I've Seen More Spine in Jellyfish – Ch. 1
~jimmySLOTH
Wow, and I do mean wow. Thanks, thanks all too much for the support from the readers. I didn't think that anyone would like this but I guess I was wrong because I got a load more reviews than I thought I would!!! And now to answer a few questions and make a few comments:
Splash-Yaoiluv: I was perusing through my reviews when my eyes glances upon your name. I practically chocked on nothing. Dude, you have no idea how much it means to me that you approve – I practically got my Taito start from you. Thank you thank you!
yamatoforever: Wow lots of questions!! =D I think you will enjoy who the stalker is, teehee. Also, I'm thinking about re-doing "All I want for Christmas is You", do you think I should?? #__# You are right, the mother should care more, but we get to that issue in later chapters. Thank you for the generous review and I look forward to seeing more reviews from you!!
August G: Thank you so much for the kind review =D I'm really glad that you think I accurately described Yamato. :D Thanks so much!
nEo-cHaN: =) I'm glad you liked my comparison to the lake. I'm sort of new at similes and metaphors and whatnot, so thanks for the boost in confidence! Thanks, thanks, thanks!
BessArtist and AnimeKitty101: No, no, there will be no Sam in this story *shock and scandal* I know, I know, but you'll just have to see how I do without my beloved Samantha Tobey. =D Love you lots!!
Violette_Mai: Thanks for the double review!! Maybe you could do it every chapter? LOL just kidding of course, but thanks for the abundance of support shown! =D I won't let you down I promise!!
Thanks to EVERYONE ELSE WHO SHOWED SUPPORT!!! (Helene, Sillie, Lottie11, Yams_41, DragonBlade, and DarkMetalAngel_of_Destruction) YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST!!!
And now, on with Chapter One: My Porcelain Mask
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I threw my keys onto the counter lazily, and sunk back into my favorite chair. I thought back on Taichi, and wondered why I had met up with him, after so many years of being away from him. I'm one of those believers of, if you miss a plane, you are not meant to be on that plane. So I was guessing that I had to have met up with Taichi for a reason. But what exactly was it? Why would I have met up with him?
I didn't matter anyway. I wasn't especially fond of him in any way, and it's not like he's very fond of me either. I don't need anyone. All I need is myself. If anything was meant to happen it would have happened by now and it would be a part of the past.
There was a knock on the door. I stirred slightly, but made no leap for the door. I casually took my time, then unlocked the door and opened it. My eyes almost popped out of my head.
"Y-Yamato? I-is that really you?"
I stared back at the small blonde-haired boy in disbelief. "Takeru? What are you doing here, you know mom said you couldn't visit me anymore!" I was so astonished that he had bothered to defy that woman. Takeru would never disrespect our mother in such a way, and now, seeing him standing in front of my apartment, I wondered what could have possibly made him need to go behind her back.
"I-I, well, it's kind of... I... can I come in?" Takeru asked politely. I quickly allowed him in, took his coat, and settled him down into a chair with some Green Tea. I asked him to tell me what was wrong. Takeru blinked up at me. "Onnichan, I'm scared... I think... I think I've fallen in love."
A raised an eyebrow. "And this is a crisis, how?"
Takeru turned his face away from mine. "It's with Daisuke."
Daisuke. Daisuke... that name sounded familiar. And then it hit me – Daisuke was the boy that Takeru had played in basketball years ago, and he was on Taichi's soccer team, too. Daisuke, that annoying little pest; I could remember that he was annoying, and that he was always challenging Takeru to anything and everything. "Oh, that boy," I replied quietly.
"Yes. That BOY," Takeru replied, stressing the fact that Daisuke was a boy.
"Yes, I am aware that Daisuke is a boy, Takeru, you don't need to stress that to me. Unless you're not sure yourself, which is perfectly..." I started off.
Takeru cut me off impatiently. "Don't you see anything wrong with that? We're both boys. BOYS. Mom wouldn't go for that, would she? Society wouldn't go for it either. Nobody would, now would they? And I have this huge panic attack hanging over my head, because all I want to do is chase after someone that I care about. And I can't do that."
I smirked. "Well what's stopping you?"
"HE'S A BOY!!!!" Takeru cried angrily. "THAT WOULD MAKE ME GAY!"
I shook my head at him. "Takeru, Takeru... there is nothing wrong with being Gay. It's just love, right? Should it matter gender? Search for personality, search for the one you want to be with, and just go out there and get whoever it is, regardless of what it may look like to anyone else. Always remember that."
Takeru smiled. "How is it that you're right about everything Yamato, and you're still not happy?"
I blinked at him. "I'm not right about everything Takeru..."
