I will always love you

Written by: Hoshihikari4ever

Disclaimer: I do not own Fushigi Yuugi. Nothing belongs to me!

Summary: A reincarnation fic. Five years after the TV series. Miaka and Taka are a week from marriage. Miaka walks in on something unexpected, causing them to break apart. What happens when a person who Miaka thought she lost forever, shows up to comfort her.

Parings: slight Mia/Tama, Tama/Yui, Tetsu/Yui implied, main couple Miaka/Hotohori

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Chapter 9

"That's enough Taka!!" Miaka yelled. She was frustrated, and wanted it all to end. Yet, she knew, she knew that the possibility of either of them getting out alive was thinning. She knew what she had to do, yet she couldn't bring herself to do so. Taking a deep breath, she strolled in front of Sai.

"Miaka……Miaka…." Came Sai's concerned voice.

I must do this. Please Sai…Please understand.

She knew that she was asking too much from him, but she was left with no other choice. Knowing what she must do, she turned her complete body towards him, before locking eyes with Sai.

Sai…please understand. This must stop. It must end. It's hurting all of us. Taka…Taka, Tamahome's never been reasonable…so it must be you…you must be the one that I ask.

"Mi…Miaka??" The question came out hesitantly. Miaka didn't reply, she just looked directly at him, converting her thoughts into her body motions.

I know I shouldn't be asking you. I know you wouldn't ever back down on anything…especially when it comes to my well being. However…Sai…its hurting me. Sai…if you really are Hotohori…and I know you are…and I have no doubt about it, you'll understand why…Hotohori…please…please just this once…Sai…

"Sai…please…please…" She whispered the words. Sai didn't seem to be giving an reaction, for he just stared at her, his eyes boring into her. She watched carefully for an reaction, which she saw as understanding swept through his eyes. "Sai….please….please…." Slowly, the man nodded. "Very well….for you Miaka…." Both of his hands, enclosed onto hers. "Forgive me…" He released her, and she watched as he quietly excused himself from her house.

Miaka watched the man leave. Finally, she out a small sigh, before turning to face the man before her.

Sai stepped out into afternoon breeze. His heart thudded hard as he was still recovering from the aftermath of his argument with Miaka's ex. Walking across the street, he went up to his car and plopped down on the driver seat. Taking out his keys, he ignited the engine. Still something held him back from leaving. He flung his arms frustrated at the wheel.

No, I can't leave now. No, I will not leave now. Miaka's still in there with her presumably, her ex. I shouldn't even have left the house. Dam, why didn't I just stand my ground for once. Why didn't I just stay and make the other leave. He has no right to be there with her. What would he do to her now? Would he just let out his frustration onto her? Perhaps, I can't be sure.

Making up his mind to hang around for a bit longer, or at least until he was sure that the man actually left, he took out the keys, leaned back on the chair and waited.

"It's funny….don't you think…." Miaka said softly, more to herself then the other. "Funny how he'll think he's another person and not connected to Hotohori in any way, when its obvious to me that he IS Hotohori…." Taka just rolled his eyes at her.

"Why didn't you tell me you found Hotohori…?" Taka asked, softening his voice slightly. Miaka glared at the man. "We only met yesterday…" she muttered, still not believing that everything that had happened was only during such a short period of time.

Miaka suddenly turned to face him. "and what are you doing here??" she asked bitterly, admitting that she wanted Sai to stay longer, disappointed that they were interrupted. Taka, again rolled his eyes. "Hey, don't I've got a right to be here…..I am your fiancé…and I still care for you…." "Oh…cut the crap Taka….I've known you too long….You just want me back….and then behind my back….you and Yui….." Taka cut her off, though he was slightly surprise that Miaka would know him so well, that she could tell he was not sincere. "I'm sorry…..I really am…."

He walked closer so that now they were inches away. "Miaka…I'm sorry….I really am…." He reached out to touch her cheeks, but Miaka filched away. "Don't you dare try that on me Taka….I know you too way…..Tamahome…!" She shook him off of her. "Miaka….listen to me….everyone makes mistakes…and to give you up is the biggest mistake that I've ever made….Please Miaka….we've done too much, been through too much for it just to end up like this…." The words, and the sincerity in his voice cause Miaka's heart to squirm.

God! How can he still do this to me? After all the times he hurt me, and still even now…I'll wish that he'll be back in my life. No! Miaka…get a grip on yourself. How many times have we made up, after a fight, an argument, a betrayal. How many times has he broken me afterwards? Countless…and still somehow we'll up together.

Yet, what about Sai?? What about Hotohori? I have to admit, I love him, that I am attracted to him, then and now. Still, a part of me, a bigger part of me, wants Taka, Tamahome…and not Sai not Hotohori…to be the one in the end who'll we'll end up sharing our lives together. Gomen, Sai, I do love you, but that hope, that ever dying flame of love between Taka and I, Tamahome and I seems to be irreplaceable, even after so many times he hurt me.

Taka must have seen something in her eyes, for this time when he reached out to touch her, she willing let him do so.

"Anno…Miaka….I really am sorry…Gomen. I didn't mean to hurt you…I didn't mean for us to break up….Please…please forgive me….." he hugged her tightly. "Taka….Tamahome….I really don't think it'll work out this time….." "Why….he asked smoothly, quite confident that he could change her answer. "Is it because of me and Yui? You know we broke…." "I know…but…." There was a long pause.

