Author Note: Okay here is the fourth chapter; the next one should be up tomorrow. Thank you to everyone who has reviewed so fare! ^_^
No Life Flower
Chapter 4:
Under the Sky so Blue
" KAGOME!" Inuyasha screamed out in horror, holding her cold limp body in his hands. She was dying in his arms and there was, nothing he could do about it. He was beginning to think it hopeless until an idea suddenly popped in his mind, he closed his eyes slowly, noticing before hand that her lungs were gasping for air.
" Kagome! I'm sorry!" He then leaned into her pressing his lips gently against hers, trying to do mouth to mouth resuscitation.
Watching Inuyasha attentively, Miroku gasped coming to a realization as he lunged towards Shippo covering his eyes. "This is not for children's eyes to see." He explained, keeping his eye locked on Kagome and Inuyasha.
Shippo began to squirm in his arms. " What can't I see?" he yelped as he tried to get free.
Noticing that things were getting out of hand, Sango aided Miroku in holding the kitsune down to the ground, and keeping his eye covered. " You're why too young for something like this!" She informed, her eyes also kept a close watch on the two in front of her. She just hoped that Kagome was, okay, and that deep inside of her, her heart had not vanished from life.
Forcing expedient amounts of oxygen through Kagome's mouth, Inuyasha tried his best to help heart began pumping again.
Nothing... it ran dry, he couldn't bring her back, those tears that once ran down his cheeks, seemed to fade, and all he could do was star at her in a tracing state. He just couldn't believe it was happening, couldn't believe she was actually gone. Everything he had feared for so long was now beginning to unravel before him. He always thought that he should of forced her to go back home, the last time she came back there to see him, but he couldn't turn her away because of those words she had said to him. * I needed to see you again. * Those words would be, forever etched in his mind. She couldn't leave him now, after everything they had been through together, he refused to let her go not right now.
" Kagome don't leave me!" He cried, finding that he could stare at her no longer, he closed his eyes, as he tried it again, pressing his lips to her once more while pumping her chest. Her body was freezing, her skin turning blue she was fading fast. " Kagome you can't go! I need you! Please come back to me." He whispered slowly to her, tears once again streaming the lines of his cheeks. He remembered how when Kagome had taught him to do mouth-to-mouth, he refused and told her 'that he would never need it. Besides why would he want too ever know?' Well now he knew why and was glad that she had talked him into learning it. He at least had a small chance of reviving her back to life with that knowledge. He just hoped that it would work because a life without her there wouldn't really be worth living.
" I could never!" Those delicate words pierced through Inuyasha like a dagger to the heart as his eye's jostled open, taking in Kagome's appearance as she coughed, and her eyes slowly opened.
Gasping in relief that their friend was away from death's doorway, Miroku and Sango, finally let go of Shippo, who stumbled in trying to figure out what had happened. " The kiss of life! I guess it's true what they say."
Shippo looked up at him curiously. " And what do they say?"
He glanced down at the curious kitsune, vaguely. " I will tell you when you're older." He explained.
Shippo's face became sour as he crossed his arms with a big hump. " No one ever tells me anything."
Within Inuyasha's arms, Kagome looked at him with a weak smile. " Did we beat him?" She questioned. Inuyasha looked at her calmly, and he nodded as he tried to stop himself from breaking out into more tears. Being that he was so happy she was alive, he couldn't stop himself from pulling her into a full embrace.
Uncontrollably, Kagome's eye expanded in shock as she tried to breath while he clinched to her happily.
" Kagome I'm so happy you're alive! I thought I was going to lose you! " He had said a little too much, but at this point, he didn't really care. He was, just so relived that she was alive and safe.
His words sinking into her skin, her eyes still wide, her emotions began to jar. " Inuyasha I'm okay, your not going to lose me!" she reassured him eloquently. Not yet anyway. She mused in the back of her mind.
Still hugging her, as he couldn't seem to let go, he shut his eyes. " I thought I let you down again!" he felt that he had let her down repeatedly every time she would be hurt or kidnapped. He had thought no different of this time; he should have finished the Youkai when he had the chance instead of letting her take him on herself.
" You didn't let me down Inuyasha if anything it was you who saved me!" She informed him gratefully. He gasped lightly in a heart filled expression. She had never thought him ever letting her down at all… still how could he have been the one who saved her. He guessed that the mouth to mouth really worked. That thought forced him to blush slightly, however, how did she know he did that? Had she seen him? He would have to find out the answer to these questions.
