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Chapter seven: Why can't it be?

You came along unexpectedly

I was doing fine in my lone world

Baby please don't get me wrong

Coz I'm not complaining

But you see my mind is spinning



I open my door and as I open it I saw Catherine standing in front of me.

"Gil we have to talk!" she blurted, she looks rather tensed, I wonder what she wants to talk about.

"Uh. Okay" I replied as I took a step back to let Catherine in.

"Cath is there a problem?" I'm really starting to get worried, she's pacing back and forth this isn't like her. She stops from pacing, she looks at me and she's now staring at my eyes.

I watch her intently as she sighed, we took our seats on my couch and she placed and covered my hands with hers.

"Gil, I can't do this anymore."

I don't understand what she means so I just keep my mouth shut and let her continue.

"I have been feeling this thing for God knows how long and I've been ignoring it. And now, well I can't ignore it any longer, I can't hide it anymore."

Catherine removed her hands from mine, she covered her face, she stopped from talking. Ignoring? Hiding? What is she saying?

So I call for her name to make her continue, "Cath."

She looked up, she looked deep into my eyes, I feel as if I'm going to melt.

"Gil, I want to tell you that I - -"

So why can't it be?

Why can't it be the two of us

Why can't we be lover's only friends

You came along at the wrong place

At the wrong time

Or was it me?




"Gil, honey who is there?" I glance at the direction of the voice that has interrupted Catherine.

A lady with beautiful curly read hair and astonishing green eyes is standing a few steps from us.

I stand up, and walked up to her, I placed my hand at her lower back and lead her near to Catherine.

"Catherine, this is Wendy. Wendy......Catherine." I introduced and watch as the two women shook their hands. I notice as Catherine smiled but something is terribly wrong. Something is different with her smile, it seems a little sad. Is that tears starting to form in her eyes?

"I finally met the famous Catherine" I heard Wendy commented, which made me blush. Sure I've mention Catherine a few times in our conversations but it wasn't that often! Was it?

"Well I'll just leave the two of you alone, okay?" Wendy said, she kissed me good night and said good night to Catherine. Wendy is a very caring and understanding woman, she probably saw the same thing I'm seeing in Catherine's eyes right now... desperation, worry, fear and ... well when Wendy showed up, I don't know, a little hint of jealousy? – or was it me wishful thinking? Oh I don't know, but one thing is for sure, something is wrong. I watch as Wendy disappeared from the light, I glanced at Catherine she's staring at where Wendy was just a few minutes ago, and there's a look in her eyes that I've never seen before and it's making me worry.

"Catherine, what did you want to talk about?"

"Oh. Um. It's nothing"

"If it was nothing you wouldn't have come over here at this hour."

"I'm sorry for disturbing you, I didn't know you had company."

"Cath. What were you gonna say." I insisted, I try to look at her eyes but then she just turned her head and looked the other way. I reached out my hand to touch her but she backed away with her head bowing.

"I. Um. Ah. I have to go"

I get a grip at her arm and made her look at me.

"Please Gil. I have to go"

"Not until you tell me what's wrong" I argued

"I just needed to see you. Okay?"

"Catherine." I spoke her name with an insisting tone as I loosen my grip on her.

And unexpectedly she jumped into my arms and hugged me tightly. I don't know how to react so I just acted on what I want to do and hugged her back. I heard her as she sighed heavily. I know something is hurting her, and I know too that she was about to tell me something very important a few minutes ago, what I don't know is to what have happened that made her mood change. A few minutes ago she looked so determined, nervous yet determined to say something, it was like she was about to put all her cards on the table and she's ready for it but that look didn't last for long. Now she looks pained, like she's regretting something, I feel her hold on me tighten, I close my eyes as I feel her warmth.

She moved away. She looked at me and smiled at me. Her smile was genuine, but her eyes were sad.

"Bye Gil" she said, she brushed her hand to my face and walked away without looking back.

I don't know what was happening. There was something to those words, like she was meaning something deeper.

There was something about that touch. Normally I would feel aroused by her scent and touch. Now, I feel confused, worried and I don't know, pained? I stare and watch as she walked back to her car. I was about to follow her when I felt someone embraced me from the back, as I glanced I see Wendy smiling at me, I smiled back at her and when I shifted my gaze back to where Catherine was, she was gone already. So I close the door of my town house and lead Wendy back to what used to be my bedroom but this past few days has become our bedroom.

Baby I dream of you every minute

In my choice, you're always in it

That's the only place I know

Where you can be mine

And I am yours but only till I wake up

I can't sleep. Everytime I close my eyes I see the look in Catherine's face and it pains me. Everytime I try to erase it with good thoughts, you know what come in my mind?

Catherine.

Again, only this time she's smiling, she's laughing... and then it would come back to the look in her eyes earlier. She's been trying to avoid my eyes since she was interrupted by Wendy, and I wonder...

I wonder what she was going to say

I wonder what changed her mood

I wonder what was wrong

And I wonder why she kept on avoiding my eyes.

Even though she was avoiding eye contact, I could still see a glimpse of what was it in her eyes.

I feel so sleepy. But I can't sleep. I look at the person beside me, a beautiful woman curled up beside a mean man thinking of somebody else. But what can I do? I can't help it if my entire mind wants to think about is Catherine. And even if I control my brain, I am as sure as hell that my heart could never be controlled.

O yea. That's right. My heart can't be controlled, I know that, but why am I still trying so hard to do so?

And now, I'm starting to be thankful that I can't sleep. I know that once I fall asleep I would be dreaming about Catherine, and I wouldn't like Wendy hear me as I whisper Catherine's sweet name in my sleep while she's lying beside me.

After that breakfast talk I had with Cath, I was convice that Catherine is just a dream girl and Wendy is the one for me. I was becoming really happy this past few days accepting that fact, the fact that even Catherine wanted me to be with Wendy, that Wendy wanted to be with me and that I was with some one I CARE for... like Wendy. But what happened earlier is still haunting me.

The look in her eyes.

The way she said good-bye.

The way she touched my face.

The way she walked away.

And what was that she wanted to tell me? Was she going to tell me she's in love with me??... well, I think so, or am I becoming delusional? But I don't know. I'm not sure. That look in her eyes before she was interrupted by Wendy was full of passion, hope, and .... Love.

And again I glance at the lady sleeping beside me, and now I ask myself.... Why can't it be Catherine lying right next to me?

Has Catherine finally found feelings for me? If she did, then why can't we be together?

I sigh as I realize... it is because of me.

So why can't it be?

Why can't it be the two of us?

Why can't we be lover's only friends

You came along at the wrong place

At the wrong time

Or was it me?

=TBC=