I will always love you

Written by: Hoshihikari4ever

Disclaimer: I do not own Fushigi Yuugi. Nothing belongs to me!

Summary: A reincarnation fic. Five years after the TV series. Miaka and Taka are a week from marriage. Miaka walks in on something unexpected, causing them to break apart. What happens when a person who Miaka thought she lost forever, shows up to comfort her.

Parings: slight Mia/Tama, Tama/Yui, Tetsu/Yui implied, main couple Miaka/Hotohori

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Chapter 10

"Miaka…" the man muttered, now grateful that he hadn't left. "Anno Sai….anno….Sai…Sai…I said goodbye….I said goodbye to him….forever…." Sai's heat raced fiercely at those words. Somehow, the line, "I said goodbye to him" meant something to the man, as if he had heard that exact line before. He searched his heart for the answer, for he wasn't too sure how to react, especially since now they were attracting too much attention from the passerby's.

Taking her gently, he steered her into the front seat, next to the driver. He himself sat back onto his seat, ignited the engine and drove off. He let his mind drift off in different directions, one focusing on Miaka, another on traffic, and the third was used to search for the right words to say, the words to say to comfort Miaka.

Slowly…everything disappeared….and his focus dimmed, so that he wasn't too aware of all that went around him.

Everything was a blur. I couldn't see anything. Blinking over and over again, I tried to regain focus. Voices, many of them distracted my concentration. I could feel his heart pounding, racing, non controllable, as if I had just finished a marathon.

"Everyone, please…concentrate on the flute…." A distant voice caught his attention. "Clear every thought, every emotion, just concentrate on getting Miaka and the others back…" the voice continued.

My heart leapt at the mention of Miaka. Miaka…Miaka… Concentrating on the name, caused everything and all sound to be blocked out. There was only one thing that I could see, and that was Miaka's face, her face which slowly shrunk and began to disappear.

"No!! No!! MIAKA!!!!!!!!" I felt a sudden energy being released. The next thing that I knew, someone had rushed up to me, tripping and sobbing uncontrollably.

"Hotohori…Hotohori…" Whoever it was buried his/her head on me. "Miaka…Where's Tamahome…?" Her head slowly raised and I saw her tear stricken face. "I said Goodbye…I said Goodbye to him…forever…"

"AAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!"

A shrill scream broke up his thoughts. "SAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOTOHORI!!!!!! WATCH OUT!!"

He slammed onto the brakes hard. The tires screeched loudly as he tried to halt his car. He could now see clearly, as if everything was put on slow motion. He wondered why he hadn't seen the speeding car sooner, the one which leapt out of the intersection from the right, driving straight thorough a red light. He could see it now, the way the collision was inevitable. Taking a glance at his speed, he noticed that it was still at 75mph, though he wondered how that was possible, since he was driving in a city. The other must have been doing more.

Oh, great Sai. Just perfect. You go around daydreaming and here's what you get. Didn't they always say to keep your eyes on the road? Yup. However they should add the mind and the heart too.

Now…Sai…think…think fast. What are you going do now? Slowing down isn't going to work. You're still at 52 and the crash is about 3 minutes away.

He instinctively reached out for the passenger next to him, his hand resting on her shoulder, pulling her close to him. "Miaka….Brace yourself. It'll be alright. I won't let any…."

Something caught his eye. It was a crimson, bird, one much like a phoenix. He blinked a few times, as time seemed to have frozen. The bird was still there. What was more was that it seemed to have a human head….one which beckoned to him, beckoned him forward, towards the accident. Then everything started to move. His foot stomped onto the accelerator and he gained speed.

"SAI??!! What the hell??!" he could hear Miaka's panic voice next to him. "Miaka….we're going to crash! It's unavoidable…..The only way to get us out alive is to pass the other car…." "SAI….Are you Crazy!!?? We're not going to make it…" "Miaka….trust me…." There was silence. "Trust me…." He turned to look directly at her eyes. The golden brown eyes, gave her all the reassurance that she needed. "I'm not asking much Miaka…trust me….I won't let anything….anything happen to you…..Do you un…"

Sai did not get to finish. The impact came at full force, or at least Miaka felt like it came at full force. The other car pelted straight at her door. Miaka screamed. Suddenly, something was on top of her. Taking the chance to look up, she was surprised to find Sai was on top of her. She wondered briefly how he had gotten there without she knowing it. Briefly something else caught her attention, a crimson light, an aurora glowed from Sai. She scanned for his mark, but found none. The light disappeared quickly.

