Disclaimer: CSI and the song are both not mine

Spoilers: doubt it

A/N: So, so, so SORRY!!! I've finished this fic for probably about a month or two ago, and I guess I just forgot that I haven't posted it here in , coz I really post my fics in another site. Anyways, I want to say thanks to Spikey the Neon BlowFish for reminding me!! The song used here is Rainbow, by Southborders.

Chapter 19: Rainbow

Fallin out fallin in
nothings sure in this world no no
Breaking down breaking in
never knowing what lies ahead
We can really never tell it all no no

We are now outside the emergency room. Gil's sitting on the chair across mine, he's covering his face with his hands. I can feel my own tears starting to stream. I know that this is my fault. I knew from the start that being together is wrong but I allowed it to happen.

Now Gil's probably blaming himself, regretting 'us', and hating me.

I don't have the courage to ge near him

to hold him

to comfort him…

to love him.

Knowing that loving him is the reason we are here.

Say goodbye say hello
to a lover or friend
sometimes we could never understand
why some things begin with just love
we can never have it all
no no no ohh

It has been a week since I came here to Vegas to hear the truth from Catherine. We have decided to keep everything just to ourselves even for just a week. Lindsey went to camp that whole week so Caht and I had the whole house to ourselves. That whole week we promised not to think of anything. WE just enjoyed each other's company. And with all honesty I could say that, that is the happiest week I've ever had in my entire life.

And as we have both promised, we well face everything and everyone after one week. I was already packing my things at that time preparing for my flight back to Canada to talk to Wendy.


But oh, cant you see
that no matter what happens
life goes on and on
And so baby just smile
coz im always around you
and i'll make you see
how beautiful life is for you and me

The night before he was supposed to go back to Canada, I couldn't sleep. I just stayed up and watched his sleeping form beside me. That whole week was just perfectly beautiful and it saddened me for it needed to end. He was going to Canada to talk to Wendy and I was scared. I know that there is a possibility that he might not come back to me and just stay there with her and their child.

And again I went back to my confused, guilty and hurting stage. I was so scared, I was so scared that he might not come back. After experiencing that whole week I don't think I can handle it knowing that's the last of it.

And now I'm scared again. Coz right now I might loose him again. I know I'm being selfish but I can't help it if that's what I feel.


take a little time baby
see the butterfly's colors
listen to the birds that sent to sing for me and you
can you feel me
this is such a wonderful place to me

Last night I was awaken by her sobs. I heard her crying beside me. I got up and held her in my arms, I know why she's crying. I know who made her cry. Me. And I know that it is also I who could stop her from crying. I gave her reassurance, I told her the truth, the same truth I've been telling her since I got here. That I love her. I love her and I will do anything to be with her.

I promised her that I'll be back. We both laid down, she used my chest as her pillow, I waited till she fell asleep before I closed my eyes.

When I woke up, she was still in my arms. Waking up everyday with her beside me is what I want my whole life.


even if there is pain now
everything will be alright
for as long as the world still turns
there will be night and day
can you hear me
there's a rainbow always after the rain

I was cleaning up in the kitchen while he packed his things in the bedroom.

I was still feeling scared and nervous but it has already lessened thanks to the reassurance he gave me that night.

The door-bell rang, Lindsey was supposed to come back that morning, with my excitement to see my daughter I ran to the door and opened it with a grin. But as to my surprise it wasn't my daughter on the other side.

It's her. It's Wendy.

"Where's Gil?" Those where the first words I heard from her. Her voice was filled with hurt and hatred. I didn't know what to say, or rather how to say it.

"He's. Um. Uh. He's upstairs" I murmured hoping that she would not hear me clearly.

"YOU selfish, home-wrecker! Bitch!!" She shouted out loud as I felt the palm of her hand slapped across my face.

Honestly, it is not in my character to let things like that happen. Under other circumstances, I would have slapped her thrice, a punch and a scratch just so I could give her a piece of my mind. But this time, I know I'm wrong, I'm the bad guy and I truly deserved it.


