Chapter Ten :
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Landon finally arrived home. He pulled his car into the driveway of a modest two story home. He stepped out of his car and went to the front door of his house As he stepped in the front door it went into the living room, it was tastefully decorated.The only thing that seemed out of place was an old piano that had once belonged to Jamie. It was a gift from Reverend Sullivan many years ago and even though Landon had moved from place to place and had moved on to bigger and better things since money was no longer a problem he could not would not sell the old piano.
Sitting atop the old piano was a picture of Jamie, Landon just stood there looking at the picture transfixed. He just stood there remembering....... remembering that after Jamie had died he always said hello to this picture and talk to her when he needed her, it had helped him through some pretty difficult times to know that she was always with him in spirit As time passed he eventually stopped talking to her, to her picture. He even stopped saying hello to her.But today, today was different." Hello Jamie my beautiful wife. Im sorry.......sorry for not talking to you for awhile. Actually I know its been longer then a while but.......but " Landon was unsure of what to say next " I miss you and I will always love you and I always will and a part of you will always be with me. Our love is like the wind I can't see it But I feel it.
He walked from the living room to the stairs and went up to his bedroom where he changed from his suit and tie to a pair of jeans and a red polo shirt. Then he walked back downstairs to the living room sat down and turned on the tv. He flipped through a few channels then he turned off the tv and just sat there.
As he sat there he thought about Jamie, he thought about Amy, but mostly thought about what Belinda had said. He still could not believe that she was capable of saying such things. He thought he knew her but now.....could he ever forgive her for saying such things.
He really needed someone to talk to but who. Normally he would have talked to but Belinda but the situation was about her and Eric didnt seem to be the right person either. He thought about Reverend Sullivan or his dad but neither of them seem to be right either. The only other person he could think of was his mom as he reached for the phone.
" Hello Mom its me Landon."
. " Landon this is a suprise you normally call me well on wed, so why are you calling?"
" Can't I just call my mom and say Hello.".
" Whats wrong Landon?"
" Nothings wrong."
" Landon " she said in a voice she used when she knew he was lying she could always tell when he was hiding something.
She could hear Landon taking a deep breathe on the other side of the phone as if preparing himself for what he was about to say.
" Mom a we got a new patient in on monday. Her name is Amy johnson shes bright funny caring very pretty but she also leukemia
Landon all your patients have leukemia so whats wrong Are you attracted to her ? you like her right?"
no.........yes..............maybe.............I don't know
"As long as your sure she said laughing."
" mom its not funny Im confused. "
"about what "
" Theres something about her........something that thinks I might be attracted to her for the wrong reason. "
"Are you afraid maybe because of the love you and jamie or maybe because she also has leukemia."
" Theres more to it than that something that I have not mentioned yet."
" What is it"
"She looks exactly like Jamie"
Landon didnt hear anything as if his mom was too stunned to speak finally he asked "Mom are you still there."
" Sorry Landon I was just thinking I dont know what to say....Are you sure.? "
" Im sure mom believe me Im sure and theres more."
" What more could there be?"
" Me and Belinda got into a fight
"A fight " she said sounding alarmed.
"Well not a fight more like an arguement. It was about Amy She reminded me that jamie was her best friend then accused me of being attracted to Amy. She then reminded me that Jamie was her best friend then she said remember Jamie she was your wife and supposedly the love of your life. I can't believe she said that that she would think I would ever forget Jamie."
" Have you ever considerd the fact that Belinda might be jealous."
"Belinda jealous Mom were best friends We've known each other for years.Maybe at one time, a long time ago she was jealous but now our friendship, our relationship is different."
" Well maybe jealousy is the wrong word, maybe afraid would be a better word, but Landon did you ever stop to think she might have feelings for you beyond friendship."
" Mom thats impossible."
" Why is that impossible Landon?" Think about all the time you spend together Have you ever see her with someone, anyone has she ever dated anyone for any length of time in all the time you have known her.
Well his Mom was right about but maybe because she had never found the right person he thought to himself
All I want you to do Landon Is to think, think about what I said I cant tell you what to do or say but about what I said
Okay Mom I will
One more thing Landon when you see Belinda on sunday try to be Oh I dont know forgiving
Whts make you think I will see Belinda on sunday.
You two have been going to church together for the past....its been so many years I lost track And even if you two dont go together I know she will go and I know you will see her there so talk to her Landon talk to her please and forgive her otherwise you will end up regretting it for the rest of your life.
I dont know if I can Mom
If you don't Landon if you don't forgive her and she doesnt forgive you You two will lose your friendship and maybe a whole lot more.
"What do you mean a whole lot more?"
I mean your possible future together not just as friends but maybe something more which you two have been avoiding all these years
I'll think about it Mom But I think your wrong about Belinda and me. Ill talk to you next week mom I love you.
I love you too Landon bye
As he hung up the phone he thought about what his Mom had said. She sure gave him a lot to think about before if and when he saw Belinda again.and if he even talked to her.
