Chapter 20

Time to be with her again

Kagome was sitting up in a corner and Shippo laid in her lap carefully but wanted to snuggle against Kagome and she knew it. She picked him up and rocked him to sleep like a little kid. He looked so peaceful in her eyes, she looked at Sango sleeping, and Miroku was pretending to sleep but was keeping an eye out. "Miroku, go to sleep. There's no reason to be keeping a look out to a village" She whispered to Miroku and she startled him because he didn't think she could tell what he was doing. "You are the one who is injured, you should go to bed." He replied with also a whisper. "Don't worry about be, I'll be fine without some sleep. I've noticed that you've been keeping an eye out since you've been here so relax." She startled him again because he never knew she knew all this. He didn't really want to argue with her and so he nodded his head and tried to go to sleep.

It was around midnight now and the village was asleep. She moved Shippo very carefully off her to not wake him up and got up with her sword. Her progressed had increased after 4 weeks. Kagome walked out of her hut with the help of her sword. She walked outside and gazed up at the stars. "Winter nights are always so peaceful." She said aloud to herself. She went to a log and sat down in front of it to lean on right near a small river stream that passes through the village. She looked down at the reflection and saw Kikyou.

"No, stop it. I'm not Kikyou." She shook heard head and looked at her reflection and saw herself. "That's me, I am Kagome." She just kept talking to herself and looked up to the sky and kept talking to herself.

Inuyasha watched her the whole time from the tree. 'Why is she outside? It's too cold for her' He stopped his thinking because he noticed it was a good time to talk to her now. He jumped out quietly out of the tree.

She started to look at her reflection and wanted to sing a song to herself...

Look at me

You may think you see who I really am

But you'll never know me

Every day

It's as if I play a part

Now I see

If I wear a mask

I can fool the world

But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see

Staring straight back at me?

When will my reflection show

Who I am inside?

I am now

In a world where I have to hide my heart

And what I believe in

But somehow

I will show the world

What's inside my heart

And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see

Staring straight back at me?

Why is my reflection someone I don't know?

Must I pretend that I'm

Someone else for all time?

When will my reflection show

Who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be free to fly

That burns with a need to know the reason why

Why must we all conceal

What we think

How we feel

Must there be a secret me

I'm forced to hide?

I won't pretend that I'm

Someone else

For all time

When will my reflection show

Who I am inside?

When will my reflection show

Who I am inside?

Inuyasha was listening to how peaceful she sounded, he loved how she sang, and he always would.

Kagome was still looking at the stars and the full moon that were all so bright. "I'm sorry Inuyasha, I'm sorry that Kikyou died and that I can't bring her back for you now. It's all my fault." She then looked at her reflection and repeated it again. "It's all my fault."

Inuyasha couldn't tell if she knew he was there, or was she saying her thoughts out loud to herself. He was going to say something but she then continued to talk more.

"With her gone..." she looked straight at him with fragile yet soft eyes "will you ever be truly happy?" One tear shed from each side fell from her face, the bright skylights reflected off the tears making them a little shinny to see. Inuyasha was dead silent. "I'm sorry I could never make you as happy as she made you Inuyasha, she was always better than me, and I always knew that I can never be Kikyou's equal to you." Two more tears came falling.

"Kagome" It was all he could say, he was trying to think of the right words to say to her. Kagome just turned her head away and tried to change the subject. "The stars are bright tonight as they always are here aren't they?" She just wanted to avoid anything wrong to happen. Inuyasha walked towards her slowly and calmly so he wouldn't scare her. "Kagome..." she turned her head slowly towards him meeting eye to eye. "Kagome, I should be the one sorry, not you." He sat on the long right behind her and let her lean on him. But she pulled away because she was afraid, "why should you be sorry? This was all my fault" she said it if she was positive and looked at their reflection. "No it isn't, all you ever done for me brought me happiness and I never knew it. Kikyou didn't, Kikyou wanted herself to be happy and not me."

