-Quistis pov-
It's funny isn't it? How a person can seem to be happy and seem like they have everything when in fact they are dying inside. No one would think that of me. No not me. Not 'The Great Quistis Trepe'. After the second sorceress war I was offered my instructors license back. Strangely enough I declined.
"Why Quistis?" The headmaster looked at me trying to find my reason. Ever with the cols emotionless mask I told him a semblance of the truth, "headmaster I love teaching but... I'm a SEED now. I'll stick with this job. Besides sir I was a mediocre instructor at best."
'Mediocre'? Yes I guess Seifer had been right all those years. But mediocre or not I still wish he had become a SEED. He and squall were my best students. But now Squall has got Rinoa. I don't hate her. In fact she's one of my best friends but it still hurts. Of course I don't show it. Quistis Trepe shows no feeling toward anything or anyone. Sometimes I wonder who I am. No one knows who I am. Who I really am. I wonder if anyone ever knew that I like to stand at the beach near Balamb for hours or that I actually like to go shopping. I don't think even the Trepies know how much I really hate always being punctual and correct. But what else can I do. The only person who ever treated me like a person instead of 'the ice queen' (which people could at least have the decency to wait until I'm out of the room or at least not in hearing distance to call me that) was Seifer.
Seifer. Damn him. I still can't believe what he did to us but I guess... this was all my fault. If I had paid more attention, if I had just tore my eyes away from Squall for just a second... It's just as much my fault as it is his. I still remember our last battle. Squall and Zell were out cold. It was just me and him. He had the advantage we both knew it.
"Tell me instructor how does it feel knowing that there is no one who cares for you? No one here to protect you? No one to help you up after you fall?"
"I feel nothing Seifer. You should know that. Remember you called me the Ice Queen. You can beat me you know. One hit and I'm gone. But I'll leave another scar to match the one on your face before you do."
He attacked me then I had raised my whip to scar him as I had promised but then his eyes changed. He looked like he was sane again. He seemed sad. He stopped then obviously weak. Obviously in need of medical attention. Obviously trying to tell me something but I didn't listen I attacked and in the end he was the one to fall. But sometimes I wonder what he said afterwards. Because what it sounded like could never be what he really said.
Ironically I have now been sent on a mission to find Seifer Almasy and bring him back to the garden were he will finally be put to trial. I can't forgive him I don't know how anyone could. I know I'll be bringing him to his death. I'm packed and ready. At least this will give me something to do. I can't stand being here anymore. Not when everyone is so happy and I'm so alone. Selphie and Irvine were getting married in a few months; Squall and Rinoa got married last spring. Zell and Catherine (the library girl) were hitting it off great. And me... well like I said I don't have anyone. No Quistis Trepe a.k.a 'The Ice Queen' could never love someone.
But still...
She glanced at a set of pictures on her small dresser. The first was a picture taken recently at a party that Selphie had, of course, set up for the garden. Squall and Rinoa were in the center holding each other tightly, Selphie and Irvine were on their right Irvine holding a smiling Selphie in his arms, Zell and Catherine were on their left Catherine was holding a hotdog for the tattooed blond who was trying his hardest to get It from her. Meanwhile she, Quistis Trepe, Stood at the outside of the group a forced smile on her face.
The second was of happier times. It was at the orphanage beside the beach. Squall and Sis were building a sand castle while Zell was punching at a tree for fun. Selphie and Irvine were picking flowers and Quistis and... Seifer funny I never noticed I was with Seifer were sitting by the beach holding hands Quistis obviously having fallen asleep with her head on Seifers shoulder. A lone tear threatened to spill down her cheek but she quickly dried her eyes and went to sleep.
But still... She thought in the moment before sleep took over her consciousness I wonder if I heard him right. Sleep then took her away.
"I never wanted to hurt YOU...Instructor... Sorry"