"You hurt me, Taka….you hurt me more then you ever did before….It's just too much. I still love you all….just not in the same way….." Something flickered in Taka's eyes. "So you're dumping me…." "No…." "I know…this has to do with Sai doesn't it….its cause Hotohori's back….and you think I'm not worthy of you….." Miaka remained silent.

Yes and No. Yes… you are irreplaceable as it stands now…however my feelings…I feel is more jumbled then before. True this may have something to do with Hotohori's reappearance, but its not just that. When in the past has his presence been interfering with us? Never. After all, he's just a friend…a friend…a very close brotherly kind of friend. Yet, from what you are doing Tamahome, its making it hard to keep him that way…

"That's not it….." Miaka snapped back. Taka knew at once that he had offended her in someway. "I'm not dumping because of him. Gee… if I really loved him, then wouldn't it have been that way from the start??!! Our meeting wasn't as far behind as the one with you!! You've done many things in the past….I had many chances to give up on you….however I didn't because…I still love you!!"

"Miaka….I….I'm sorry…." Taka said. "and if you really think I'm dumping you because of that….then just leave it at that….just leave it with the fact….and let you believe whatever you want!" "Miaka….if he's not the reason then why….you don't have any reason for us to break up….the only one would have been if the fact was true, and maybe because of me and Yui…..but everyone makes mistakes Miaka….and I already apologized…Please Miaka….I'm sorry…."

"Well, sorry is not enough. Have you ever noticed that!! Sorry isn't enough for me! Ok, maybe once or twice, but how many times is this Taka?!" Miaka took in a deep breath. "Sai's right….Do I really need to list all the times you've hurt me from the beginning to the end??" Taka's mouth shut tight. "Yeah, Taka…that's what I thought…speechless….and you really think I have no right to leave you…..??" "but…." "Oh…ok…I'll have to admit…I've forgiven you in the past….but do you think it won't hurt anymore. Well guess what Taka…it still hurts…ever since that first time, in Konan when you said 'I'm sorry, but I don't feel the same for you….' You're exact words that day. Yes, I still remember. Everything you hurt me, it'll come back to this line, that you don't love me…!!"

"Jesus Miaka! I was naïve back then. I love you….I've done everything for our sake. I may have said one thing….but my actions always showed that I loved you. The reason because I did all that was because of you!! Can't you see that Miaka….or is it because Hotohori, Sai has taken over your universe??" he shouted the last words. "Is it cause he has everything that I would never have….Well guess what….he's just a boy…..as Nakago once said….a boy emperor….there's nothing underneath that crown. I could sit up there…. just stick that stupid thing on me….and wah lah…you'll be falling heads over heals for me…cause I'm the emperor…and that's what every girl wants…. So much for his 'Perhaps she can love me as a man and not just as the next emperor'…Just think…he used 'man'….and he never will be one!!"

"Don't you ever speak of him like that!!" Miaka shouted, as anger rose, cutting him off from saying anymore offending things towards her friends. "You, Taka, asked me why I'm dumping you?? Well this is exactly why! You're not only hurting me…but my friends! I'll never go out with someone who'll offend me and my friends!! Taka….I guess you never understood this before, and I guess you never will. Friends stick up for one another. Friends…look out for one another. Friends don't offend other friends…and hurt them. Since kindergarten, Yui and I were best friends. Though, there were ups and down, we still are friends, for true friends in the end won't hurt each other. There is an understanding. You, Taka…you want us to be more then a friend. Well tell me…how can you be so, when you can't even be a friend??!"

Taka didn't reply. He didn't know what to say. He knew he shouldn't have offended the other man, but he couldn't help it. That was him that was how he is. To tell him to hold in his temper, to swallow other people's insults, was just impossible.

Seeing that there was no reply, Miaka's anger rose. "Just get out Taka! Get out!! I don't ever want to see you again. You've gone too far. First hurting me, and now my friends. That's too much! Get out….Get out of my sight now!!" She picked up something next to her, and began throwing it at the man. Taka stepped back a few steps. "Get out!!! Just get out!! Go back to where you came from. You ruined my life!" Miaka, you don't mean that..."
he muttered. However she did not seem to have heard him. Taking a step closer, she gradually made him step back until he was out of the house.

"and stay out!! I don't ever want to see you again!!!" Passerby's took a glance at them before hurrying away. "I hate you Taka!!!" she yelled after the man, as he hurried away. Seeing him disappear from behind the block, she turned and was about to go back inside.

Honk!! Honk!! Miaka spun around again, to see who was that annoying. Honk! Honk! Her eyes scanned the streets, until finally she saw a man sitting in the driver seat with a rolled down window. Hurrying across the street, she went up and buried herself in the man, who by now was standing outside his car.

"Miaka…" the man muttered, now grateful that he hadn't left. "Anno Sai….anno….Sai…Sai…I said goodbye….I said goodbye to him….forever…."

Done! Sorry for the late update. Btw, I don't write any Andy Wong fics…. Some of you guys have me mixed up with someone else. Just to let you know. The fic who I do know that does have an Andy Wong fic is titled "We will meet again" (and it's a really good fic…)