Story Title: Heart's Desire

Author: Blair Lebeau, SocialButterfli

Summary: When Slade taps into Robin's dreams and figures out Robin's one weakness, Starfire, Slade kidnaps her and holds her hostage in hopes of blackmailing Robin and eventually tearing the Teen Titans apart. Will Robin succumb to Slade's wishes, or will the remaining Titans band together in an ultimate battle of good and evil to rescue Star? Occasional fluff scenes because we love them. Rob/Star, BB/Rae, Cy and...his car.

Disclaimer: I don't own Teen Titans, but whoever does, today's my birthday and maybe you wanna give it to me as a pressie? PLEEAAASE???


Chapter 11 You Don't Even Know What Love Is

Starfire stopped pacing and sat on the stone bed, nothing short of exhausted. She hadn't slept very well, for obvious reasons, and then for reasons that she hoped would remain a secret. She touched her lips, remembering.

After she had fainted the day before, she awoke in a pair of strong arms. She opened her eyes, hoping to see Robin, but instead saw the face that had overwhelmed her into exhaustion.

"You're awake," he had whispered, and she let his gaze wash over her before attemtping to extract herself from him. But he wouldn't let go.

"You're beautiful when you sleep," he whispered hoarsely. "I may be evil, but even bad guys can love. And that's what I feel for you, gorgeous. Love." She looked up into his eyes, his ocean deep eyes, and got lost in them. She felt more confused than she ever felt before. She loved Robin, she was sure of that now, but what she feeling for Terran? Was it even possible to love two people? Could you even call it love? Robin never acted this way towards her, and she yearned for it. Perhaps Robin didn't feel the same way about her as Terran did. The Titans hadn't even come to rescue her yet. Were they coming at all? Perhaps Terran was her only companion now. Was that really so terrible?

She did not stop him when he leaned closer. 'He loves me,' she had thought. She closed her eyes and for a second let herself believe that the hot breath nearing her was Robin's. But she stopped, knowing she had to let him go.

But when Terran's lips reached hers, all she could think of was Robin.

Fresh tears began flowing down her cheeks again. Her first kiss was so regrettable. It was from a stranger, it was from Terra the traitor's brother, it wasn't from Robin. And yet, she had let him do it, even responded. But when his tongue had pushed against her lips, starting to seperate them, she had started crying, and Terran backed off.

"It's okay," he had said. "You're not ready. I love you so much, I'm willing to wait until you are. We've got the rest of our lives." He had left her stricken. The rest of their lives. It had made her cry then, it made her cry now. She had cried herself to sleep and dreamt of Robin and woke up crying more. She hadn't seen Terran since then and dreaded seeing him again. Or did she? The kiss had been lamentable, but....it was something she had wanted, needed, for so long. The only problem was, it had been given by the wrong person. The love she sought she had found in a stranger who she didn't wish to get to know. She was at fault; she had given him the go ahead and now she didn't know what he'd do to her. The rest of their lives.

"This will not be my life," Starfire cried out angrily, and green starbolts flew from her eyes and hands at the stone wall in frustration.

The wall crumbled a bit. Starfire froze, then let more of her fury out, until the wall broke away to reveal a tunnel.

"You don't even know what love is," she whispered, and then she began to walk. She walked, and walked, and then to give her feet a rest she flew, but her exhausted body was weakening and she wasn't sure how much further she could go. It was hopeless; she was going nowhere fast. She didn't even know where these damn tunnels would take her. Maybe right back to where she had started. She shuddered at the thought.

She was ready to give up all hope when she heard voices. Familiar voices.

"Can't you just admit that you are? And that you like it?" There was a pause as Starfire began running towards them.

"I love you," the second voice said, causing Starfire to stop cold. She couldn't believe it. Was it really her friends? She continued walking, warily, until she came into the clearing. And there, indeed, were Raven and Beast Boy, locked in a passionate kiss. She didn't want to disrupt them, but she had been away for so long, and her only company had been handsome and gentle....no, wait, evil and manipulative. Terran.