Hittin high hittin low
win or lose you should go
yeah yeah
getting warm getting cold
weather can be so good or bad
but baby this is life so don't get mad
no no no

When I heard Wendy's voice shouting from downstairs this morning I panicked. I hurriedly went out to see what was happening, when I arrived I saw Catherine with her head bowed down and saw Wendy pointing at her and saying something with her teeth clenched. I knew right then that she knows already.

I ran to Catherine's side and shielded her from Wendy.

"You! You bastard! How can you do this? You're cheating on me!"

"Wendy ­ "

"I came here to take you home"

"I am home." I said it before I could think about it. It was probably my subconscious and my heart speaking.

"You're leaving me and your child for her?"

"I am not leaving our child. I'd still be the father he or she needs. I'll provide our child with everything and I will make sure that our baby will feel how much I love him."

"No Gil. You have to choose. Me or her? You choose her you will never see even the slightest glimpse of this child's shadow. You choose me, you get to have a family, you get to raise your child but you NEVER in your whole life could see this hoare's face again!"

I remained quiet. She gave me two options, each with the condition of loosing someone that means my whole life to me. I felt as Catherine left my side.


coz ohhh
can't you see
that no matter what happens
life goes on and on
and so baby just smile
coz im always around you
and i'll make you see
how beautiful life is for you and me

I left his side. I know what to do.

I came back and gave his hand a squeeze and reluctantly let go.

I moved back, he glanced at me. No matter how hard I tried I couldn't help the tears from falling from my eyes.

"Go, be with your child." Those were the words I uttered, then I handed him his suitcase.

He looked me in the eyes as if asking me to explain. I felt that he's in a dilemma and I just want to help him. I don't want to see him hurting, that's why I'm backing away.

"Go Gil!" I insisted. He got the suitcase from my hand and glanced up at Wendy. Wendy wasn't frowning nor smiling, but I can see it in her eyes, she had that victorious look.

She looks at me with so much hate and pity. As if looking to a looser.

Wendy was the first to saunter towards the door, he followed her. Before either of them could get out she looked at me through her shoulder.

"Good bye Catherine" I heard her say.

Then he looked back, he looked at me.

Then he glanced back at Wendy, and then back at me.

He placed his suitcase down and walked his way back to the where I was standing.

I embraced me so tightly, as if never wanting to let go.

But then I had to back away. I held his face for the last time, "Good bye Gil" I whispered the few words which I seem to be saying often this past months. The words that give me such pain and sorrow.

He took my hand and placed them down. "No sweetheart. Not good-bye." Those were the words he said back. Words which made me smile, I almost forgot of Wendy's presence in the room.

take a little time baby
see the butterfly's colors
listen to the birds that sent to sing for me and you
can you feel me
this is such a wonderful place to me

"I hate you!" Wendy screamed. She walked towards me, she slapped me once. Then she continuously punched her fist on my chest. "I hate you! I hate you!" she continued yelling.

I got a grip of her wrist to stop her.

She successfully freed her wrist from my grasp. "You are never going to see this child" she said as if it was a promise to herself as she started to walk away.

"I have a right to that child" I said. She looked back at me with terror on her face, "No! no!" She got my suitcase from the floor and threw it at me. She grabbed every thing in sight and started throwing things.

Neither me nor Catherine knew what to do. We couldn't stop her. I tried to come near her but she just threw more things.

Then she stopped. She placed both her hands on her belly, and there I saw it. Red liquid is starting to run down her legs.

She's bleeding.


even if there is pain now
everything will be alright
for as long as the world still turns
there will be night and day
can you hear me
there's a rainbow always after the rain

Gil ran towards her and carried her as I hurriedly got my car. We drove her here to the hospital.

We've been waiting here long. And we still have no idea what's happening.

Just this morning he chose me over her. But now, now I think he is regretting doing so.

I cannot help but to blame myself in all of this. I have caused Gil to be in such a dilemma, and now, now I know he's regretting and hurting.

How could have I caused such pain to the one person I love so dearly?

