. Weasley was rubbing her back to comfort her, Fred and George were sitting silently for once in their life, Bill and Charlie were sitting with their heads bowed, Ginny was sitting next to Ron with her hand clamped firmly in his, tears streaming rapidly down her face.

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She suddenly looked over as if she had sensed someone looking at her and caught Harry's eyes he smiled sadly, his once vibrant green eyes had a dull cloudy look to them. Ginny gave him a smile full of aguish which made Harry's heart feel like it had been ripped open, he quickly looked away. He spotted Hermione with her parents sitting in the row behind the Weasley's. Hermione had tears streaming silently down her face, her mother though who had never met Sirius could tell how much he had meant to her daughter, and for that she grieved as well.

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Harry's eyes then caught movement next to him, he watched as Remus slowly got out of his seat and walked up to the podium, Harry watched him place his papers in order and the slowly as he began.

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"Sirius was a great friend of mine" Remus started off, "One of the best I could have ever asked for with my condition but he stuck by me" Remus said his voice full of anguish,

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"I have many fond memories of the two of us together. Whether playing pranks on fellow classmates" Remus paused as a couple of people let out small chuckles at the memories, it was dead to Harry's ear however. Remus continued "or sitting together and talking. I have many memories of Sirius being just who he was, from young childhood up until his later years.

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When he was imprisoned in Azkaban for killing Peter Pettigrew I thought of him as a traitor I mourned for the death of my friends, for they all would leave me that day. When I first saw Sirius again, he was trying to kill Peter for wrongly accusing him, I knew from the start that the old Sirius would be gone and I would like to say that I was wrong.

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For as the years went by, he gradually came back. He was able to live again, with his godson whom he cared about very much. That however was taken from him yet again, but this time by the hands of Voldemort. Today we will mourn for the death of one of my best friends whom I will never get the chance to see again. Today we mourn for the loss of someone who had a great place in our hearts, today we mourn for Sirius Black" Remus finished softly declining the magnified spell with each sentence.

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Harry watched as he walked back slowly to his seat next to him and then as he gave Harry a pat on the back, everything seemed surreal as if he no longer was in this place with all these crying eyes, he no longer wanted to be here. He would stay though, he had to stay for Sirius he owed him that much. He was sure however that

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Sirius wouldn't have wanted anyone to feel this kind of pain he wouldn't have liked to see all his friends mourning him, but Sirius was no longer here to comfort his friends, to make them smile once more. He was gone and by the hands of Bellatrix Lastange. Harry cursed himself as he thought of this name, he saw someone walk down from the podium though he never saw them walk up, he looked closer and saw it was Tonks. She too had been crying, and was wiping her eyes as she returned to her seat next to a woman who looked a bit older than her, who was weeping as well.

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Harry looked up as to his left Dumbledore slowly raised from his chair, it seemed to take him an age to reach the podium and the hall was in complete silence. When he arrived, he clasped his hands behind his back and began.

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"Sirius, one star in the vast heavens, one man in our hearts. One casualty in this war against evil, this war which has been waging for thousands of years, repeating itself over and over again for years to come. For as long as there is good in this world there will always be evil. One man out of millions to die each day, but one man with meaning, with a thirst of life like no other, one to never disappoint, yet you have disappointed him.

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You have dishonored him, but he lived to honor you. He died as he would have wanted to, in a battle against evil, you knew his way's one who never stays out on the sidelines, always in the thick of things. With the evils of his dreams that tortured him again and again, for you he has perished, for you he has gone never to return, for you, he will stay in our thoughts, our minds, and most of all our hearts. For you he will live on."

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Harry felt a tear roll down his face and forcefully wiped it away, he was no stranger to this hurt he was feeling again. He cursed Dumbledore as he turned and saw him staring intently at Harry, he averted his eyes quickly as Dumbledore's eyes bore into his own. He again felt the need to leave this place his was in. He turned his face as the pastor walked up to the podium he would block out the words he searched faces as well. He saw many people he'd never seen before the whole hall was packed with mourners for Sirius.

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Harry couldn't help but think of how many people would actually be here if Sirius' name had not been cleared, then he remembered that Sirius would probably not have had one. He looked angrily on, and spotted the door so close a way to escape oh how he longed to leave. He turned as he felt someone's eyes on his neck, he looked and saw Remus staring at him with eyes overly bright.

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"Harry" He whispered

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"What?" Harry snapped softly

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"Why aren't you listening?" Remus questioned softly

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"I don't want to" Harry answered simply, as he moved his head in the other direction, he felt Remus' stare on his back but ignored it.

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The funeral ended soon after three other people had gone on after the pastor and then finally the pastor again for the closing of the funeral. Harry waited silently by the door as Remus and Dumbledore made small talk with people they knew.

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They were to go out to the cemetery soon, though they hadn't recovered a body, they were still going to give Sirius a grave. Remus told Harry that he had already picked out a tombstone for Sirius, and asked if it was ok Harry quickly shook his head yes. He didn't want to be here, but he had to, and he would.

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Soon the congregation walked out of the doors with Harry, Remus, Dumbledore, Tonks and her mum, the Granger family, and the Weasley family following shortly behind, along with the rest of the people who had attended. Right when Harry arrived he wished he hadn't, there the sign of death was evident, Sirius was gone. His life was over, there was no turning back anymore Harry looked up at the sky, he would look anywhere but in front of him where it lay.

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Sirius Orion Black

"Padfoot"

"Sirius the brightest star in the heavens

and the brightest star in our hearts"

12-23-62 / 6-12-03

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Thanks so much for the reviews:

Kemenran- hmm Sirius' will, do you know that I totally skipped that part and continued on so far that Harry's now at the Burrow...that's a problem...lol

OceanGirl1661- awesome job Chelsea, I'm so proud *sobs* Great job! I heard you finished it just got grounded off the computer! Your poor soul! I'm glad you like it though *beams* Well, I'll see you tomorrow in Computer Apps...oh dear. Darn 10 at night and I just realized I didn't do my article, god darn....

I-love-sirus73- Thanks so much! Your so sweet, yes I always thought it was an interesting question, and I just decided to answer it myself! LoL

Missy- Aww thanks Missy!! Yes I agree we need to hug Harry *hugs Harry* we need to do it as often as possible, just for good measure! Aw thanks so much Missy your so sweet, and don't worry I have complete faith that in this chapter I at least made a tear appear...*looks hopeful*

Sakura Sayoran- Thanks so much Philly!! Aww your welcome! Thanks for reviewing my story! I have mistakes...*glances at story nervously* really? And I don't think that Kreature left...I'm not sure but I'll look later. I just don't think the order would've let something like that happen.

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Stay tuned for..- A Grave Discovery (I'm so proud of that chap title!)

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