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My Father's Secrets
Chapter Three: Trying To Remember
Seajae poured another drink. This time she just looked at it. She knew it wasn't the answer. She also knew she didn't want to be alone tonight. Danny had made her feel safe that night ten years ago. He had told her that her father was hardened by what he saw in thier line of work. Now she knew what Danny had ment. He had gotten into the Corps at seventeen and saw it all before he was old enough to order a drink in a bar.
"Seajae....." She didn't want to talk anymore. It had been a long few weeks and she needed to forget it all. Danny had been there when she broke down ten years ago. That had been the last time she had let anyone see her cry. He took her in his arms now and hugged her close. "You need some sleep."
"Come to bed with me." She wispered. He knew he should tell her no but she needed him. He couldn't say no. Seajae crawled under the sheet and pulled them down on the other side. Danny took off his shoes and jacket and crawled in next to her. She snuggled close to him and before he could say another word she was sound asleep.
"Sweet dreams." He wispered and kissed the top of her head. If Ed knew he was in bed with his god daughter he would kill him. Danny wondered what had happened to her in the eleven months she had fogotten. He would have to look into finding out. Closing his eyes he drifted off to sleep.
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Seajae woke with a start. She felt warm arms wrap around her. She didn't have to open her eyes to know it was Danny. He had been a rock for her again. Ed needed to know about her memory loss too. But she hadn't been ready to tell him. Danny wouldn't tell him unless she said he could. Suggling deeper into his arms Seajae prayed the dreams stayed away tonight. The dreams were too real most nights. The pain racked though her like it was happing all over again. Whatever it was.
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The scream woke Danny up from a deep sleep. He sat up and looked around for Seajae. She was across the room looking for something in her bag. He got up and reached for her. Her hand shot out and was behind his back before he could take another breath.
"Seajae?" Danny knew she wasn't awake. But even in her sleep she got the jump on him. "Seajae...." Danny twisted and got the upper hand, taking her in his arms from behind. "WAKE UP! Damn it." She brought her foot up and planted it on his bare arch. Before he knew it the door of her room was swinging open and Ed stood there with a gun pointed at him.
"Get your hands off of her Danny."
"Ed she's sleep walking....." He was struggling with Seajae, trying to wake her up. "I...." She pulled out of his grip turned and planted a left hook to his jaw. He grabbed her right hand before she could land another blow. "Seajae please wake up." He pushed her gentally as he could to the bed. She looked at him with hollow eyes.
"Danny?" She looked at him and at Ed holding the gun. "What's going on?" She was shaking and scared.
"You must of been having a dream." She looked at Ed still holding the gun on Danny. She knew she needed to tell Ed everything. Danny had tried to help her that's all.
"Put the gun down Ed and pull up a chair." He gave her a look but then sat down. Danny sat on the bed next to her. Reaching back he got a blanked and wrapped around her shoulders. "Last January my unit was transporting prisoners and villiagers from one Iraqi town to the next. There was twenty of us. We were outside a small village when a sniper started fireing. All I remeber is the soldier next to me bringing me down and dragging me under the truck next to us." She looked down at the floor. "I woke up eleven months later in Bethesda. No one would tell me what happened or where the rest of my unit ended up. They questioned me for days. I couldn't recall much of anything. Just those first moments of the ambush."
"You can't remember where you were at all?"
"It comes back now and then in a dream. I hear voices. Feel people around me." She stood up and looked at the fading darkness. "I know I was raped. I confirmed it with a doctor here in town. She thinks I may have given birth also." Seajae stared out at the city. "It was like my body wasn't mine anymore." Danny stood up and went to her. Not caring what Ed thought he went behind her and held her. "Now I come back to no one and my family strangers."
"You have us." Ed wispered. "Alice, Delinda, me.....Danny." Ed stood up. "We're going to find out what happened. I will call in every favor I have....."
"Maybe not remembering is better then...finding out what happened for all those months." She leaned agaist Danny. Ed knew the younger man had endured a lot when he was in the Corp. But seeing someone you care for suffer this way was hard on anyone. Even him.
"How much sleep did you get tonight?"
"More then usaul. I was really wiped." Seajae reagianed what composier she had and pushed away from Danny and grabbed some clothes. "We better head to dad's before they destroy that evidence too." She went into the bathroom and closed the door.
"What the hell is going on Ed?" Danny wispered.