He shrugged back at me. "Anyway, I'm also running away from mom for a while and I need somewhere to crash. D-Do you mind if I stay here? Even for just a little while? Please, Onnichan?"
I rolled my eyes at him. "Oh yeah, I'm going to go send my little brother off into the world, tell him to make it on his own and never come back here," I said sarcastically. Then I smiled and softly said, "Of course you can crash here, Takeru, and you can crash here as long as you need to."
Takeru grinned. "Of course, I don't have any clothes or anything so we have to go shopping tomorrow and buy me some stuff."
I grinned at him. "Well at least you know the right way to run away, don't make it too suspicious, right? And where did you learn how to run away? Oh man Takeru, are you a bad boy in disguise? That might make Mommy upset..."
He grinned back. "I'm such a bad seed, I'm the bad child of the family after all."
"So we'll go clothing shopping for you tomorrow then, and then after that I'll get you settled into the city." I looked at my hopeful brother. I don't know how I manage to be nice to him, after all the pain that I've ever felt. Maybe it's because I want to protect him like I was never protected. Maybe it's because I never want him to face the pain and torment that I have carried deep inside my soul throughout my entire life. He's my flesh and blood, my responsibility and I love him, and I could never bear to see him hurt.
He nodded. "Hey, Onnichan, thanks for everything."
I think that was possibly the first thank-you I'd ever gotten in my entire life.
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:FLASHBACK:
I sat silently in my room, thinking about what had just happened. He had touched me and no one had been around to stop him. And to top it off, my mother came home and lectured me on why I sucked at everything.
I stood up calmly, grabbed the closest sharp edge to me, and walked into the bathroom. I closed the door and turned on the lights. I stared at myself in the mirror. I remember my mother telling me when I was younger that someday my face would take me places. Now look at me. It's just a porcelain mask to hide behind, just the perfect image that everyone dreams of. Why did they want my life? I didn't even want my life! Well you know, they can have it. And they can have whatever just happened to me, and can have my pain and torment, and my parents and my everything. I'm just sick of it.
I leaned over and slashed the object through my skin. A trickle of red dripped slowly down my wrist.
And I'm ashamed to say I enjoyed it.
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=D Again thanks to all those who sent in reviews, and I hope that you all enjoy this chapter as much as the others. Please continue to review, I really appreciate those. Again many thanks!!
~jimmySLOTH aka MEG iSHiDA
~jimmySLOTH
Wow, and I do mean wow. Thanks, thanks all too much for the support from the readers. I didn't think that anyone would like this but I guess I was wrong because I got a load more reviews than I thought I would!!! And now to answer a few questions and make a few comments:
Splash-Yaoiluv: I was perusing through my reviews when my eyes glances upon your name. I practically chocked on nothing. Dude, you have no idea how much it means to me that you approve – I practically got my Taito start from you. Thank you thank you!
yamatoforever: Wow lots of questions!! =D I think you will enjoy who the stalker is, teehee. Also, I'm thinking about re-doing "All I want for Christmas is You", do you think I should?? #__# You are right, the mother should care more, but we get to that issue in later chapters. Thank you for the generous review and I look forward to seeing more reviews from you!!
August G: Thank you so much for the kind review =D I'm really glad that you think I accurately described Yamato. :D Thanks so much!
nEo-cHaN: =) I'm glad you liked my comparison to the lake. I'm sort of new at similes and metaphors and whatnot, so thanks for the boost in confidence! Thanks, thanks, thanks!
BessArtist and AnimeKitty101: No, no, there will be no Sam in this story *shock and scandal* I know, I know, but you'll just have to see how I do without my beloved Samantha Tobey. =D Love you lots!!
Violette_Mai: Thanks for the double review!! Maybe you could do it every chapter? LOL just kidding of course, but thanks for the abundance of support shown! =D I won't let you down I promise!!
Thanks to EVERYONE ELSE WHO SHOWED SUPPORT!!! (Helene, Sillie, Lottie11, Yams_41, DragonBlade, and DarkMetalAngel_of_Destruction) YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST!!!
And now, on with Chapter One: My Porcelain Mask
[=][+][=][+][=][+][=][+][=][+][=]
I threw my keys onto the counter lazily, and sunk back into my favorite chair. I thought back on Taichi, and wondered why I had met up with him, after so many years of being away from him. I'm one of those believers of, if you miss a plane, you are not meant to be on that plane. So I was guessing that I had to have met up with Taichi for a reason. But what exactly was it? Why would I have met up with him?
I didn't matter anyway. I wasn't especially fond of him in any way, and it's not like he's very fond of me either. I don't need anyone. All I need is myself. If anything was meant to happen it would have happened by now and it would be a part of the past.
