A/N: Thanks to everyone that reviewed the last chapter. Here's chapter 2, which is in Lily's point of view.

Observing Ignorance

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Chapter 2: Feelings Need To Be Sorted:

Many girls think I am lucky to have two guys who care so much for me. Well three if you count Robbie, but our friendship is purely platonic. But it's different with Travis and Ray. Ray has been my best friend since I was five, but something inside me went off when I saw Travis for the first time. We became best friends and now once again, here I am alone with him. We start to walk home and he links his arm in mine. But that's ok right? Best friends do little things like that, but why does it feel different with Travis? Sometimes I feel like Ray is the one for me, and then Travis comes into the room and that feeling completely disappears. That makes me feel somewhat guilty. Ray's always been there for me and though I do have some romantic feelings for him, it's just not the same. I don't feel the way about him as he does about me, or as I do about Travis. And that's not fair to Ray. I keep leading him on and I hate myself for that. But Then again I hate myself for what I did to Travis. I kissed him and led him to believe that I had feelings for him, when I didn't... Or did I? Sometimes I truly believe that Travis is the one for me and it scares me. It scares me because just two weeks before the kiss I had convinced myself I was in love with Ray.

I guess I'm trying to say that I know that feelings can change. Travis could realize he's madly in love with Audrey, Ray could get sick of waiting for me to decide, and then I'd be all alone. And I'm more scared of being alone than anything else in this world. And I don't really know who I can talk to. I know I can always talk to Robbie but then again he is best friends with both Travis and Ray and he wouldn't know who to tell me to be with. I just need to realize that no matter who I choose, someone will get their heart broken.

"Is everything ok?" Travis asks. My head jerks up, I almost forgot that he was with me. I just look at him and give him a little smile. In my head I was screaming that nothing was okay because my two best friends are in love with me and I don't know who to pick. I mean, they both have so many qualities that appeal to me. Travis is smart and cute, his extensive vocabulary is pretty impressive, and he makes me feel special. Ray is cute, funny, loyal, and he makes me feel like I'm the only girl in the entire world. Who could choose from that? But at the same time it wasn't fair to me to keep them waiting. I am going to Parker's tonight and maybe she can help me. I haven't known her very long but she is pretty insightful about things. We finally get to my house and Travis gives me a hug before he walks off. If only he knew how much I needed that. It's amazing, really, the way one simple gesture, like a hug or a pat on the back, can make a person feel one hundred times better. I run a brush through my hair and get all my stuff together before heading to Parker's. She only lives about four houses down from me. I reach her house and knock on the door and she opens it in her flying pig pajamas. A smile reaches my lips knowing that a night with Parker is exactly what I need to feel better. "Hey Randy!" She says with so much excitement. I wish I could be as excited as her, but I can't. Of course you can Lily, you just need to stop thinking about everything for one night. You deserve that much. I manage to get out a simple hello and she knows something is wrong with me. I've known her for a week and she seems to get me better than any of the guys right now.

"Ah, the two little monkeys causing you brain damage and heartache again?" She asks. I

smile weakly at her and nod . " Well, come on in. We'll talk about it over ice cream." Ice Cream... the solution to any problem. She gives me the grand tour of her house and surprisingly enough it was pretty normal. We finally got to her room and I fall onto her bed and I let out a sigh.

"Cheer up Randy," She says and puts her arm around my shoulder. I can't help but notice that Parker has something on her mind other than my problems.

"Are you okay? You seem kind of...distant." I said. She looks thoughtful for a few minutes before speaking.

"I like Brenny.."She says softly using the nickname she had given Ray. Want

to hear something shocking? She hardly calls him that. Part of me was shocked and part of me was relieved. She likes Ray, maybe this is a good thing. This can make it easier for me to choose, of course now I have to choose Travis. But it's still not that easy. i just can't turn my feelings for Ray off. But I can't do that to Parker. Man, things are just so complicated. What did I do to deserve this? Oh, right. I kissed Travis. And led both of them on. And then, I gave Ray hope by having that dinner date with him. I almost kissed Travis a second time. God, this is so confusing. I don't even know what to say to Parker.

"W...wow" I manage to get out.

"I hope you aren't mad Randy," She replies. I wasn't mad, just confused. I wish that I could just wake up tomorrow and all of this would be better. But it wont. I don't blame her for liking Ray. I mean, I do too. Maybe I could fix things. Maybe I could make Ray see how perfect Parker is for him, get Travis and Audrey back together, and then I wouldn't have to chose and nobody will get hurt. Except for me, because I'd be alone and the two guys I like would be with other people.

"Parker, what do you think of Travis?," I ask hoping maybe she could help me see the light of all of this. Maybe she could be the key to helping me find out who I truly want to be with, because I don't know how much more I can take before I go crazy. I need to solve this and I need to do it soon.

"He's...smart..I dunno..I don't know him that well." She replied, looking at me with an apologetic expression.

"But do you think that we would be good together?" I ask. I know Parker probably isn't the best person to ask because she is new to our group, but who else could I talk to? Audrey was a definite no, she still hates me. But then there is always Robbie. I can always talk to him. Maybe I will on Monday.

"I guess. But, I may be speaking from my heart because I want to be with Ray, you know? So I wouldn't value my opinion much." She replies.

"I don't know Parker. I am so confused, I mean I ahve strong feelings for both of them. But I think that there is something more with Travis. I mean when I kissed him, I could hear the fireworks and I could still feel the kiss days later. It just wasn't like that with Ray. I think it's because I always thought of him as a brother," I say, not even realizing I am rambling

"Okay, now I'm speaking honestly. All feelings aside, If you feel more for Travis, he's the one you should choose. Follow your heart, Don't choose Ray because you don't want to hurt him because you care about him and your friendship. And don't lead him on, because it's not fair to Ray. Now I'll be selfish. It's not fair to me either. If you want to pick Travis but you just string them both along so you don't hurt someone, Ray will never notice me as more than a friend."She says. And I feel a bit better, I do. Especially knowing that Parker will be there to pick up the pieces of Ray's heart if I do end up breaking it. All I know is that my feelings really need to be sorted out.