"I don't know but I sure in the hell gonna find out. If she was a POW someone from the state department should of informed Alan and me."
"Maybe they were someplace they wern't suppose to be."
"Even if they were they would notify us that she was missing."
"But you would of gone looking for her. If they gave you faulse coordinates....."
"There was nineteen other people in that unit. If twenty Marnines disappeared off the face of the earth don't you think someone would of said somethimg?"
"Not if they were a expendable unit." Danny sat on the bed.
"Danny even I know they don't exsist any more. In Nam maybe...." He looked at the younger man. "But Seajae had family. She would of been missed."
"I don't know. Alan had been sick for months. Maybe they sent her in thinking by the time she got out..if she got out....her family would be gone."
"That's a big stretch Danny."
"We're talking the government Ed." The shower started and Danny went to Seajae's bag and looked what she had been reaching for. He pulled out a knife. "I hope she wasn't planing on using this on me." Ed looked at the Marine issued survival knife. His friends daughter needed help. For the first time in a long time Ed Deline wasn't sure where to start looking to find that help.
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The shower felt good and Seajae stayed in longer then she should of. She felt safe here with Ed and and Danny. She hadn't felt safe in a very long time. Danny had come to her when she told them of the rape. She figured any man would cringe at the thought of a woman he had his sights on being used in such a degrating way. Her father had hit her that one time. But that was all it took to make her feel that she wasn't the daughter he wanted. After boot camp she had come home to make amends and he had a new born son. Kyle was the boy he wanted for so long. She stayed three days and never came back. Alan Riely never apoligized for hitting her that day. Now she didn't even know if he had been sorry or not. Turning off the water Seajae stepped out and looked at herself in the full length mirror. She had been a virgin a year ago. She had never found a man that made her feel that her career was nothing but a passing fancy. Now, without remembering she wasn't a virgin anymore and she might have a child somewhere. Life wasn't fair. She knew that when her mom started gambling everything they had away. But things should of gotten better. But somehow things kept getting worse.
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"Danny?" Mary Donald knocked on her friends door. He missed their after work drink and she was beging to worry. She looked at her watch. It was almost six. "Danny?" She knocked again. Hearing the door next to his open she turned to see Ed, Danny and Danny's friend walk out of the room. "Hey you missed our bloody mary breakfeast." Danny looked up at his highschool friend.
"God Mary I'm sorry. Me and Ed, we're helping Seajae with some things and I lost track of time." Mary frowned. Danny looked well rested for helping his friend all night long. "Dinner tonight. All of us. Mystiqe." They all got into the elevator leaving Mary with her mouth open.
"She look pissed." Seajae watched as the doors closed.
"She'll get over it." They went downstairs. In the parking garage Ed gave Seajae back her gun.
"You think I might need this?"
"I hope not. But better be safe then sorry." They headed toward the house that Seajae called home. "You sure you want to do this?"
"I need help finding out what all the stuff at the house means Ed. I can't just go to someone in the Justice Department and say 'Here I found this in my dad's house'."
"We'll figure it all out." They got into Ed's Hummer and headed to a place Seajae was sure she didn't want be anymore.
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The house seemed cold. Seajae stopped in the foyer. She didn't like the cold feeling in the pit of her stomach. She felt Danny's hand on her back. She knew him and Ed would stand behind her. She knew that but the fear was there. It would always be there.
"The stuff is in the den." She went into the kitchen and started the coffee pot. She didn't want to face what was in the other room. The papers. The money.....the lies. It was a good half hour before she went to give Danny and Ed thier coffee. "Is it bad?"
"Well it isn't looking good." Ed looked over his glasses. "These were here when you got here?"
"Yeah. The boxes stacked in the courner. The money........in the bottom drawer." She handed the men thier coffee. "All I looked at was the word confidential written on the covers of all the folders I got sick and didn't....couldn't look at them."
"Well none of this stuff pertains to anything your dad was working on before he left the CIA. All this stuff is dated within the last year or so. I'm thinking it's just stuff they pulled out to make him look bad. But the money and they way the rest of the family took off....."
"Just...find a way to get it out of here. I'm selling the place as soon as I can."
"Where are you going to live."
"Anywhere but here." She went to her room and began packing what little she had after leaving the service. Danny looked at Ed. He shook his head.
"I'm going to get someone to clean the place. You get her back to the hotel. Don't let her out of your sight."
"You got it Ed." Danny got up and went to see if Seajae needed any help packing.