" Kagome how was I the one who saved you!" he inquired.
She smiled all-knowingly. " Because silly! It was because of you that came back!" She replied, still somewhat out of it. His eyes became watery from her words. Because of him… He smiled as he closed his eyes letting her go firmly, and helped her stand along with him.
Miroku yet again held the Kitsune's eyes closed for the whole thing. When they were finished in the loving moment, he let him go to go see Kagome, and Sango trailed behind them, she was, worried. She knew the truth of Kagome's condition and that she should have died but something brought her back from what she gathered it was for Inuyasha.
Once they all reached Kagome and Inuyasha, Shippo jumped in her arms snuggling close to her. " I thought you were gone for sure! Kagome." Shippo said as he tried to allay his fears to rest.
Kagome squeezed young kitsune within her arms. " It's okay Shippo! I wouldn't leave you." At least not yet anyway. She thought lamentably.
Sango bestowed upon her an all-knowing desolate look of concern, and she noticed this right away, quickly returning to her a glance of reassurance. She knew that Sango probably had thousands of questions for her, which she would answer in time or maybe even later in the day.
Miroku smiled at her mischievously, and she gawked at him in bewilderment. " What?" she asked, curiously. The monk was weird one, he always had way to shield his intentions from everyone around him, with exception of when he would try to be perverted towards someone, and they all could tell when he had that thought on the brain. She chuckled mutely to herself so that no one would notice or hear her.
Miroku looked at her still with a mischievous visage. " So Kagome! How are you feeling?" He asserted, trying to interrogate her secretly for information on her and Inuyasha. He liked knowing these things he found it very entertaining watching the two of them together.
Kagome knew he had some sort of aspiration, from the impish looks he was giving off. She really didn't have a clue as to what he was getting at. What had she done to make him act this way? She couldn't think of anything normal, so she embarked on a different path of thinking, a Miroku way of thinking. She couldn't think of another word for how he thought because there wasn't any word that could depict his way of thinking, even perverted wouldn't work for him. Being around him for a while introduced her to a new way of theorizing that she easily developed too. The first speculation she could come too was that it definitely had to do with something lecherous since that WAS his way of theorizing. She couldn't come to any conclusion that she had portrayed anything that would make him cogitate something to that extreme. She then inquired that maybe he wasn't talking about anything perverted, she easily pushed that thought aside; when had he ever smiled like that not meant something perverted. She sighed; she would just have to force it out of him. " Miroku, what's on your mind and tell me the truth?" She questioned skeptically.
Miroku's face faulted. She had figured him out although he had made a desperate attempt to keep himself serious and kept his true intentions tucked away. He didn't get any information on her and Inuyasha like he had planned. She didn't seem to know what he was talking about. He then concluded that she might not of seen Inuyasha kissing her. He became very perceived at the situation, and a smirk of sheer amusement crossed his face. He could have some fun with this, but if he did, he would have to risk his life for if Inuyasha found out that she didn't know he would kill him for informing her. For some reason that made him more eager to play the game of chance! He then devised a plan of how to go about it.
He looked at her with a confused façade. " What do you mean I was just wondering if you were okay? I mean you fainted and everything!"
Fainted? She didn't remember fainting! Well now that she thought about it, she did recall a point that everything went dark and then she awoke in Inuyasha's arms. The energy that she was putting out most likely caused her heart to collapse! If that were the case, why wasn't she dead? What exactly happened? She never really thought about how strange it was to wake in his arms all she was thinking about was making sure he was okay and that the monster had indeed died. From these questions that now bombarded her mind, she became very intrigued by what he had to say. " So, what did happen to me?" she questioned, eagerly.
Panic loomed over Inuyasha as he realized right away that Kagome had no idea what he had done to her, and that Miroku was about to tell her. If she didn't know he thought it best, she never would. He would have to stop him from blabbing to her. Miroku was on the verge of telling her everything, when Inuyasha ran up to him and knocked him over the head sending him colliding into the ground.
Kagome gave him a sheer look of bewilderment. " Inuyasha what did you do that for?" She inquired.
Grunting," Feh, he's been calling me for it all day long." he replied to her, unsure if he had answered, correctly.
Ignoring the fact that he had beat up Miroku for no good reason, and ignoring the fact that she felt he was keeping something from her, she held up the jewel shards that she had purified. " We have two more now, it's almost complete." She said smiling cheerfully, and Inuyasha returned that smile. She was happy that the shard only had a few more pieces to go until was complete; she may actually get to see this thing through.
