Thinking of you

Part Five

I'm in the mall, away from all things sad.

Too many shoes, what could be so bad?

After shopping all day, I'm tired,

And so glad that Zaizen retired.

Actually he died,

But my hands aren't tied.

In my room I put my new stuff away,

I wish I were happy, I wish I could say,

Say what really mattered right now,

Tell them all how I feel, but how?

How do you tell someone that your lost and confused,

when the one that listened has disappeared after being used.

Thinking about it for more than an hour,

I get bored and go take a shower.

How could I be bored at a time like this?

As I look around my room, I wish,

That this whole thing had never occurred.

I start to cry and my vision is blurred.

I wake up, no more tears.

And I think of my life, over the years.

While the others risk their lives in fights,

I'd be reading or seeing the sights.

What was wrong with me?

I've changed, now that I see,

How much I was needed.

And I am defeated.

But I'm making a stand, today and forever,

To help, no matter what I must endeavor.

As I drive down the street to make my new start,

Something catches my eye, and it melts my heart.

Such a cute doggy!

His ears dropped, like he was soggy.

My new dog and I, go out for Ice cream and toppings,

My new life can wait, I'm going shopping!