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CHAPTER 2It's startling the things life throws at us. We wish for things so badly, and once
they come true, we realize it was never that special. Special was what was in front of you
the whole time. No one knows this better then me. The times I had Lily right in front of
me, all I ever wanted was to be on the Quidditich team, have girls fawning over me, just
be cool. Well wishes do come true. I got it all, but I lost my friendship to Lily.
Ok. This is the part where I stop being so bloody retarded, though I thought it was
a rather nice speech. The reality of it is that Lily was Lily, no one special. She wasn't
beautiful, she didn't have a great figure, and she didn't worry about what she wore. She
was just so laid back; always ready to have a good time. I have never seen her when she
didn't have that sparkle in her eye, and also way back before third grade I never saw her
not love me. Well, love might me too strong a word but she did like me a lot. I was
somewhat fond of her, but give me a break, she was no supermodel. I wanted a girl to
give me status and name. Lily only gave me enjoyable conversations, she only talked to
me about where we were going to go after Hogwarts, and in 3rd year that's not what I
wanted. I just wanted to see some action. No matter what she was ready for a
conversation, ready for any questions I had about life, ready to scare me with what she
could understand. And you have to understand. This is in 3rd year, and at that point in
time WHO CARED?
Well anyway my chance at ultimate coolness came. There were Quidditich tryouts
and I made it for Chaser. Well after that the girls came flocking, and I enjoyed all I could.
This is when my ego turned bad. Lily started to avoid me, and I started to miss her. Like
it or not the blondes may have had the figure and looks Lily didn't but none of them ever
had that sparkle. And it wasn't that the blondes, or brunets were stupid or anything, They
weren't, they were smart, friendly, but they were afraid of mistakes, afraid of taking a
risk, and I'm James Potter, I need girls that can take risks.
By 4th year Lily just stopped talking to me. She didn't even pretend to like me
anymore. But that was when I realized I wanted her. So I asked her out. In front of the
whole school almost, and she said no. Well that was a huge blow to my pride and only
Moony and Padfoot knew how much it hurt. So I began to make a joke out of it. Bad
move on my part. But the more she rejected me the more I began to like her. She still had
the sparkle in her eye, still would laugh at jokes, still be the free-spirited hard working
girl she was. And she didn't miraculously like go from a size A or a size C cup, she
didn't randomly show up in breakfast looking absolutely mind-blowing. But in my mind
no girl could ever compare.
Have you ever had the experience of meeting someone, thinking they were really
rather bad looking, but once you look closer, its like how did I ever miss that? How did I
ever miss those eyes that smile, that dimple? I'll tell you a secret though, even through
out the time she hated me we would still have those conversations. The first time we had
one since 3rd year was after our big argument by the lake. Regardless of what anyone
thought, it was possibly the worst day of my life. To be compared to Snape? A giant
squid? Later on that day or actually more during the night I went up to the Astronomy
Tower. Lily was there. I just quietly went to sit besides her not saying anything.
"Its odd isn't it," whispered Lily
Well I was rather shocked. It seemed to me that she had forgotten our argument, but I
thought about what to answer her with. That for me was a bit of a problem because I
didn't know what she was talking about. Personally I thought she was talking about our
lost friendship, but to stay on the safe side I would just question her.
"What is?'
"The fact that one person can totally change the course of your life, that some
person you never knew until a few months ago can cause you to make a decision to
completely change the direction of your life"
I quietly waited for her to continue
"Its almost as if they were sent just for youâto help you make the right choice."
"Maybe it was in their destiny to help change your life." I commented
"But do they even realize what a big impact that they made? That them alone
unknowingly pushed you to make the right choice, although for wrong reasons?"
"Example please?" I was utterly confused
"I have a muggle friend Rilie, I have know her since before I was born, but
anyway, this summer she told me about her year. She went to a really awesome school,
well actually it wasn't that great, its just the people were awesome. That year they had
gotten a new student, which was a huge deal because there school was tiny, and she
became really good friends with the guy, and a bit more. But apparently their school's
Administration had a problem with it. "
"And what business is it of theirs?"
"That's what got her so upset, it wasn't any of there business who she hung out
with, but anyway, there was this other art school that was in our town, it was a really
awesome one, but it was kind of like school rivalry so she really didn't want to go, even
though she knew that Becton, the name of the school, was possibly the best choice for
her, art wise, she ended up transferring because she was so upset. She ended up getting
this great scholarship to Queen Mary's. That opportunity she would never had if she
stayed where she was.
And I just find it so odd that boy never came to that school, or she never became
friend's with him then she would have stayed right where she was and who knew what
would happen to her."
"That is pretty odd." This was what I loved about her. That afternoon she had
nearly about killed me but later on we just talk as if the past 3 years have never happened.
Of course the next day she hates me and I go back to annoying her but from time to time
we still have these secret conversations, which always make me think, maybe I do have a
chance. Maybe I just need to simmer down a bit and I'll win her over.
And this year its exactly what I am going to do once I find Nyx and Faye to just
about strangle them for locking me into a god damn broom closet. GOD DAMN THEM.
AND WHERE THE HELL IS PADFOOT?
"MOOOONYYYYYY. I HEAR YOU LAUGHING. GOD COULDN"T YOU
HAVE STUCK ME HERE WITH EVANS AT LEASTâ?" OK. Fine, if they don't open
it its fine, I guess its just time for plan B.
"Look you guys I am a cocky basterd I know. I also know that everyone thinks
it's hopeless. I also know that you all think I'm not as serious as I should be about her.
But trust me I'm way to serious for my own good because I swear on my grandfathers
grave I am in love with Lily Evans"
Silence. They open the door.
"GOTCHA!" I yell as I run to the Great Hall as fast as I can. I can hear Nyx
scream and Faye laugh, I even hear Peter giggle nervously. But as I turn around I can see
Moony and Padfoot stand perfectly still looking completely shocked. And I know why.
They knew I was telling the truth. My big mouth and I. SHIT!
