Written by: Hoshihikari4ever
Disclaimer: I do not own Fushigi Yuugi. Nothing belongs to me!
Summary: A reincarnation fic. Five years after the TV series. Miaka and Taka are a week from marriage. Miaka walks in on something unexpected, causing them to break apart. What happens when a person who Miaka thought she lost forever, shows up to comfort her.
Parings: slight Mia/Tama, Tama/Yui, Tetsu/Yui implied, main couple Miaka/Hotohori
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Chapter 8
At that moment, the doorbell rang. Miaka frowned. She stood up. "Who do you think it is…" "Don't know…but…its probably my brother and his best friend…they left to get something to eat…guess they're back…" Sai smiled. "I'll like to meet them." Miaka nodded and headed towards the door. Sai relaxed against the couch, sitting down in a very comfortable position.
Miaka headed towards the door. She opened it without peaking at the eyehole. "Keisuke, Tetsuya…You're…." She stopped and stared at the man before her. At once many thoughts rushed through her mind.
The man seeing her stunned quite a bit, pushed her slightly inside, before entering. He flashed her a smile before entering the living room. The smile instantly vanished, the instant he saw the man on the couch. The man, who was sitting on the couch, immediately jumped to his feet. The atmosphere tensed up. The two men stared at each other…both with cold stricken eyes.
Miaka quickly made her way back to the living room. She felt her muscles. In a few steps she was standing in between the two men.
Shit! Shit! Why does he have to show up now??
She looked from one to another, trying to depict who it was that held the greater loath and hatred of the other and found it quite difficult. The two men were glaring at each other with the dirtiest look that she had ever seen from either of them. The man who had just entered looked as though he was going to explode. His face was contorted, his upper body shaking while both hands were clutched tightly in fist. She looked at Sai, and saw that he was more emotionless. Besides the obvious cold death glare, there wasn't any thing else that stood out.
Still the same. Sai…Hotohori…still the same. Still the one with the most control, the one who seems to be taking the situation the best.
Finally, "Your Majesty" by the younger man broke the silence. Miaka's eye widened a bit, both at the tone and the words. She quickly glanced at Sai, who's brow furrowed slightly, before rolling his eyes.
~ Sai's POV~
I stared at the newcomer, obviously recognizing him instantly as the man in the photo, the one who went by Tama--- Taka. I felt the atmosphere tense, as it should in these situations.
So this is the man. The man who hurt Miaka. He shall pay for this. I shall make him pay for hurting Miaka.
"Your Majesty…"
I was shocked and confused by the words, which the other man had chosen.
What the f—k? Oh please, what the hell is he playing at? Hmm… 'Your Majesty 'Blah!!
Though confused, I did not let it show, knowing well that I would not make a fool out of myself, especially in front of this man. No, there was no way I was going to accept defeat from a guy who had hurt Miaka.
"Um….um…Sai, this is…this is Sukunami (?) Taka…..um…Tamahome….He's my…" "boyfriend….and fiancé…" Taka cut in before Miaka could continue, as if to express the point. I turned my gaze a bit at Miaka to see her glare at him, but otherwise showing no other sign of wanting to contradict to what he had just said. "and Taka….this is Saihitei Seishuku…."
The way she said my name, there was a special tone to it, something that I could not pick out. It sounded as those there was power and authority, yet a sign of warning to it.
The other man, Taka had given a look to Miaka as if saying 'I know who he is….I don't need to be reminded….' A look which surprised me, for I'm sure that we haven't met….and that there was no way that he would have know, that is…unless he too must have know that Hoto-guy and mistaken me as him….yet…that still doesn't explain why he'll address me or him, as of royalty.
~Taka's POV~
What the hell?? When did Hotohori show up? Why did he show up? Was I so naive to think that I could just dump Miaka, and that she won't go looking for another boyfriend. Well, I have to admit, I wouldn't mind if she did…but why…why out of all the people in the world does it have to be HIM?
"Um….um…Sai, this is…this is Sukunami (?) Taka…..um…Tamahome….He's my…" "boyfriend….and fiancé…" I cut in before Miaka could continue, just to state the simple point, to make it clear to the other that Miaka was still mines.
Yeah right! You dumped Miaka for Yui. You have no right to still hold claim to her! So what if I do! It's not like he'll ever find out!
~ Miaka POV~
I bit my lower lip, still trying to decide what to say or do. Minutes passed slowly. There was nothing but an uncomfortable silence.
Oh Suzaku! Guide me! Lead me! Tell me what I should do!
~Sai's POV~
I thought a bit, trying hard to decide what to do. It was obvious that this was going nowhere.
What should I do? What can I do?
"Kill Tamahome… Miaka…I swear I'll kill anyone…anyone who hurts you in any way. I will never forgive him for hurting you Miaka…I don't care who he is or how much he means to you…he will pay for hurting you. I'll kill him. Kill Tamahome…"
Nani? What am I thinking. Where did that thought come from. Yes….I know he hurt Miaka, and shall pay, but taking his life….where in the world did that come from.
