Disclaimer: Not mine. End of story.

A/N: This was requested by my beta and close friend Michelle (Insane Vampiress). It is femmeslash. Don't like. Don't read. That simple. I hope you like it, and please tell me what you think. I appreciate any and all comments. It is Anya/Kennedy.

She Loved You Not:

You aren't good enough for her. She needs someone who can speak their mind the way she does. You're always so ashamed of her forward nature. I'm not. I give her what she so desperately needs. Someone who understands her, NOT just sleeps with her. She needs me. She loves you not.

We take pleasure in doing little things, we make crowns of flowers for each other, she likes the roses best. I bet you don't know how to take off the thorns. You can never look past something sharp to see the supple beauty it protects. She protects herself with exactly what she means to say. It works. No one sees the real her. Not you. She loves you not.

I do. I see someone who was once immortal and now desperately fears death. I see someone with darkness in her heart that only true love can keep from the gentle surface. I see someone who can be so strong if only given the chance. You see a girl, I see a goddess. She loves you not.

You think she likes money, it's no secret. But really, she loves the security it represents. Bet you didn't know that. That's exactly why she hates men so much, you never see past the surface. I see her need for security. And I make her feel secure. She loves you not.

I need what she gives me as much as she needs what I give her, she makes me forget about all the bad things that could and did happen. Because of her, I don't care anymore that Willow doesn't love me, or that I could die the next day. I live for the moment. She makes me live for the moment. And I make her live for the things that can be. She loves you not.

We made each other a simple promise. Don't cry if the other dies. So that's why I'm not crying. My tongue is bleeding and my lips have teeth marks in them, but I'm not crying. Did she make you promise her anything? You see, she loved you not.

So you understand, right? I mean no harm. But I just think you should know. Anya thought you should know. I love her most. I loved her last. She loved you not.

A/N: Did you like it? I don't know unless you tell me. . .