Ambulating to the front of Kagome, Sango glared at her seriously. " Kagome are you sure you are all right?" She asked in concern.
" I'm just fine Sango, but you know all this fighting got me all dirty why don't we go to the Hot Springs?"
Noticing what she was implying, Sango nodded. Kagome cheered as she clasped her hands together, making a loud thump noise. " Great! Okay Inuyasha why don't you, Miroku and Shippo wait here for us." She then pulled out 3 bowls of Ramen from her bag and handed it to them. " Why don't you guys eat lunch while your waiting? We won't be long." She smiled as she grabbed Sango's arm pulling her towards the hot springs.
Kagome and Sango rushed towards the Hot Springs like there was no tomorrow. When the had finally made it Kagome pulled some fresh towels from her bag, handed one to Sango and kept the other one for herself. Kagome and Sango then settled in the water with their towels on, they were of course naked underneath but kept the towels wrapped around them as a safety repercussion from Miroku. The both knew that Inuyasha would never peek on them because of his shyness so they trusted him not to spy on them but Miroku was another thing.
Sango decided to dart right on in the reason they had come there in the first place, to talk about Kagome. " So are you ever going to tell him?" She questioned.
Kagome looked at her in bafflement of her own thoughts. " Tell him what?" Sango glared at her. " Oh yeah! Um I don't know if I want too!" she answered deep in thought.
Sango became furious at her. " Why won't you tell him? Don't you think he deserves to know?" She inquired, in a bit of anger.
Kagome opened her eyes real wide at her friends sudden out burst. " I didn't want him to have to worry about me, I thought maybe I could just tell him goodbye without him knowing it would be forever." She answered still in a daze.
" Kagome don't you think he would find out sometime, then he would be really crushed that you couldn't feel like you could trust him with your secrets." She said compassionately trying to help her friend allay her fears and just tell him the truth.
Kagome glanced at her impassively. " Do you really think he would feel that way?" Kagome said ill at ease, as she didn't think he would ever feel that way if she just suddenly dropped out of sight.
Sango stared out into nowhere as her voice trailed off in thought. " I think he would feel really horrible inside, he probably wouldn't be able to go on any more."
Kagome starred up into the blue sky as she watched the clouds slowly pass her by. " I don't think so, he probably would be better off without me." She stated sadly but assured it as the truth.
Sango turned with immense speed to look at her insanely blinded friend. " Are you crazy? He loves you Kagome, he saved your life you know?"
Kagome's eyes expanded greatly with shock. She slowly moved her head to face Sango. " He saved my life?" She questioned in bewilderment.
Sango nodded her head with a big smirk on her lips. " That's right! You should have seen him; he totally blew off the perfect chance to avenge Kikyou just to save you from dying. He did that mouth-to-mouth thing you taught us about helping your heart and lungs to keep pumping. He saved you and the least you could do to repay him is telling him the truth." Sango implied. She had learned a lot from Kagome thus knew about the whole bodily functions. She just hoped that Kagome would get the message and tell Inuyasha.
Bowing her head, she smiled meekly. " Well then maybe I will tell him, I guess I do kind of owe him." She pondered that for a minute before breaking out into laughter. " That must been what Miroku was trying to tell me... "
Sango looked at her curiously. " What DID Miroku try and tell you?" she questioned.
Kagome quit laughing for a second to answer her. " It was really funny, Miroku was going to tell me what Inuyasha did. But before he could bring himself to say it Inuyasha had knocked him out!"
Sango had not seen this occur as she was to busy worrying about Kagome, but after hearing it from Kagome began to chuckle, and they laughed for about five minutes before they stopped. " I haven't laughed like that in while. I am going to miss you Sango!" She began to cry happily.
Sango patted her on the shoulder. " Don't worry Kagome will find away through this, for now you need to just worry about telling Inuyasha the truth." Kagome quit the tears for a minute. " How will I get him alone long enough to tell him!" She asked curiously.
Sango smirked mischievously. " Just leave it to me. You just get Inuyasha to walk with you and I will take care of the rest."
Kagome smiled as she nodded. " Thank you Sango!"
Miroku Inuyasha and Shippo had finished their Ramen and now were awaiting Sango and Kagome's return.
Starring down the path of the hot springs, Inuyasha watched for Kagome in slight worry. He had sensed an unknown entity in his soul that told there was something amiss with her; he feared that she wasn't telling him the truth when she said she was all right.