There was a knock on the door. I stirred slightly, but made no leap for the door. I casually took my time, then unlocked the door and opened it. My eyes almost popped out of my head.
"Y-Yamato? I-is that really you?"
I stared back at the small blonde-haired boy in disbelief. "Takeru? What are you doing here, you know mom said you couldn't visit me anymore!" I was so astonished that he had bothered to defy that woman. Takeru would never disrespect our mother in such a way, and now, seeing him standing in front of my apartment, I wondered what could have possibly made him need to go behind her back.
"I-I, well, it's kind of... I... can I come in?" Takeru asked politely. I quickly allowed him in, took his coat, and settled him down into a chair with some Green Tea. I asked him to tell me what was wrong. Takeru blinked up at me. "Onnichan, I'm scared... I think... I think I've fallen in love."
A raised an eyebrow. "And this is a crisis, how?"
Takeru turned his face away from mine. "It's with Daisuke."
Daisuke. Daisuke... that name sounded familiar. And then it hit me – Daisuke was the boy that Takeru had played in basketball years ago, and he was on Taichi's soccer team, too. Daisuke, that annoying little pest; I could remember that he was annoying, and that he was always challenging Takeru to anything and everything. "Oh, that boy," I replied quietly.
"Yes. That BOY," Takeru replied, stressing the fact that Daisuke was a boy.
"Yes, I am aware that Daisuke is a boy, Takeru, you don't need to stress that to me. Unless you're not sure yourself, which is perfectly..." I started off.
Takeru cut me off impatiently. "Don't you see anything wrong with that? We're both boys. BOYS. Mom wouldn't go for that, would she? Society wouldn't go for it either. Nobody would, now would they? And I have this huge panic attack hanging over my head, because all I want to do is chase after someone that I care about. And I can't do that."
I smirked. "Well what's stopping you?"
"HE'S A BOY!!!!" Takeru cried angrily. "THAT WOULD MAKE ME GAY!"
I shook my head at him. "Takeru, Takeru... there is nothing wrong with being Gay. It's just love, right? Should it matter gender? Search for personality, search for the one you want to be with, and just go out there and get whoever it is, regardless of what it may look like to anyone else. Always remember that."
Takeru smiled. "How is it that you're right about everything Yamato, and you're still not happy?"
I blinked at him. "I'm not right about everything Takeru..."
He shrugged back at me. "Anyway, I'm also running away from mom for a while and I need somewhere to crash. D-Do you mind if I stay here? Even for just a little while? Please, Onnichan?"
I rolled my eyes at him. "Oh yeah, I'm going to go send my little brother off into the world, tell him to make it on his own and never come back here," I said sarcastically. Then I smiled and softly said, "Of course you can crash here, Takeru, and you can crash here as long as you need to."
Takeru grinned. "Of course, I don't have any clothes or anything so we have to go shopping tomorrow and buy me some stuff."
I grinned at him. "Well at least you know the right way to run away, don't make it too suspicious, right? And where did you learn how to run away? Oh man Takeru, are you a bad boy in disguise? That might make Mommy upset..."
He grinned back. "I'm such a bad seed, I'm the bad child of the family after all."
"So we'll go clothing shopping for you tomorrow then, and then after that I'll get you settled into the city." I looked at my hopeful brother. I don't know how I manage to be nice to him, after all the pain that I've ever felt. Maybe it's because I want to protect him like I was never protected. Maybe it's because I never want him to face the pain and torment that I have carried deep inside my soul throughout my entire life. He's my flesh and blood, my responsibility and I love him, and I could never bear to see him hurt.
He nodded. "Hey, Onnichan, thanks for everything."
I think that was possibly the first thank-you I'd ever gotten in my entire life.
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:FLASHBACK:
I sat silently in my room, thinking about what had just happened. He had touched me and no one had been around to stop him. And to top it off, my mother came home and lectured me on why I sucked at everything.
I stood up calmly, grabbed the closest sharp edge to me, and walked into the bathroom. I closed the door and turned on the lights. I stared at myself in the mirror. I remember my mother telling me when I was younger that someday my face would take me places. Now look at me. It's just a porcelain mask to hide behind, just the perfect image that everyone dreams of. Why did they want my life? I didn't even want my life! Well you know, they can have it. And they can have whatever just happened to me, and can have my pain and torment, and my parents and my everything. I'm just sick of it.
I leaned over and slashed the object through my skin. A trickle of red dripped slowly down my wrist.
And I'm ashamed to say I enjoyed it.
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=D Again thanks to all those who sent in reviews, and I hope that you all enjoy this chapter as much as the others. Please continue to review, I really appreciate those. Again many thanks!!
~jimmySLOTH aka MEG iSHiDA