* Flashback * (not exact account, more of a combination of scenes in different parts of the series)
She stood inches away. His hands were wrapped around her waist. Slowly, he bent down, eyes shutting slightly, but not enough to see that the women had turned her head away and had refused a kiss.
"Do you love him that much Miaka? Do you really love Tamahome that much to refuse even an kiss…." "Hotohori….Hotohori…please…." He withdrew from her, though his arms were still wrapped lightly around her waist. "I'm sorry….Hotohori….I…." "How could you still love him, love Tamahome after he hurt you like that….after the countless times he left you! Do you even need me to help count it for you!?" The women shrugged him off, however he held on tighter. "Answer me Miaka….answer me…"
Flashback end *
Huh? What was that? What happened?
"…Tamahome after he hurt you like that….after the countless times he left you! Do you even need me to help count it for you!?"
Those words, was still ringing in my ear.
~ Taka's POV~
The uncomfortable silence lasted. No one moved a muscle. I was taking in both Miaka and Hotohori at the same time, noticing how she stood closer to him then me. Then slowly, I saw him take a step forward, place a hand on Miaka's shoulder and pushed her back, so that now she stood behind him.
Well, this is good. At least if things worsen, Miaka won't be in the middle of it.
"You hurt Miaka…..Tamahome….you hurt her more then once. Do you need me to help count it for you….?" I opened my mouth at that, not knowing how to reply. Taking a glance behind him, I could see that Miaka had not been expecting it, had not been expecting such a question.
~ Miaka's POV~
Nani?? This isn't the first time that Sai's given me this feeling that he remembers the past. Maybe he does. Maybe I was right, maybe it really is his way of mocking me, maybe he even enjoys this game, maybe what happened at first, was only done to remind me…
NO!! That's not true! Hotohori's not like that. Sai isn't either. Hotohori, he would never do anything to hurt me, he never did, even at his own cost of happiness or life…He wouldn't torture me like this…
"You…you Tamahome and Hoto--- Hoto---whatever that guy's name is…better…better stay away from her…it's obvious that she doesn't love either of you…"
There it is again, thinking that he and Hotohori has no connection what so ever. Oh God! Suzaku! That must have just slipped out of his mouth…probably doesn't realize what he's actually saying, like the previous times.
I looked over at Taka, and saw his face relax, as a cool, cold chuckle came out.
"Exactly….I don't need to be reminded….however, it seems to me that some people do….some people seem to forget the small fact that their lover doesn't love them…." Came Taka's mocking retort.
I felt, more then saw the man before me stiffen. Sai's back had straighten and his fist had slowly clenched, though they reopened, once his fingertips touched his palm. I knew it was time to step in, knew that Sai would not be able to keep his temper down much longer.
~ Sai's POV ~
Temper brewed inside of me. I felt anger, though I could not understand why. I knew for a fact that it wasn't caused by the fact that Taka had hurt Miaka, but it was because of something else, something, which had upset me even more.
He had deliberately wounded * me * and my pride, something that I could not stand for. That man had struck a blow worst then one of physical contact. He had attacked, me, my, pride, my face and dignity. That man was mocking me….me though it sounded as though he was speaking of that other guy….the Hoto-what's his name….guy. Even, if it was meant for that other guy, I felt the need to defend him, especially since, according to Miaka, he had passed away and had during a time of his life had taken care of Miaka, been there for her when I or Taka could not have been. The need to protect and defend, against both Miaka's pass lover and myself, was absolutely necessary. I was not going to let this man rant on.
I stood firmly on both feet, I had never backed down, and I won't do so now. I wasn't going to let anymore harm come my way, nor Miaka, nor that Hoto-guy. I wasn't going to stand there and eat up the blows. I had always stood my ground, with both feet firmly attached to the floor while my head touched the sky. Yes, that was the man I was, and the man I'll always be. I won't let some ant crush me wound me, especially not my face or pride. No one's going make a fool out of me…especially not while I'm in front of the women whom I fell in love with.
"Oh yeah??? Well…who was the one, which Miaka shared her secrets, and feelings with? Who was the one that she ran to every time you hurt her for comfort? Who was the one that was there when you dumped her, hurt her both physically and emotionally? Who was the one that saved her from her suicidal attempt? Who was there when she broke down with the disease? Who was there to protect her, support and comfort her throughout the course? Who was there when you betrayed her, when you turned your back on her…?"
I felt myself rant on and on with the 'Who was there…' line, though I only subconsciously knew what I was saying.
It's hard to explain, but it's like the words are just slipping out, like I don't have any more control of what I'm saying. I could feel my jaws moving, could hear myself ranting, but I just can't hear what it is that is being said, not absorbing anything at all.
~ Miaka's POV ~
My eyes just kept widening at the words. My body just seemed to have frozen. The words, which were coming out, seemed to have paralyzed me.
