AN: This will be the last couple. Imagine at least a couple years b/w the last one and this one. Hawkeye is in the psychiatric hospital if it isn't clear enough. Hawkeye is quite the rambler in this one.

Please review, it helps me, help you.

And with the last letter, I was getting to the point, where Hawk was just giving Henry quick little details about what was happening, they weren't all meant to be deep and drawn out. If that makes any sense. But what I did with the last one was exactly what I was going for, that would lead up to this. – Take care

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TLETTERS

By: Trivette Lover Heather

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I know it's been a long time Henry, but after that last one I wrote you, I decided it was time for me to let it go.

I didn't forget you, don't think for a second that I had, I just, well, I had to stop writing, it was getting hard for me.

This place I'm at is kind of scary, and I'd do anything to get back to the SWAMP. Sidney is supposed to come and see me soon, hopefully he'll declare me sane and back I'll go.

The war is supposed to be coming to an end real soon. I honestly can't even remember what it will be like to be back home. So much has happened here, during this damn war.

Really, all the killing I was getting use to, up to the point when you got killed. Then after that each death hurt a little more. Now I'm in this place, cuz the hurt just got too bad. I never thought I'd come to this, but I guess we all have a point we reach.

I just can't believe she killed her baby, it was so awful Henry. I wish I was home, I wish I got to go home when Trapper did, or even when you did. I'm rambling. Maybe I am going nuts.

What if I am nuts Henry? What if there is no going back?

I wish it were like the good old days, you, me, Trapper, drinking till we couldn't anymore. I miss those days.

Every day after you and Trapper left, the war seemed to go down hill. Everything was harder, even the little things. Margaret changed for the better it seemed, and BJ did his best to take Trappers place. But something was different; I guess I just never fully got used to it all.

I know Sidney's going to tell me to forget about the past, and look to the future, but I feel like Korea is all I know. That I won't be able to function back home, or anywhere else for that matter. I feel like a little kid, well, I guess I wish I was a little kid again.

Boy, maybe I am nuts.

Right now I'm struggling with remembering how you looked and sounded. But I remember who you were, if that makes any sense. Forgive me for not writing for so long, let's hope the next one I write will be to end this nightmare and we'll all be going home.

-Hawkeye Pierce