Thinking of you

Part three

As I sit in my chair and look at the ceiling,

I wonder what you are feeling.

You seemed so scared when you left,

But thought of you hurt, takes away my breath.

I look out the window at the sky so blue,

and remember the last time I saw you.

I remember watching the factory fall,

hoping you weren't inside, I felt my heart stall.

When I found you were missing with him,

I felt my worry slim.

He would...

protect you like I never could.

I cant help but wonder what life is like,

without you riding up on your bike.

I don't recall how we got on,

without you here at base at dusk and at dawn.

I wonder how life will be as I surf through the net,

telling myself that I'm all set.

But without the figure that stood beside me before,

I wonder what else is there? what more?

What would happen to me if I gave up right now?

Would I start a new life? Where? How?

It just seems so quiet in this new place.

An old friend, with a new face.

Maybe I'll go out to get a bite to eat.

I recall all the meals you brought for me. "Have a seat."

Then maybe I'll just eat my junk food.

When you hid here, you ate it all, while in that bad mood.

I remember your voice thanking me for the win,

I too remember compliments from him.

Your voice was an angle I was glad to hear,

His was a bad mood that only brought tears.

But I never knew how glad I was you were both near.

Until you were gone and my life seemed to smear.

I remember the smell of fresh donuts you gave me.

And we shared it with smiles and coffee.

The time you've been gone seems so short.

And already Sakaki can make smart retorts.

I wish things were normal, as normal can be.

With all of us here, one big family.