Doshite? Nani?? Why can't I move? I know I must stop this, before it worsens. Why? Why can't I do that, why can't I protect either of them from the other's verbal blows?
Tamahome, Taka why did you have to make things worst? Why do you have to ignite a flame between the two of you? You just had to hurt Sai's pride and face eh. Well now, look what you've done eh? Serves you right that he's snapping back at you with the insults.
It's weird. Sai's just saying things that he's unaware of. I know he doesn't remember…yet, things just slip out without him even knowing it. Just like that flashback that he had…I wonder…I wonder could it possibly be that he's experiencing more right now, and that he's just voicing out what he sees and feels without even knowing it?
" I was….I was the one that Miaka ran up to when her feelings were mixed up, when there were things to be sorted or clarified. I was the one she ran to for comfort. I was the one that saved her from her suicidal attempt, I was the one that was with her during the fatal disease. I was the one that gave her protection, support and comfort throughout the course. I never betrayed her. I never turned my back on her….unlike some people…."
I noticed that he hadn't yelled the words, nor had stuttered through it. It had come out quite smooth, with strength, sternness and something…something that I can't quite put my finger on.
~ Taka's POV~
I let the older man rant on, wanting to speak and retort, but found it impossible to do so. There was no place for interruptions.
The man finally finished. I took the chance to speak up, unable to swallow the anger that had roused within me. No, I was not going to stand here, and do nothing about it. I had to fight back.
"Humph! Well guess what?! I was the one that met Miaka first! I was the one that was with her through the whole ordeal! I was the one she confessed her love to!"
"and then rejected her so many times…but she never gave up hope!!"
"I was the one who she fell in love with her. I was the one who sacrificed myself to the enemy to protect her. I was the one…."
"To end up hurting Miaka worst then before!!"
I also choose to ignore this
"I was the one…." I began this time louder then before. "I was the one who swore to find Miaka, and to forever be with her…."
Yeah right…True that did happen. However…Yui's occupying my mind, and it seems like we won't be together forever.
~Miaka's POV~
OH Suzaku!!! I need to stop this before anything else happens. It's worsening…God!! I need to stop them.
I glanced at Sai, noticing that even now he seemed to take the situation the best. He wasn't showing any signs of losing control, something that Taka defiantly was doing. He wasn't showing desperateness…like how I am. Even now, he's still so calm and in control. Perhaps he is deep inside, but whatever, he's not showing it, which shows that he's still stronger then either of us.
"I was the one who…."
Suzaku!! Give me strength. I must stop them. I must do so before either of them gets emotionally injured.
"That's enough Taka!!" I said sharply, taking a step forward so that once again I was between the two.
A hand reached out and touched my shoulder. "Miaka…" I turned slightly back towards him. "Miaka…."
~ Sai's POV ~
"That's enough Taka!!" came Miaka's voice, slightly surprising me, for I had thought that she would have the mind to keep quiet. Before I knew it, she was once again before me. I reached out to touch her shoulder, as if to protect her.
"Miaka….." She turned back slightly. "Miaka…." My voice trailed off, as my eyes caught hers.
Is it tears? Is it pain? Her eyes…they seem so sad.
"Mi….Miaka…" I asked hesitantly again. This time she turned her around completely, locking eyes with me.
Yes…yes…the tears are there, so is the pain, so is the sadness. Yet, there's something else to it, pleading, a search for understanding…?
"Sai….please….please……"
Yes, she was pleading. Pleading for what though? Why is she so sad, why does she seem so pained?
And then suddenly I understood.
That's it! That must be it. She doesn't want her friends fighting over her. She doesn't want either of us hurt by the other. This must be hurting her. This must be the reason causing her the pain.
Yet, what can I do. I never backed down before, and I won't do so now. Even if I want to back down, I can't. I'm not going to show that I'm weak. I walk proudly on this earth. There's nothing for me to bow down to. I won't admit defeat to him. I won't give him the satisfaction that he had won.
"Sai….please….."
But, this is hurting Miaka. Is that worth it? Can I ever forgive myself for hurting her. No. This time, I shall back down, not because I'm giving in, but because Miaka wouldn't forgive me for it. No matter what the situation, I can't bring myself to hurt her. Even at my own cost, at the cost of my pride, face, life and love…Miaka…for you I'll do anything…give up anything…
I slowly nodded, and took a step back, relaxing my body, which had been tensed up. "Very well….for you Miaka….." Taking her hands I enclosed it with mines. "Forgive me….." Then I released her. Taking one last look at Miaka, and then glared at the man, satisfied to see the jealous look. Without saying any more, I strolled passed Taka, paused a bit, and then continued on, existing the house, to the afternoon breeze.
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Gomen! Sorry it took so long! Hope there wasn't any disappointments. I know there wasn't any physical contact, but then again, physical contact came with Ancient China. Their in Japan now….in the modern world….they should be more civilized then how they use to be…going at each others neck for the slightest problem. Anyways….tell me what you think! Read/ Review!!