My Father's Secrets
Chapter Three: Trying To Remember
Seajae poured another drink. This time she just looked at it. She knew it wasn't the answer. She also knew she didn't want to be alone tonight. Danny had made her feel safe that night ten years ago. He had told her that her father was hardened by what he saw in thier line of work. Now she knew what Danny had ment. He had gotten into the Corps at seventeen and saw it all before he was old enough to order a drink in a bar.
"Seajae....." She didn't want to talk anymore. It had been a long few weeks and she needed to forget it all. Danny had been there when she broke down ten years ago. That had been the last time she had let anyone see her cry. He took her in his arms now and hugged her close. "You need some sleep."
"Come to bed with me." She wispered. He knew he should tell her no but she needed him. He couldn't say no. Seajae crawled under the sheet and pulled them down on the other side. Danny took off his shoes and jacket and crawled in next to her. She snuggled close to him and before he could say another word she was sound asleep.
"Sweet dreams." He wispered and kissed the top of her head. If Ed knew he was in bed with his god daughter he would kill him. Danny wondered what had happened to her in the eleven months she had fogotten. He would have to look into finding out. Closing his eyes he drifted off to sleep.
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Seajae woke with a start. She felt warm arms wrap around her. She didn't have to open her eyes to know it was Danny. He had been a rock for her again. Ed needed to know about her memory loss too. But she hadn't been ready to tell him. Danny wouldn't tell him unless she said he could. Suggling deeper into his arms Seajae prayed the dreams stayed away tonight. The dreams were too real most nights. The pain racked though her like it was happing all over again. Whatever it was.
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The scream woke Danny up from a deep sleep. He sat up and looked around for Seajae. She was across the room looking for something in her bag. He got up and reached for her. Her hand shot out and was behind his back before he could take another breath.
"Seajae?" Danny knew she wasn't awake. But even in her sleep she got the jump on him. "Seajae...." Danny twisted and got the upper hand, taking her in his arms from behind. "WAKE UP! Damn it." She brought her foot up and planted it on his bare arch. Before he knew it the door of her room was swinging open and Ed stood there with a gun pointed at him.
"Get your hands off of her Danny."
"Ed she's sleep walking....." He was struggling with Seajae, trying to wake her up. "I...." She pulled out of his grip turned and planted a left hook to his jaw. He grabbed her right hand before she could land another blow. "Seajae please wake up." He pushed her gentally as he could to the bed. She looked at him with hollow eyes.
"Danny?" She looked at him and at Ed holding the gun. "What's going on?" She was shaking and scared.
"You must of been having a dream." She looked at Ed still holding the gun on Danny. She knew she needed to tell Ed everything. Danny had tried to help her that's all.
"Put the gun down Ed and pull up a chair." He gave her a look but then sat down. Danny sat on the bed next to her. Reaching back he got a blanked and wrapped around her shoulders. "Last January my unit was transporting prisoners and villiagers from one Iraqi town to the next. There was twenty of us. We were outside a small village when a sniper started fireing. All I remeber is the soldier next to me bringing me down and dragging me under the truck next to us." She looked down at the floor. "I woke up eleven months later in Bethesda. No one would tell me what happened or where the rest of my unit ended up. They questioned me for days. I couldn't recall much of anything. Just those first moments of the ambush."
"You can't remember where you were at all?"
"It comes back now and then in a dream. I hear voices. Feel people around me." She stood up and looked at the fading darkness. "I know I was raped. I confirmed it with a doctor here in town. She thinks I may have given birth also." Seajae stared out at the city. "It was like my body wasn't mine anymore." Danny stood up and went to her. Not caring what Ed thought he went behind her and held her. "Now I come back to no one and my family strangers."
"You have us." Ed wispered. "Alice, Delinda, me.....Danny." Ed stood up. "We're going to find out what happened. I will call in every favor I have....."
"Maybe not remembering is better then...finding out what happened for all those months." She leaned agaist Danny. Ed knew the younger man had endured a lot when he was in the Corp. But seeing someone you care for suffer this way was hard on anyone. Even him.
"How much sleep did you get tonight?"
"More then usaul. I was really wiped." Seajae reagianed what composier she had and pushed away from Danny and grabbed some clothes. "We better head to dad's before they destroy that evidence too." She went into the bathroom and closed the door.
"What the hell is going on Ed?" Danny wispered.
