a/n: This would be a chapter with a warning. There is a scene that could possibly be rated R but I'm not 100% sure on if it is. I can't really tell. Just so everyone gets this hint to what will happen, I am a virgin, I just read lots of fan fictions on this site that give you enough to type up a good shower scene at least.
Ch.6 Showers and memories
The first time out there doesn't count, I wasn't even awake for most of it. This one, though, this one will make records. Set some and break others. Let's see if anyone can try and out do me.
"What shall we do for now?"
"What can we do to prepare?"
"Where shall we go?"
"What could we do out there?"
All good questions. How do we prepare to leave? How do you get ready to go on a rampage.
"Should we lie low the first time? Or should we outright show these people what we are and that we aren't afraid?" I ask these questions out loud, though I'm sure that they heard my thoughts.
"What will keep you safest, Otto?"
"We shall never put you in danger."
"Not if we can help it."
"What do you think?"
I truly don't know. I want to go out there and get what I need, but something in me just won't settle for that. I never noticed before, but there is a side to me that has been awakened. It is reckless and wants us to show ourselves. I don't listen to it though, Sarah, Kris, Bethany and Liz are right, stick to playing it safe, at least the first time.
"Let's stick to the shadows; we can always have fun next time."
They like the plan, from what I can tell. They nod the best way they can and look at each other, more and more anxious.
"What shall we do for now?" Bethany is the most anxious.
"Let's get dressed up. If we are seen we want to make a good impression," I know that I shouldn't go out the way I've been dressing. I haven't changed the style of my clothes since we came back. I've been wearing pants, really mismatched colored pants, and a trench coat so I don't tear any shirts.
I head up stairs and strip down. I've decided to take a shower first; my hair is matted and unruly. I know that the arms are water proof, I made sure that they could clean up a spill in the lab if need be.
Liz turns on the shower and I adjust the temperature when I'm ready. I find pick wait until all the arms are in before shutting the sliding door. The shower is small, so I am glad that the top is open. All four head out and explore the bathroom while I shower down.
I still remember when Rose and I were younger and we would both squeeze in here. She would run her fingers through my hair and I would run my hands down her smooth, bare, body. We would wash each other. She would shampoo my hair while I washed her sensitive body. We would stay like this for hours, exploring and cuddling. When the water became unbearably cold we would get out, get dressed, and go down stairs for something to drink. Something warm to drink.
My tentacles snicker at my thoughts as I wash.
"Hey!" I yell at them. They mentally burst into laughter. "That's not funny you four."
"Yes it is," they all answer.
It was funny to them. I know it was, but not to me. To me the memories that I have of Rose are so precious, as precious as the time that I got to spend with her.
I sigh.
They know that when I sigh I'm not happy, whether I be mad or sad, they know something is wrong.
"We're sorry, Otto."
"We forgot."
"We didn't mean to."
"Please forgive us."
How could I, and yet, how couldn't I? They were willing to risk everything to save me, and they want only the best for me. But they ridicule my thoughts, my precious memories of Rose. I'm so lost.
I sit down, the water seems painful now. Like little bits of hail hitting my pale, bare skin. It hurts, but I don't stop it.
I sprawl out on my back, the position change throwing my tentacles' balance off. I let the painful water hit me straight on. I look to my right wrist and see the scar, the mark that I put on myself, the rose that I cut. 'I swear as of right now, this mark will forever remain on me'. That is the most important vow of my life next to saying 'I do' when marrying Rose.
I never mean to break it.
a/n: short? I know! Sorry. I would really like to apologize to Prexistence. He will leave his home and go to the city next chapter. I really hope that this whole chapter was PG-13, but I did warn you and I did try and keep it PG-13. Please review!
