-=DISCLAIMER=- I do not own any of the Kngdom Hearts places, characters or props, I wish I did tho...wooooow...think how much money you would have Goes into daydream

be warned btw, some of this fic is going to be violent (self mutilation, rape, verbal abuse), if u take offence by any of the previous go and find a nice lil' hapi pokemon fic to keep u entertained! A much darker side of Kingdom Hearts....

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How did it get to this? How could life get this low? That's what kept repeating in the back of his mind, lingering there like an unwanted visitor. Why couldn't anything just go right for once? Was it so much to ask? He took a swig from the bottle, vodka burning the back of his throat, then a drag from the fourth cigarette he had lit in the last 10 minutes. His shirt was half tucked in his trousers with the first few buttons undone showing a silver chain hanging loosely from his neck.

-=Sora=-

The vodka was beginning to take its toll as I took another swig and the smoke of the cigarette was beginning to burn the back of my throat. This school year had been terrible ever since she came and tried to take him away from me. He was the only thing that kept me going, but now the life in my body was slowly being taken away from me. I took one last swig from the bottle and then chucked it under the hedge. Could things get any worse?

"Sora? What's up mate?" Yes, obviously they can... There he stood, a few centimetres away from me, behind the toilet blocks, brushing back his silvery hair. Tears began to well up in my eyes but I blinked them back with ease. Years of practice made me good at doing this.

"Nothing" I replied in an emotionless tone.

"Sora, you can tell me anything you know. I'm sure I'd be able to understand, whatever it is." Riku is so nice, he's always so caring, so gentle. Urgh. What am I thinking?! He's going out with Kairi anyways ever since she started flirting with him and passing him love notes in the middle of science class.

I punched the ground hard. "NOTHING'S WRONG WITH ME OK?! Besides, what would it matter to you?" He stared back, emerald eyes full of hurt and despair.

"Sora, there's something wrong! Please tell me what it is!" He rested a hand on my shoulder and I quivered. I couldn't stop them this time, the tears streamed down my face.

-=Riku=-

He's crying... I held him close and he awkwardly encircled his arms around my neck, almost hanging on to me. He smelt of smoke and alcohol, but even that couldn't hide the unique scent of himself. That gentle aroma, a chill shot down my spine. I was actually hugging him! In all the years I'd known him I'd never hugged him! He sobbed into my shoulder, his body violently shaking with anguish.

"I...l-v..-u" His voice was muffled against my blazer so I broke the hug and faced his swollen, red eyes of sorrow. "I...love...you" He sobbed. I was froze to the spot, I didn't want to hear what he just said... He loves me?! I couldn't believe it...

As I was lost in a mass of thoughts and emotions I failed to notice him dash away from me. I turned to shout him but he was already gone, collapsing down onto the floor to sort my thoughts out, I spotted his blazer and tie in a heap on the floor, slowly with shaking hands I pick them up and hold the small sized garment close to me, inhaling the scent. There it was, he even smelt gentle. What had I done? Why did I go out with Kairi, the girl who's been out and slept with nearly every boy in the school? I've caused my best mate so much hurt and pain... A photo slipped out of his pocket, it was taken 4 years ago inside of the secret place back on Destiny Islands. Life was good back then but now, ever since we moved to Traverse town, things went downhill quite fast. I stared at the young Sora in the picture with tear filled eyes. I never realised until now how much I needed him and how much I loved him too.

I rolled up the sleeve of my blazer to reveal an arm scarred with hundreds of cuts. Every time I do something wrong, I add another one. An extra was in order. I pulled a black handled switch blade from my blazer pocket and started dragging it along the top of my arm letting the blood flow freely. It doesn't hurt anymore, I've become immune to the pain.

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Riku's doin summat nasty! Dunt worry! Hopefully he'll be ok if I decide he's gonna b ok! LOL :-P

O.o I'm craaaaaaaaaaaaaaazee! o.O

RR plz ppl! Good or bad reviews, it dunt really matta!

-=SilvaTidus=-