"I don't know but I sure in the hell gonna find out. If she was a POW someone from the state department should of informed Alan and me."
"Maybe they were someplace they wern't suppose to be."
"Even if they were they would notify us that she was missing."
"But you would of gone looking for her. If they gave you faulse coordinates....."
"There was nineteen other people in that unit. If twenty Marnines disappeared off the face of the earth don't you think someone would of said somethimg?"
"Not if they were a expendable unit." Danny sat on the bed.
"Danny even I know they don't exsist any more. In Nam maybe...." He looked at the younger man. "But Seajae had family. She would of been missed."
"I don't know. Alan had been sick for months. Maybe they sent her in thinking by the time she got out..if she got out....her family would be gone."
"That's a big stretch Danny."
"We're talking the government Ed." The shower started and Danny went to Seajae's bag and looked what she had been reaching for. He pulled out a knife. "I hope she wasn't planing on using this on me." Ed looked at the Marine issued survival knife. His friends daughter needed help. For the first time in a long time Ed Deline wasn't sure where to start looking to find that help.
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The shower felt good and Seajae stayed in longer then she should of. She felt safe here with Ed and and Danny. She hadn't felt safe in a very long time. Danny had come to her when she told them of the rape. She figured any man would cringe at the thought of a woman he had his sights on being used in such a degrating way. Her father had hit her that one time. But that was all it took to make her feel that she wasn't the daughter he wanted. After boot camp she had come home to make amends and he had a new born son. Kyle was the boy he wanted for so long. She stayed three days and never came back. Alan Riely never apoligized for hitting her that day. Now she didn't even know if he had been sorry or not. Turning off the water Seajae stepped out and looked at herself in the full length mirror. She had been a virgin a year ago. She had never found a man that made her feel that her career was nothing but a passing fancy. Now, without remembering she wasn't a virgin anymore and she might have a child somewhere. Life wasn't fair. She knew that when her mom started gambling everything they had away. But things should of gotten better. But somehow things kept getting worse.
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"Danny?" Mary Donald knocked on her friends door. He missed their after work drink and she was beging to worry. She looked at her watch. It was almost six. "Danny?" She knocked again. Hearing the door next to his open she turned to see Ed, Danny and Danny's friend walk out of the room. "Hey you missed our bloody mary breakfeast." Danny looked up at his highschool friend.
"God Mary I'm sorry. Me and Ed, we're helping Seajae with some things and I lost track of time." Mary frowned. Danny looked well rested for helping his friend all night long. "Dinner tonight. All of us. Mystiqe." They all got into the elevator leaving Mary with her mouth open.
"She look pissed." Seajae watched as the doors closed.
"She'll get over it." They went downstairs. In the parking garage Ed gave Seajae back her gun.
"You think I might need this?"
"I hope not. But better be safe then sorry." They headed toward the house that Seajae called home. "You sure you want to do this?"
"I need help finding out what all the stuff at the house means Ed. I can't just go to someone in the Justice Department and say 'Here I found this in my dad's house'."
"We'll figure it all out." They got into Ed's Hummer and headed to a place Seajae was sure she didn't want be anymore.
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The house seemed cold. Seajae stopped in the foyer. She didn't like the cold feeling in the pit of her stomach. She felt Danny's hand on her back. She knew him and Ed would stand behind her. She knew that but the fear was there. It would always be there.
"The stuff is in the den." She went into the kitchen and started the coffee pot. She didn't want to face what was in the other room. The papers. The money.....the lies. It was a good half hour before she went to give Danny and Ed thier coffee. "Is it bad?"
"Well it isn't looking good." Ed looked over his glasses. "These were here when you got here?"
"Yeah. The boxes stacked in the courner. The money........in the bottom drawer." She handed the men thier coffee. "All I looked at was the word confidential written on the covers of all the folders I got sick and didn't....couldn't look at them."
"Well none of this stuff pertains to anything your dad was working on before he left the CIA. All this stuff is dated within the last year or so. I'm thinking it's just stuff they pulled out to make him look bad. But the money and they way the rest of the family took off....."
"Just...find a way to get it out of here. I'm selling the place as soon as I can."
"Where are you going to live."
"Anywhere but here." She went to her room and began packing what little she had after leaving the service. Danny looked at Ed. He shook his head.
"I'm going to get someone to clean the place. You get her back to the hotel. Don't let her out of your sight."
"You got it Ed." Danny got up and went to see if Seajae needed any help packing.