"I do not with to interrupt this, how you say, intimate moment, but I would really like to be rescued, please!" Raven and Beast Boy broke away from each other and stared at their long lost friend, torn between feeling pissed that they'd stopped kissing and being overjoyed by the sight of Starfire.

"STAREFIRE?" they said together in awe. Raven was almost knocked completely over when Star threw herself into her anti-affection friend's arms.

"Oh, friends, it is so good to see you. And also, were you kissing?" Starfire stepped out of the hug (which Raven never protested) and stared at the two blushing Titans.

"Yeah," Beast Boy said, a dreamy look on his face.

"Oh!" Starfire clapped her hands. "I am jubilant without end at your discovery of love!" She stopped short, the word 'love' making her think of Robin, then Terran. She had left the blonde charmer and his love behind. Love? Was it really? He didn't even know her.

"Star, you okay?" Beat Boy asked, concerned. She had been kidnapped; God knows what she had gone through. A thought struck him: Terran. He had shown obvious interest in her. Had he gone further than remarks? Starfire had passed out at those, what would physical contact do to her? Starfire was very pretty (though nothing compared to his beautiful Raven), and her naive innocence was attractive to many men in all the wrong ways. That's why he wished Robin would tell her how he felt. He was so perfect for her, he was kind, loving, and always patient when she didn't understand something, which was often. He would never take advantage of her.

"Yes, I am fine, I just wish to go home. Where are Robin and Cyborg?"

"Up there, fighting Terra and Terran, all alone," BB said, the danger their friends had been left in dawning on him.

"Then let us go to them!" Starfire insisted, trying not to think of what would face her. The one she loved battling the one who loved her. The one she had kissed against the one she wished to kiss. Oh, what if Terran told Robin what happened? Then he would never be able to look at her ever again....that could not happen. Her eyes glowed green with fury. Why had she let him do that to her?

"Starfire, what did he do to you?" Raven asked. "I read your thoughts, so don't even act like you don't know what I'm talking about." Beast Boy tensed up. He had been right. Starfire looked at her friends sadly.

"Our friends need assistance," she insisted, avoiding the subject. She blocked Terran from her mind so Raven could discover no more.

"The tunnel's caved in. We can't get out," Beast Boy said. "Star, if that guy did something to you, tell us so we can give him what he deserves."

'And his twin sister.'

Raven read that, and felt worried. If Terra still bothered him, what did that mean? Did she still have a hold on his heart? And where did that leave Raven, then? What if she was only his comfort to help him get over Terra? And when he was finally over her, what would become of Raven? Would she be discarded without another thought like all those years ago? No, she couldn't think about that. She also couldn't let herself be hurt again....

Beast Boy may not have been telepathic, but he saw her discarded cape on the floor turn gray. Raven was feeling a strong emotion she couldn't control. Gray, what had gray been? Timid. He saw her face, saw her fear. Terra. She had heard him thinking about Terra. Amazing, was Raven actually insecure? He squeezed her hand in reassurance.

"I can blast through the rock as I did to get out of my....room," Starfire said, avoiding the subject yet again but realizing she hadn't called that place a prison.

"Rae, could you shield us when the rock starts falling?" Beast Boy asked, and she nodded. "Ready?" Starfire blasted through, the black shield went up, and the dim underground was filled with light.

They were free.


Now that was a pretty long one, and I hope you liked it! With that little threat I had last time I got some serious reviews, and I'm absolutely IN LOVE with reviews, so I'll say it again, I'll update after 5 new reviews! Seeing as today is my birthday, I wouldn't mind some happy birthday emails....bats eyelashes Since every time I've tried to put my email in here they've taken it out, I'm going to put spaces in, but when you email me, don't put the spaces: love closes eyes my way . com

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Blair