Chapter Five: What is wrong with me?


(Five days later)

He paced in his room, unsure what to do. He seemed to be unsure a lot lately. It must have come with falling in love with your best friend.

He had a serious problem. And he didn't know what to do. He had told Dom, against his better judgment, what had happened with Yuki. Dom had asked him who the other woman was. Sometimes, he wished his cousin didn't know him so well.

Neal, of course, had denied there being another woman. Dom, however, just gave him a knowing look.

What if Dom found out? He would be killed! He knew his cousin had feelings for Kel, and then Neal had fallen in love with her! And kissed her, for Mithros' sake. What was he going to do? He sighed before collapsing against the wall. He didn't want to continue like this, having to lie to two of the people he cared about most.

I have to tell her, part of his mind said.

Eventually, the other agreed.

No. We have to tell her now. Or, at least, soon, the first part argued.

Why?

Because she is my best friend and I love her, and she deserves to know the truth. Because I ruined my relationship with Yuki, whom I've loved for over five years, without even asking Kel, whom I've loved for about three months, how she felt.

Gods He suddenly questioned what is wrong with me?

A voice sounded from the doorway. "So much, Meathead. Shall I start the long list?" His best friend made her way into the room.

"Huh?" Had he been talking out loud? Had he said all of it out loud? Had she heard? How long had she been there? The whole time?

She gave him an amused look. "You were talking to yourself. You asked what was wrong with you. I answered. You know, you don't have to be a god to figure that question out."

He gave her a glare before asking, rather impatiently, "How long have you been here?"

She was looking amused again. "Well, when I walked in, you seemed deep in thought about something, so decided not to bother you. Then you asked your question. Obviously you hadn't meant to say it aloud. Anyway, it was just too good an opportunity to pass up." Inwardly, he sighed his relief. "So, what is wrong with me? Or would you rather not get into your long list of things?"

"One: You are more vain than most women I know are. Two: You are insane, as proven many times over the years. Three: You do not know when to shut up. Four: You enjoy complaining Five: You enjoy torturing your best friend, who happens to be the better swordsman. That's a big problem, for you. Six: You have very little tact. Seven: You are too sarcastic for your own good, and will someday, hopefully very soon, have your tongue tied in a knot. Eight: You are a grouch in the mornings. Nine: You are a Meathead. Ten: Your poetry is bloody awful. Eleven: Your-"

He cut her off, a scowl on his face. "Okay, you don't have to be so rude. Talk about people who need to learn when to shut up." He glared at her.

She could tell that he was upset with her and let out a sigh. "It's all in good fun, Neal. Don't take it so hard."

His scowl disappeared, replaced by a quick, easy smile. "Of course it's all in good fun. What else would it be? Of course, the fun is at my expense. So, now that we are over that, what did you need?"

"Oh, I just came over to talk for a few minutes before going back to finish my report. I needed a break. Well, I'd better head back. I want to finish it sometime before dawn." She got quickly to her feet.

"Okay. Bye."

She looked into his eyes. Something in them compelled her to lean forward and gently brush her lips over his. Hurriedly, she left the room before he could say anything.


Kel couldn't believe what she had done. What was wrong with her? It was a good question. She would most likely spend the whole night thinking on it.

The only reason she could think of for what she had done was that she had been under a lot of stress lately, with all the work that she was doing and the practice, that she needed the comfort.

Another part of her mind nagged at her. Yeah, you've been under a lot of stress lately. But it wasn't from too much work. It's from your feelings for a certain green-eyed knight and his blue-eyed cousin. That part of her mind was right, of course, though she wouldn't admit it.

She chewed on the end of her quill, deep in thought. What had been going on between she and Neal lately? She had been crushing on Dom since she had first seen him, and suddenly, almost a month ago, she had begun to develop feelings for Neal. It made no sense. She had gotten rid of those thoughts when she was in her first year as a squire. Why had they suddenly resurfaced?

Suddenly, a knock sounded on her door. She turned towards it, and was surprised to find Yuki standing there.


End of another chapter. So, how was it? I couldn't get Neal right, but this chapter is really really really important, so I had to leave it. Any suggestions and I will gladly redo it. Well, any way I would be glad to receive any complaints, comments, compliments, or suggestions. What I mean is, review. Thanks so much! Oh, by the way, did that qualify as a cliff hanger? Just curious.

Oceanspike- I know you wont be reading this for a little while (Just over a week Sob) but oh well. Anyway, thanks for the review please come back alive and fully intact (or at least able to write). Hope you had a good time being tortured at camp. J/k. I'm sure it was quite enjoyable Cough, liar, cough I really wouldn't like it, but hey. I am not athletic in the least. I have nightmares about PE. Okay, I haven't really, that I can remember at least. Hope you had fun in Virginia, too. I wouldn't go to that bloody camp. Did you say they nicknamed it boot camp and call the exercise room the punisher? Ugh. Shivers visibly Id be scared too. Well, hope you enjoyed the chapter. I sincerely enjoyed your review, btw. But then again, I always do. Your reviews are one of the ones that I look forward to reading the most, because they are both supportive and rather humorous. Btw, you need to add more to your story soon!!! Thanks for the compliment, too. I don't know, most of the time it just comes to me. Like with Instant Reflexes. One of my friends happens to flip people off quite often, and she was complaining about it one day, about how she had no control over it, and I said to pass it off as an instant reflex. Then I thought, 'oh my god, that would be a cute K/D fic.'(not the flipping people off thing) And I got to work. Complicated just reminded me of Kel and her problem. I was listening to a god awful country song called Letters from Home, and that made me think that that would make a good K/N fic. My Ella Enchanted fics, however, kind of happened like you said. Well, anyway, back on topic:Thanks for the good bye review, and I sincerely hope you had a good time.

Kore Yan-I updated finally. Sorry for taking so long. Kel doesn't yet realize it because, well, because she doesn't think that it is possible.

Pinky-I know. It did go to fast. Stupid Neal, not thinking about how his words might effect her. But he wanted her to forgive him, and that seemed like what she wanted to hear. Besides, you cant be mad at him. He is, after all, a fool in love. I know, they will be together soon. It was rather short. Glad you liked it. The next one will be short too, but the one after that will be much longer. Or, I hope it will be. I know, I cant wait for better ones in the future either! It will be soo much fun to write.

Wake-Robin- Thanks. Glad you liked it. I did try to update soon. It just didn't happen as soon as I'd hoped. I was grounded. Ugh.

PsychoLioness13-Happy you enjoyed it. I know, I feel sorry for both of them. More for Neal though, I think. Well, most of the time.

Alianne Cooper- She probably wouldn't. He most likely would have, but she needed time to think, and so did she. I love it when people talk to themselves. Its fun. I wasn't even thinking about the whatever, actually, its just that I say it so much, I guess it must have come out. I would be bloody afraid at the thought at fighting with her too!!!

VampiricEternity-Thanks. I hope you enjoyed the chapter.

Chicken-puffs- thanks. I know, I am like the queen of short chapters. It is extremely awful. I will certainly try to do it as fast as I can.

DestinyHunter-thanks. I actually hated K/N before I read Underneath the Surface by Cami of Queenscove, and a very sad story that I cant remember the name of now by Nolee of Stone Mountain. It made me cry. Damn all of them. To explain why I really don't think highly of my work, I always kept it to myself until I showed it to a 'friend' a few months back. She said it sucked. I decided to post it anyway. I got awesome reviews, but I am still extremely modest and while I don't think its awful, I don't think its great either.

Nolee of Stone Mountain- I am extremely glad you liked. K/Ns are awesome, arent they? You should write another one!!!