Part 11- manly extracts from Raven's diary.

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Dear Diary.

15th October 1999

This is my first entry.

My name is Raven Roth. I am 11 years old. This diary was a birthday present from my mother. I don't want to speak about her. We don't get on. My father is a demon. In order to prevent him from taking over me I have to spent all my time mediating, controlling my powers and emotions. I don't go to school. My mother home schools me. I hate it. I wish I could be normal, and have normal friends. At the moment I don't have any friends. No one wants to be around me. They all think I'm weird because I never smile, or laugh, or cry. Sometimes I wish I could…………

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2nd May 2000

He came to me!!!!!

I was in my room mediating and he came!! My father!!! I was so scared that I started to scream hysterically. My mother rushed into my room, wrapping her arms around me so tight I thought that I would stop breathing. She buried my face with her chest, rocking me slowly, saying that she wouldn't let him take me. I began to calm down. As I did I felt him sort of fade away. But not before I heard him say that eventually I would belong to him. I don't think I'll be able to sleep for a week…

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4th May 2000

I can't stand being around my mother anymore. She smothers me. Ever since that incident with my father - she won't let me out of her sight! I just want to leave. I've made up my mind, I'm running away.

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17th June 2003

I am a member of the Teen Titans.

It's been three years since I left home and I have been spending much of that time wandering the streets. I don't seem to belong anywhere. Then I met him…

He said his name was Robin, and that he was starting a group of crime fighter. He wanted me to join. I wasn't sure at first, but then he took me what he called the T tower, and showed me around it. He said I could have any room that I wanted. At first I wasn't sure, but I decided to stay. That was before I met the other members.

Starfire - She's an alien. A bit to bright and bubbly for my liking.

Beast Boy - one word. Annoying!

Cyborg - Nice enough. Didn't try to hug me or crack any lame jokes.

Maybe I'll like it here……

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Scarlet flicked through the pages, not caring about much about how hard life had been to Raven. Excuse me but was she a clone of a demon, created by a crazy cult seeking to use her to end the world? No. Scarlet held no pity for her.

The word Terra caught her attention. She smiled sweetly to herself. 'Finally the good stuff!'

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20th July 2004

Terra seems to be settling well into the Tower. This morning she wolfed down two helping of Star's dreaded green pudding, and then asked for more. That really pleased the alien, she expected us all to do the same. The didn't want to let her down, but when her back was turned they tipped the mush on to Terra's plate. I didn't. I told her the truth, that I didn't want it. She looked sad. Beast Boy gave me a glare as well. Guess they a thought that I should have just eaten it to make Starfire happy.

Later, when I had finished mediating, I came out of my room to find the others gone. A note lay on the fridge saying they had gone to the park, but hadn't wanted to disturb me.

I saw them as they came back, laughing joking together, and I wondered if they preferred Terra to me? Would it matter if they did?

They spent all their time with Terra. It's like I don't exist….

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22ndtJuly 2004

I awoke to find my body floating above my bed. My mind is troubled, I'm losing control of my powers. And I can't help thinking that Terra is the cause of this. I tried to talk to Beast Boy but he got mad at me and said that I was jealous. I informed him that it would be impossible for me to feel jealousy without destroying the tower. That shut him up. But I can't help thinking that maybe I am jealous of Terra. She seems nice enough, and the others all like her, yet I can't help getting this feeling that there's more to her then what meets the eye……

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25th July 2004

I was RIGTH not to trust her!!! Traitor!!!!! She works for Slade. Terra nothing more then a two faced lier, sent to gain our trust and then destroy us!! She will pay!!!!!!!!!!

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1st August 2004

It feels good to be back in the tower. Everyone is returning to the city. Let me explain what has been happening over the last few days. Terra returned with a vengeances. She and Slade lured us into traps, of which were designed to annihilate us.

I unleashed my anger. I hate her more for letting me do that. She knows what could have happened. Trigon could have possessed me and then we would have been in serious trouble. But Terra just didn't care.

When Slade thought his little apprentice had been successful, we emerged to take her down. Slade was not happy - that's putting it mildly. However we won, but there was a price. Terra, of all people sacrificed herself. She turned on Slade when she saw that he was losing. The others forgive, and maybe I can sympathise with her situation, to feel so trapped that you have no other alternative but to turn on those you love, but nevertheless I can not forgive her. I think that part of me is even glad that she is gone………

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Scarlet slammed the book shut once she had finished it. She felt her stomach tighten. Terra had been a spy of Slade's, she had joined the Titans under false pretences. Then tried to obliterate them. This was sounding all too simpler. Would Slade ask her to do the same? Hadn't he said that she would owe him? The girl leapt up from the bed. No way would she hurt the Titans. They were her friends. They were…

However the girl had gotten her answer…

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Raven felt her world crashing around her. "Robin…" her voice croaked. "Where are you?"

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