Inuyasha wrapped his arms around her so she would know he wanted her to lean into him. "But what I gave you was never enough." She had a doubting voice. "Kagome, I'm sorry that I was such a fool, everything you gave me was always enough, but I never really realized it until..." he paused for awhile "until what Inuyasha?" she questioned soft. "Until I thought that I had lost you in everyway possible." He whispered to her ear. It made a slight smile on her face. "I'm sorry about 3 months ago, and how you saw me and Kikyou. I know you heard her ask me why I didn't let you die. But the reason why I didn't want you to, was because... I love you" he tightened his wrap around her only a little. "Do you even mean your words Inuyasha?" She turned her face to other side away from Inuyasha's. "You still love Kikyou, and I'm not her, I'm Kagome" "Of course I mean it, even I didn't mean it I would be here with you right now."

He removed one hand to stroke her hair and released a sigh. "I never really deserved you and your kindness Kagome. You always made me happy, but I never made you happy." She turned her head to him, looking face to face; eye to eye. "Inuyasha... seeing you always made me happy inside." She gave him a warm smile. He smiled back a little also. "Kagome... can I ask you something?" He sounded like it was going to be bad. "Yeah, something wrong?" "No... but... Kagome... can I keep you?" He looked in her eyes thinking the response would be 'no' and wasn't expecting the answer she just said "Of course Inuyasha" she even nodded to reassure him of what she said.

He was happy and she saw it so she looked up, Inuyasha saw a bruise to where he punched her before and loosened the wrap around her. "What's wrong Inuyasha?" he turned his had away "The bruise is where I punched you, I caused it didn't I?" his ears drooped down sadly. Kagome didn't know there was a bruise so she giggled a little at the thought. "I didn't know there was a bruise" she confused him a lot, the fact that she had a huge bruise and never knew about it. He looked at her with the drooped ears still. "When you said that my punch was just like a tickle, were you telling the truth?" Kagome's cheerful giggle stopped for a while. "It didn't feel like a tickle, it hurt, but not a lot, but boy you sure can punch." She smiled to make him feel better but it didn't. He still felt bad so she hugged him.

"I know that you didn't mean it, you were just protecting Kikyou and couldn't do anything else." He finally looked at her but with guilt in his eyes. "Inuyasha, don't worry about it, it's a thing of the past, and understand it all. It's okay really." He still wasn't really convinced. "You only injured me a little... if you actually wanted, you could've killed me, but you didn't. She snuggled into him to make him feel better and he wrapped her firmly. "Thank you Kagome."

They went into a small embrace and stopped quickly when they noticed a shooting star and Kagome was going to get up to sit next to Inuyasha but instead he just turned her around and leaned the back of her head to his chest near his heart to see how it felt when his mother did it to him, and when Kagome did it to Shippo. "It's December Inuyasha, one of my favorite months of the year. There's always snow around." "The white stuff is the snow?" "Uh-huh, in my time we always play in the snow and make snow men and angels." Kagome drew a heart in the snow and Inuyasha just watched and then smiled.

"What are you smiling about?" "Nothing, just remembering something for a while ago." "What do you mean?" "You have a nice voice Kagome... I like it when you sing" Kagome had blushed a little. "I thought you heard me but I tried to ignore it." "I like it, I always liked how you sang Shippo to sleep all those times in the past." "Did I always wake you up? I'm sorry." "You never woke me up, you always made me go into a slumber those nights, that's why I always felt great in the morning." She giggled "Now what's so funny." "Nothing, I noticed once that before I was singing Shippo to sleep for face was tense, and when I was singing your face was getting less tense, and when I was done you looked so peaceful." It was Inuyasha's turn to blush. "I need to go back in my hut Inuyasha, will you come? Or stay outside because of the others?" She struggled to get up but managed. "I'll won't go in the hut tonight, maybe a different night." He made her a little sad but understood. "Come on, I'll take you back to your hut." She nodded and her he carried her there and she walked in the hut after thanking Inuyasha. He jumped into the tree he was in and went to sleep and Kagome went in her hut to sleep also even if it was like 4 or 5 in the morning.


Sorry that I'm getting Inuyasha and Kagome back together.

I'm getting new ideas every now and then so I'm changing it up some for the ending... I don't know how many chapters I'll do now... 5? 6? 7? I don't know, but it'll come soon... thanks for nice reviews.