"You still love her?"

Lex frowns. "What?"

"You do, huh?"

Lex turns to look at Siva. He knows what she's talking about but he wished he didn't. He didn't want this conversation to come up again, and it had.

"Siva, doll, we've been over this..."

"No we haven't, Lex! All that we know is that Tai-san left and you've always loved her, I was just.... a fling!"

Lex just stares. He opens his mouth to oppose.

"No, Lex! I'm right! You love her, you've always loved her. If I were wrong, you wouldn't be so wrapped up in finding her again. And as soon as you have her once more, I'll be forgotten and useless. I left Ram and risked my life to be with you and now that I have, you're thoughts are running off after some other woman. There was no point in I falling in love with you-"

Lex stands up straighter.

"Siva, babe, I-" he pauses and smiles, realizing something, "You love me?"

Siva scoffs. She was angry and wasn't in the mood not to be.

"You've known that, don't pretend you don't"

Lex took a step back, still smiling.

"Yeah, but I've never heard you say it before, I don't think"

She rolls her eyes. "So? What does that have anything to do with it? Don't start on another subject!"

"I'm sorry"

"No, you're not"

Lex didn't know how to respond to that. He was in some deep shit with Siva. He wondered if he was the only one in a complication right that moment. He thought of Leigha especially because he didn't want to think of her. He remembered how she was stuck at that place. He swallowed. He was now regretting what he said, well, thought, about him not caring if she was dead.

Siva saw his face and mistook it for thinking about Tai-San.

"Lex," she says apologetically, shaking her head, "I do love you, but this is all just getting too complicated for me."

Lex frowns.

"Lex, I just can't keep risking my feelings like this-"

"What do you mean?!"

She sighs. "I love someone who loves someone else...". She hopes her statement would clear something out. "I'm sorry, Lex"

"No, you're not. If you were sorry, you wouldn't be leaving right now..."

"I'm not leaving, this is my home. We just can't be together anymore..."

"So, even though I love you, we can't be together anymore?"

"You don't-"

"I know, I know, 'Tai-san'! I just have something to square out with her. You know, make all my feelings about her go away. You're the only one I want feelings for..."

He smiles, hoping she'll forgive him. She just stood there, her face solemn.

"And?"

His smiles drops. "And??"

Siva smiles and steps over to him, kissing him lightly on the lips.

"And that's enough for me"

He smiles.

"For now, that is," she says, smiling then kissing him.


sorry, not one of my better chapters. be sure to review!