The car spun rapidly as it swayed off the lane, and hit the curve. It spun around and around, out of control until suddenly it stopped.

Miaka could hear frantic screams as people rushed everywhere. She groaned a bit under the weight of the other body. "Oh God, Suzaku! Oh God! Thank God….thank God I'm still alive.

"Hey someone call the ambulance!! Quick!!" A voice yelled out. Miaka tilted her head toward the sound. "Hey, Miss, you alright….?" Miaka nodded numbly. "I feel fine…." She managed to say, while looking down at herself, surprised to find that her body was unscathed. "Good…good….that's good….hang with us alright….Everything's going be alright…. We'll get your friend to the hospital, and you to the police station." "Nani…?" "I said…we'll get him to the hospital…and you to the police station." The man pointed to Sai. For the first time, Miaka looked at her Senshi, and was quite startled by it.

Sai laid flat on her, his elbows which once supported his body above her, was now sprawled in an awkward position. What was more, was not the cuts, nor the blood, nor the tightly shut eyes…but was the fact that Sai was glowing….and dimming, losing his solidness.

No…No…No…Don't take Sai too. Don't take Hotohori away from me Suzaku. Sai…please…Hotohori…please don't die…please don't die.

Miaka had too many experiences with the other world…to not know what it meant to be glowing and fading. Both Suboshi and Nagako, and that was already one too much, had died in this world, and had disappeared completely. After all, they were characters from a book, and in being so…belonged in the other world. Now, for a brief moment….Miaka thought of Taka, and Tamahome, and how she said goodbye too him. She now hoped that he hadn't taken it seriously, nor did Suzaku. Though, she didn't want to be Taka's fiancé, she still wanted to be friends with him. Now, with this accident, Miaka realized just how fragile life is, and that she shouldn't take either of her Senshi's presences in this world for granted.

Oh, Please Taka…please don't return to the other world…

Miaka thoughts sped everywhere as she and Sai was forcefully separated. With him going into critical condition at the hospital, and she going away to be questioned about the incident. Miaka didn't want to leave him, afraid that he would disappear and that she would never see him again, but was forced to do so.


He was surrounded in darkness, complete blackness. There was an eerier silence, which was broken by a deep voice.

"So…you've returned Saihitei…" The deep voice spoke. "Who are you…. Where are you? How do you know me…my name…" There was a small chuckle. "Ah…so….you've forgotten….you've forgotten who you are….and you're purpose in life….and so….you have forgotten me….." A brief pause. "Good…that is good…you were not meant to remember…"

Sai, scratched his chin. Somehow, he knew that he wasn't going to be getting any answers from whoever was speaking. "Do…do you know where I am…how I got here…." "Hmm…? You have no idea at all?" The voice sounded amused. "You have no idea about anything at all…."

Sai thought a bit. Slowly, he began to remember the situation. "I was with Miaka…I think we crashed…." His voice raised. "Miaka….Oh…Kami-sama…where is she….is she safe…Oh God….please she shouldn't have died…."

"So…you do remember…yes that is what happened. Yes you did crash." There was another pause. "Hm…I see you haven't changed a bit…Sai….still, the same old guy that I know so well…Even now…Miaka's still the center of your world huh?" "Of course…" Sai automatically replied. "She's more then my universe….more then the reason for my very existence….I don't know how to explain it…and you probably won't understand." "I know more then you think I do, my boy….much more…." Sai only nodded.

"You did more then prove your love to her, at the accident…." The voice spoke up after a long pause. "Much more…..you sacrifice yourself for her….. just the way you were suppose to…." Sai swallowed hard. "Are you telling me that I've died….that death took me, instead of her…." "and what if I am…?" "Then so be it…" Sai said as a matter of fact. "With no regret…if life took me instead…then I am grateful…."

"Are you sure about it…" "Positive…" "What if I prove you wrong….? What would you decide to do then…?" "Nani…?" "I'm giving you a choice….either return to where you came from or return to where you belong…" "I…I don't understand…" "Let me show you then…."

From the darkness sprouted a growing red light. For a brief moment, Sai thought he once again saw the gigantic red bird. He shook it off, as the light grew and he was eventually consumed by it.


Ha Ha!!!! I'm evil. Going leave it there for now. So…yes, I know the crash seems unrealistic. Can you guys guess who the other driver was, or who Sai is talking to now? As the voice had said "either return to where you came from or return to where you belong…", so what should Sai choose…what would he chose…love or duty…?