Landon finally arrived home. He pulled his car into the driveway of a modest two story home. He stepped out of his car and went to the front door of his house As he stepped in the front door it went into the living room, it was tastefully decorated.The only thing that seemed out of place was an old piano that had once belonged to Jamie. It was a gift from Reverend Sullivan many years ago and even though Landon had moved from place to place and had moved on to bigger and better things since money was no longer a problem he could not would not sell the old piano.
Sitting atop the old piano was a picture of Jamie, Landon just stood there looking at the picture transfixed. He just stood there remembering....... remembering that after Jamie had died he always said hello to this picture and talk to her when he needed her, it had helped him through some pretty difficult times to know that she was always with him in spirit As time passed he eventually stopped talking to her, to her picture. He even stopped saying hello to her.But today, today was different." Hello Jamie my beautiful wife. Im sorry.......sorry for not talking to you for awhile. Actually I know its been longer then a while but.......but " Landon was unsure of what to say next " I miss you and I will always love you and I always will and a part of you will always be with me. Our love is like the wind I can't see it But I feel it.
He walked from the living room to the stairs and went up to his bedroom where he changed from his suit and tie to a pair of jeans and a red polo shirt. Then he walked back downstairs to the living room sat down and turned on the tv. He flipped through a few channels then he turned off the tv and just sat there.
As he sat there he thought about Jamie, he thought about Amy, but mostly thought about what Belinda had said. He still could not believe that she was capable of saying such things. He thought he knew her but now.....could he ever forgive her for saying such things.
He really needed someone to talk to but who. Normally he would have talked to but Belinda but the situation was about her and Eric didnt seem to be the right person either. He thought about Reverend Sullivan or his dad but neither of them seem to be right either. The only other person he could think of was his mom as he reached for the phone.
" Hello Mom its me Landon."
. " Landon this is a suprise you normally call me well on wed, so why are you calling?"
" Can't I just call my mom and say Hello.".
" Whats wrong Landon?"
" Nothings wrong."
" Landon " she said in a voice she used when she knew he was lying she could always tell when he was hiding something.
She could hear Landon taking a deep breathe on the other side of the phone as if preparing himself for what he was about to say.
" Mom a we got a new patient in on monday. Her name is Amy johnson shes bright funny caring very pretty but she also leukemia
Landon all your patients have leukemia so whats wrong Are you attracted to her ? you like her right?"
no.........yes..............maybe.............I don't know
"As long as your sure she said laughing."
" mom its not funny Im confused. "
"about what "
" Theres something about her........something that thinks I might be attracted to her for the wrong reason. "
"Are you afraid maybe because of the love you and jamie or maybe because she also has leukemia."
" Theres more to it than that something that I have not mentioned yet."
" What is it"
"She looks exactly like Jamie"
Landon didnt hear anything as if his mom was too stunned to speak finally he asked "Mom are you still there."
" Sorry Landon I was just thinking I dont know what to say....Are you sure.? "
" Im sure mom believe me Im sure and theres more."
" What more could there be?"
" Me and Belinda got into a fight
"A fight " she said sounding alarmed.
"Well not a fight more like an arguement. It was about Amy She reminded me that jamie was her best friend then accused me of being attracted to Amy. She then reminded me that Jamie was her best friend then she said remember Jamie she was your wife and supposedly the love of your life. I can't believe she said that that she would think I would ever forget Jamie."
" Have you ever considerd the fact that Belinda might be jealous."
"Belinda jealous Mom were best friends We've known each other for years.Maybe at one time, a long time ago she was jealous but now our friendship, our relationship is different."
" Well maybe jealousy is the wrong word, maybe afraid would be a better word, but Landon did you ever stop to think she might have feelings for you beyond friendship."
" Mom thats impossible."
" Why is that impossible Landon?" Think about all the time you spend together Have you ever see her with someone, anyone has she ever dated anyone for any length of time in all the time you have known her.
Well his Mom was right about but maybe because she had never found the right person he thought to himself
All I want you to do Landon Is to think, think about what I said I cant tell you what to do or say but about what I said
Okay Mom I will
One more thing Landon when you see Belinda on sunday try to be Oh I dont know forgiving
Whts make you think I will see Belinda on sunday.
You two have been going to church together for the past....its been so many years I lost track And even if you two dont go together I know she will go and I know you will see her there so talk to her Landon talk to her please and forgive her otherwise you will end up regretting it for the rest of your life.
I dont know if I can Mom
If you don't Landon if you don't forgive her and she doesnt forgive you You two will lose your friendship and maybe a whole lot more.
"What do you mean a whole lot more?"
I mean your possible future together not just as friends but maybe something more which you two have been avoiding all these years
I'll think about it Mom But I think your wrong about Belinda and me. Ill talk to you next week mom I love you.
I love you too Landon bye
As he hung up the phone he thought about what his Mom had said. She sure gave him a lot to think about before if and when he saw Belinda again.and if he even talked to her.
