Chapter Four: "The Trouble with Love"
Kelly Clarkson
The next day, Lily sat in the common room; doing her Potions Essay Professor Flowers had assigned them the day before. She looked lazily about the room, not particularly interested in anything. The only thing she could think of was James and the Ball the night before. Meredith was sitting next to her, working on the same essay.
"Lily? What's boomslang skin again?" she asked, her eyebrows squished together in concentration.
"What?"
"Boomslang skin, what is it? Lily, hello? Are you in there somewhere? Earth to Lily Evans, come in Lily!" she waved her hands in front of her eyes, but to no avail. Lily had spotted the Marauders sitting in their usual corner, bending over that stupid piece of parchment they were always consulting. Meredith sighed and pulled out a book on potions and looked it up herself. Once Lily had started staring at someone (undoubtedly James), there was no breaking her gaze.
Abruptly, the portrait door swung open, revealing the "anorexic super slut" group, as Lily and Meredith liked to refer to them. She rolled her eyes and shook her head at the sight of James' fan club. She lowered her head to finish up her essay, "Describe the elements and effects to the Polyjuice Potion".
About a half an hour passed, and just as she was finishing up, she lifted her eyes back to where now only three Marauders sat. On impulse she searched the room with her eyes to find James. When she found him, she shrieked and gasped, covering her mouth in horror. One of the hormonal fan club girls had James pinned up against one of the walls of the common room and was nearly sucking the life out of him by way of lips.
Almost automatically, Lily stood, letting her books and everything fall off her lap. She didn't even bother to clean up the mess, she just fled. She sensed Meredith standing too and calling after her, but she wasn't listening. She was on the verge of crying herself another Nile River, and she was definitely not going to let anyone see her do so, especially not James Potter.
As she tore away, she rushed to the only place that was a sanctuary for Lily, stumbling over herself in efforts to get there faster; she closed her eyes and let her feet carry her along at a marathon running pace. Finally, Lily reached the library, the only place she could hide herself away for hours at a times.
"My dear, is there something wrong?" A worried young Madam Pince rushed over to Lily, her mascara and eyeliner creating black rifts in her soft pale cheeks.
Lily shook her head, and headed over to the fiction shelves, and grabbed the thickest book she could find, instantly immersing herself in it. Lily grabbed her favorite armchair next to the library fireplace. She was reading the line, but her mind was racing, wondering about everything.
"Goodnight, Lily, dear, I'm closing up the library. Close the door on your way out!" Madam Pince called out from the front of the library. She trusted her enough to let her stay as long as she needed. Lily was nearly always in there, so she and the librarian had become friends.
After reading the same paragraph about thirty times, Lily put down the book and sighed. Sometimes, there are problems so big that reading books can't help.
"Love can be a many splendored thing. Can't deny the joy it brings, a dozen roses, diamond rings, dreams for sale and fairy tales."
She stood and crossed her arms, trying to think. Slowly, she wandered from the flickering light of the fire into the darkened library. Lily brushed her cheeks, making sure she had gotten all the black tears off of her face. She wasn't mad at James, really, but just upset. She couldn't control her emotions, and it scared her.
"It'll make you hear a symphony, and you just want the world to see. But like a drug that makes you blind, it'll fool you every time."
She sang again, tripping on a library book someone had dropped earlier and stumbling a bit. She caught herself in mid-fall, grabbing hold onto a bookcase. Once Lily had regained her balance, she sang on, softly and breathily, singing through the river of tears that was pounding on her eyelids, begging to be released. Then, the impulse to sing to the chorus surged through her, and she sang, her voice overpowering the tears.
"The trouble with love is, it can tear you up inside, make your heart believe a lie. It's stronger then your pride!"
Unbeknownst to Lily, James had seen her flee the common room, and after he had flung that slut off of him, he grabbed his invisibility cloak and had torn down the corridors, remembering that the library was where Lily loved to be. He had passed Madam Pince on his way over, and knew that if she had left, Lily was there alone and depressed. He couldn't let her be all alone when she was feeling down- it just wasn't right, especially if it was his fault she was that way.
James arrived at the library, out of breath, to see that the back fireplace was lit, and someone was walking along the bookshelves, singing softly. James quickly hid as Lily turned to corner and looked right where he was standing seconds before. He sat there, in the darkness, watching Lily, listening to her gorgeous voice. She was singing a sad song, yet it was about love… love, one of the greatest things on earth. Why was Lily singing about a brokenhearted lover?
"The trouble with love is, it doesn't care how fast you fall and you can't refuse the call. See you've got no say at all"
Lily returned to the fireplace, and James stood up to get a good look at her face. It was covered in black streaks and it was red and blotchy. It broke his heart. He knew at that moment that if there was anything he ever wanted to do in his life, it was to make sure Lily Evans would never feel pain like she was obviously feeling right now.
"Now I was a once a fool it's true. I played the game by all the rules, but now my world's a deeper blue. I'm sadder but I'm wiser too. I swore I'd never love again, I swore my heart would never mend. Said love wasn't worth the pain, but then I hear it call my name!"
She sang, louder and more confident than before. Lily had an excellent voice, and in James' mind, she obviously deserved to sing with a chorus of angels in heaven. No, she should sing solo in heaven, with all the earth and skies listening. That was how it should be, he thought, Lily was to be put on a pedestal and loved by all people. Namely, James.
CRASH.
"SHIT!" James whispered as he fell over a pile of books someone had left on the floor. Lily whipped around, hearing the crash.
"Is anyone there?" she asked, interrupting her train of thought (and song). Hearing nothing in response to her call, she turned back around, wrapping her robes tighter around herself, hugging her arms. She continued singing the chorus, hesitantly, as if she was sensing something's presence in the library. Maybe Lily was just paranoid.
"Every time I turn around, I think I've got it all figured out. My heart keeps callin', and I keep on fallin', over and over again" She sang out after completing the chorus. She paused and looked back over at where James had sat, wondering about that crash she had heard. Shaking her head, Lily turned back around and sat at the wide hearth.
"This sad story always ends the same, me standin' in the pouring rain. It seems no matter what I do, it tears my heart in two! The trouble with love is; it can tear you up inside, make your heart believe a lie. It's stronger than your pride; it's in your heart it's in your soul! You're losing all control, so you've got no say at all."
Lily sat back down in the arm chair, leaning back. She closed her bright green orbs full of frustration and hurt, singing in a whisper:
"The trouble with love is; It can tear you up inside, make your heart believe a lie, the trouble with love is…"
She rolled her head to the left a bit, falling asleep. James stood back up and walked over to her, taking the cloak off and covering Lily with it. He leaned down and picked her up in his arms, carrying her out of the library. Quietly, he whispered an extinguishing charm at the fireplace, submerging the two in darkness.
"Lumos" James whispered, letting his wand's light guide he and Lily out of the dark library. He finally reached the common room, and by this time, it was near midnight, so James quickly ascended the girl's dorm stairs, careful to avoid the 6th step, lying Lily in her bed, kissing her softly on the lips.
"Goodnight Lily" he said before leaving her dorm.
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