Looking away from the sky, Miroku noticed the worried look in his eyes. " What's wrong Inuyasha?"
Inuyasha just huffed at him. " Nothing!' He growled.
Miroku could still feel the hint of worry in that growl, and decided to push on further. " Are you worried about Kagome? She did seem to be distraught when she left with lady Sango for the Hot Springs." He interrogated and informed at the same time.
Inuyasha stared at the monk stoically his head was drowning in thought and he couldn't think straight, which caused him to do and say things he normally wouldn't in front of him. " She seemed so sad even after she knew she was okay, I could feel that she was keeping something from me." He said simply his eye's were lost in nothingness as he stared out into the sky.
Miroku looked at him seriously. " Well what do you think is wrong with her?" Miroku asked as falling ill to that same conclusion, as when he thought about it, Kagome did seem to be hiding something. A thought then crossed his mind. Get them together. He then smirked to himself as he looked up at him. " Well why don't you ask her what's wrong?"
Glancing away from the sky, Inuyasha stared at him. " I could never get her alone long enough to even get the words out." He protested.
Miroku grinned. " Don't worry I will take care of Sango and Shippo, you just GET Kagome to follow you!"
Inuyasha became a bit intrigued by his offer. " What will you do?"
Miroku smirked mischievously. " Oh don't worry about you just concentrate on Kagome."
In a very desperate situation, Inuyasha agreed to allow Miroku to help him, as he really wanted to know what was wrong with her otherwise he might not of taken him up on his offer. He just hoped that he wouldn't do anything gross to Sango while he was away with Kagome.
Kagome and Sango rushed back to the place where they had left their friends behind, as they both readied themselves to put Sango's plan into action.
Miroku and Inuyasha noticed them coming back to the camp, and they both then readied themselves to carry out Miroku's plan. Shippo was a sleep so he didn't have to worry about him too much. He just had to worry about Sango.
Kagome walked up to Inuyasha with nothing but a serious demeanor. She grabbed him by the arm and began to pull him away with her. " Inuyasha will you walk with me for awhile." Kagome asked.
Inuyasha wouldn't have to ask her to go with him after all, it looked as though she had already asked him first. Those words she had said to him sent him an eerie feeling with in his stomach. He remembered when he had told her those same exact words; he also recalled why he had asked her to walk with him! It was so that he could tell her goodbye and send her home so she could be safe. He embarked in his mind on all the possibilities for her to say those same words to him but he couldn't come to any conclusion.
Miroku and Sango walked up to each other. Sango then cut him off before he had a chance to talk to her.
" Miroku do you want to come with me for awhile?" She said in a charming tone. Miroku decided that that he would with her hesitantly since he did promise Inuyasha to get her away from Kagome. There was one thing though that had boggled his mind for a while; Inuyasha didn't ask her to come with him it was the other way around. Wait a minute then that means? He began to glare suspiciously at Sango who dragged him by the arm away from Kagome and Inuyasha. He didn't know for sure so he would just have to find out. He pulled his arm away from Sango. She turned around to see him suspiciously looking at her.
" What?" She questioned him nervously.
" You wouldn't happen to be trying to lure me away from Kagome and Inuyasha?" he answered her question with another question. Sango began to feel the nervousness sink into her soul, she wasn't sure but she suspected that she was figured out.
" Why would you think that?" She questioned curiously. He began to glare at her once more skeptically.
" No reason, unless you and I had the same plan?" he eyed her curiously. Sango's mouth opened wide they both had thought up the same plane with Inuyasha and Kagome, the thought of them having the same exact mind of thinking made her feel very disturbed.
" Oh! You did!" Sango looked up at him curiously in shock.
" Well what was your plan?" She questioned him. He eyed her.
" Tell me what your plan was first?" He replied to her keeping a close eye on her.
" If I tell you will you tell me yours?" He nodded at her.
" Well I planned on taking you and Shippo away so that Kagome could talk to Inuyasha alone." Miroku gasped.
" That was my plan to, except the other way around." they both stared at each other blankly as there faces slowly received a smirk.
" Do you want to go watch them?" Sango pondered that thought for a moment, she had known that Kagome was sick and she had done this plan so that she could tell him.
" We probably shouldn't, their conversation is pretty important." Miroku starred at her with a smirk on his face.
" Are you sure you don't want to?" he spoke slyly raising a brow. Sango tossed her hands into their air with a heavy sigh.