I know this is my fault, and I know nothing I could do could ever erase or make things better.


life's full of challenges
not all the time we get what we want
but don't despair my dear
you'll take it each trial
and you'll make it through the storm
coz you're strong

Oh God.

What shall I do?

What can I do?

What if my baby doesn't make it? I will never forgive myself.

This is my fault. I have messed up Wendy, Catherine and my own child's life.

What kind of father am I? My baby isn't even born yet and already I have successfully placed him in danger.

I felt Catherine's hands covered mine. "I'm sorry" she muttered.

"For what?"

"For this. I know that this is my fault - - "

"No. None of this is your fault, it is mine."

Catherine opened her mouth again to say something but before she could the doctor came out.


my faith in you is clear
so i say once again
this world's beautiful
let us celebrate life that is so beautiful
so beautiful...

"Are you the father" the doctor asked as Grissom stood up from his chair..

"Yes. Gilbert Grissom" Grissom answered.

"Well Mr. Grissom, I'm Dr. Kolin. Congratulations it's a boy" the doctor gave him a smile and shook his hand.

Grissom couldn't suppress the grin on his face.

"So the baby is fine?" Catherine asked with much anticipation.

"Well of course, but he will have to stay in the hospital since he's premature. He is only seven months." Said the doctor as a matter of factly.

"Seven months?" Grissom repeated incredulously.

"Why what's the matter?" Catherine asked.

"Well, it's only six months. But it will be seven months next week. I'm sorry doctor. You probably just rounded it."

"Mr. Grissom, I think you missed calculated. The baby is exactly in its seventh month" said the doctor.

"Are you sure?" Grissom questioned with which led the doctor to grimace.

"Yes, I am positively sure. Now if you'll excuse me I have attend to some more patients." Said the doctor as he left.

take a little time baby
see the butterfly's colors
listen to the birds that sent to sing for me and you
can you feel me
this is such a wonderful place to me

"Gil?"

"Cath, if that baby is seven months, that can't be mine"

"Are you sure?"

"Yes."

"Well, if it isn't yours, whose is it?"

"It's mine" said the voice.

"Hi! My name is Norman. Norman Bausch."

A man with deep brown eyes, dark hair and stands with 6 foot in height introduced himself.

"I was Wendy's boyfriend. We have already broke up but we had a one-night stand before I left and went to Germany."

"So you never knew she was pregnant." Catherine assumed.

"Yes."

Grissom was too stunned with this new information and the possibility of this baby not being his to talk, so Catherine continued to talk to the man claiming to be the father of the new born child.

"How did you know that she's here and that she's pregnant?" Catherine asked suspiciously, her logical thinking mind starting to work again.

"Wendy's best friend Alexia. Well Alexia was sent by her company to their branch in Singapore, she came back to Canada for Wendy's wedding. It was only last month that she learned that Wendy's pregnant and last week, well, last week she learned I'm the father. I received a call from her 4 days ago, she also told me Wendy came after Grissom, and I'm assuming that that's you." Norman gestured his hand in Grissom's direction.

"That answers the question how you knew of her pregnancy, now, how did you know were in the hospital?" Catherine asked

"I went by the address Alexia gave me. When I arrived your neighbor said you guys rushed here to the hospital" Norman explained.

Grissom shook his head from side to side. He walked his way out and Catherine followed him.

"Gil ­ "

"I can't believe this! She made a fool out of me! I have been anticipating for that child, I have given up a lot of things, I almost lost everything only to learn that this is all a lie!?"

"But hey, there is a bright side."

Grissom looked at Catherine. He was too stunned and angry all at the same time that he has overlooked the good in all of this.

There really is a rainbow after the rain. After all they've been through … this could be the beginning of the rest of their lives.

"Yeah. But, I still don't have a son." Grissom said but the look in his eyes and the smile starting to break from his face is overlapping his disappointment.

"If that's the only problem you got then no need to worry! I'll give you one."

even if there is pain now
everything will be alright
for as long as the world still turns
there will be night and day
can you hear me
there's a rainbow always after the rain

= TBC