" Fine! But lets hurry before I change my mind." She started towards where Inuyasha was she glanced over shoulder. " Oh yeah, when Kagome tells you herself try to look surprised and try not to look to sad around her before then." Miroku pondered her word silently to himself. Why would he be sad? He thought.
Inuyasha watched the receding backs of Sango and Miroku once he could no longer see them he turned to Kagome slowly his voice barely above a whisper he said. " Kagome what's wrong?"
Kagome turned from him, his eyes held such concern. Could she tell him that she's dying? She didn't know if she could bear his pained expression, or lack their have. "Nothings wrong." She choked out after awhile. Why couldn't she bring herself to tell him?
Inuyasha walked up to her angrily at being lied to, "Kagome tell me what's wrong now? And more to the point you shouldn't be walking around, you still need to rest." He yelled, expecting an answer and not a meeting with his good friend dirt. Surprisingly he didn't teach dirt any knew phrases. Inuyasha tensed visibly at the feeling of Kagome's body on his, her head resting on his shoulder. He shivered as her breath hit his neck.
"Inuyasha, are you happy now? I'm resting on you." She couldn't help but giggle at the blush that crept across his cheeks. As soon as the realization of how close they were kicked in, Kagome couldn't help but feel her cheeks heat up as well.
Inuyasha relaxed a bit. "Are you going to tell me what's wrong?" he asked so that only she could hear. He felt her nod against him, she felt so warm and her scent was much stronger this close up. Taking the time to inhale, that which is Kagome, he noticed something strange, something not right.
"Inuyasha, I feel so safe with you right here and now," she whispered, as yet another blush crept to her cheeks. She kept on, trying to work up the courage to tell him. "I wish that I could stay with you forever, you know. I wish that we could go to some of the festivals held around here in your time, I've always wanted to go but we've always been so busy with hunting jewel shards." She sighed sadly, willing her self not to cry.
Inuyasha's was curious as to what brought this on, but only said. "We could go sometime after we finish hunting jewel shards, or if you want we could take a break from hunting them." He offered. What was that he smelled from her, there were fear, sadness, and something else but he couldn't think of what? On the other hand, maybe his heart and soul did not want to acknowledge it.
A tear slid down her cheek only to land on Inuyasha's neck, she felt him tense and shiver beneath her. "I hope that I'll make it till then…. Inuyasha…" She trailed off then picked it back up again. "If I leave you before we finish with the jewel shards, would you ever be able to forgive me?" She asked.
He could feel his heart climb to his throat as he forced the tears down… he knew… he knew what that smell was. He had smelt it before when his mother had left him, and now he could smell it on Kagome. God no, please don't let it be. It was the smell of impending death. "Kagome." He choked out. "Why are you talking like… your gonna die?" He managed to get out around the lump in his throat. He swallowed hard waiting her answer, please let him be wrong. Please God let him be wrong!
Kagome wrapped her arms tightly around his waist as she sobbed into his red hoari, so hard that she didn't even notice Inuyasha turn around and hold her to himself. He held her like that so tightly to himself. It was as if he were afraid that to loosen his grip on her, for even a second, would mean her ultimate death. He wished it were that simple, that simply holding her like this would ward away the angel of death. His face was wet with tears…. Wait he was crying!
Kagome held him even closer to her, taking in his scent, wanting to imprint his image and everything of him in her mind. Her heart felt as if it were completely shattered, why did life have to be so unfair? She asked herself. "Because Inuyasha, I am dying." She sob into the already tear filled hoari.
"No… please God, no… It can't be true." He cried. Right as those words left Kagome's perfect lips, Inuyasha felt as if his heart had been ripped from his ribcage and ripped to shreds in front of his very eyes by millions of hungry Youkai. He felt, as if his very soul had crumbled at those words, she couldn't die… Kagome was his soul. What would he be without her? Nothing!
Miroku and Sango happened upon the scene of Inuyasha and Kagome crying in each other's arms. While the monk was completely at a loss for words, the exterminator knew. Her heart went out to them. Shaking her head slightly as she tried to gain control over her emotions, she grabbed Miroku's arm to lead him away. She knew what was wrong, and much more of this scene would reduce her to tears, much more of this and her body wouldn't be able to function properly and Miroku would have to carry her, crying, away to Kaede's hut.
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Author Notes: Okay I'm truly sorry about my depressing writing, but don't worry this story I promise you will have a happy ending.
