Disclaimer: I don't know InuYasha...I just stalk him day in and day out.
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I stayed in his embrace wondering what in the future will have me hurt so much. Nothing came to mind. I just reveled in his embrace until my eyes slowly closed. Even when my head was full of puzzlement and worry his embrace loosened my worries and made me feel safe. When I woke up I was in my bed. InuYasha sat next to me on my chair. He looked peaceful with his shirt sleeves rolled up and black hair loosely tied back. He sat backwards on the chair with his arms resting at the top of the chair with his head gently cradled in his arms.
I sat up and put my knees to my chest, "What time is it?" I said with a slight yawn.
"It's almost 5:30. I think I should be leaving now though. I just wanted to make sure you didn't think I'd leave you all alone right after you fell asleep." He said smiling gently.
"You know what InuYasha, you've changed." I said my eyes taking in his new form.
"Is that a good or bad thing exactly?" InuYasha said.
"It's really good. You seem older. You act so mature." I said smiling at him.
"Good, that's exactly what I was hoping you would say." He said as he got up.
I got up too. I walked him to the door.
"Thanks InuYasha. Thank you for giving me the reassurance I need. I won't be back for a couple of days though. I'm afraid past InuYasha is irked at me for leaving so soon after returning." I said with a frown.
"Oh, well then when you come back give me a call and I'll be here 20x faster than the speed limit allows." InuYasha said with a wink as he walked to his car.
I closed the door. I sighed. Even if it was too late I should really go back to the Feudal Era. I still felt a sting of pain every time I thought of how I hurt InuYasha. It wasn't right for me to do that. I needed to apologize to him. Sometimes even the truth can't be said for it hurts far more than lies. I don't know where I heard that but it sounded oddly poetic.
I took a quick shower. My bag, in my rush to come and question InuYasha so I quickly jumped into the well. I ran for the village just as everyone began to eat.
"Welcome back Kagome. Have you eaten yet?" Kaede asked holding a bowl of stew for me.
"No I haven't eaten yet. Thank you." I said as I took a breath and noticed InuYasha absent.
"He isn't here, Kagome. He left soon after you left. Quite in a rush actually." Miroku said noticing my wandering eyes.
I nodded in understanding. So I did hurt him. Badly if he hadn't returned since I left. I knew he would have to know what he did with Kikyo wasn't a secret. He should have known that already. I guess me telling him wounded his pride as a man with slyness or something like that.
I sighed. I guess I just had to wait for him to come back. I would apologize then. I wouldn't go out looking for him. He needed his space and I was going to give it to him. Although I felt fairly odd during my whole wait for him. It was about 9 when I decided to go look for him. Everyone else was asleep but a restless wonder filled me. I couldn't sleep. InuYasha wasn't back yet and my restlessness would help my search for him.
I put on a light coat and walked out of Kaede's hut. I walked into the forest and looked around. Glimmers blue light were seen from one part of the forest. I wondered what it was. I knew it wasn't InuYasha but yet it intrigued me and pulled me towards it. I walked towards the light. Maneuvering around the trees and branches was no problem. When I got into the clearing however the sight shocked me.
I must have been wrong in my assumption that it wasn't InuYasha. It was. I just stood there in awe. He was with Kikyo. That wasn't the surprise though. It was what they were doing that surprised me. InuYasha was...he was having sex with her. My eyes went big. I was paralyzed. Tears began to form at my eyes. It hurt. It hurt me so much to see this.
InuYasha turned and saw me. His eyes looked so hollow. He looked right into my eyes and smirked. He continued knowing I was there. Tears were now freely flowing down my face. He knew I was there and yet he still continued doing it to that corpse. Was this some kind of sick revenge?
I finally got the strength to leave and ran as fast as I could run. Tears blurred my eyes as branches smacked against my body. I came out of the forest. My breath was labored and my body bruised and scratched. I started running again until I reached the hut. I slipped inside still sniffling. I dropped down next to Miroku.
I shook him, "Miroku wake up." I said hiccuping.
Me moaned a little, "Kagome, what is it?"
"Can I talk to you outside? I don't want to wake everyone up if I haven't already." I said sniffling.
"Yeah sure." He said getting up sensing my uneasy words.
"Miroku I'm going back to my time for a while. Can you tell everyone that?" I said hiccuping once again.
"Have you been crying, Kagome? Has something happened?" Miroku said in a worried tone.
"No, nothing has happened. I just need to go home because I forgot um... that I have to take a really important test tomorrow." I said not wanting Miroku worrying about me.
"You know you can tell me anything. I won't hold anything against you." He said in a brotherly manner.
"Yeah I know. Nothings wrong." I said shaking my head but i knew he knew the truth.
"Okay then Kagome. I'll see you soon." He said going back into the hut.
I sighed as I walked to the well. For some reason the tears had stopped. No thoughts came to mind. My mind was blank. I don't even remember making it back to my room. I woke up the next morning. I actually didn't have school that day. My class had went on a field trip to Okinawa. So I stayed in bed. My mom and grandpa weren't home I guess. Then I remembered. My family had gone to a family reunion. I was all alone.
I sighed. This wasn't what I wanted. I did wish for something different but...This kind of different wasn't the kind I wanted. I know it is selfish as I have said before but... I don't know. I thought I was confused before but this made me even more before. I thought I could handle my feelings but after last night I found out I couldn't. Everything was so overwhelming.
Last night...he knew I was there and yet he still continued. His eyes were hollow and his smirk was evil. He wanted me to see them together. I think he was actually happy about it too. What a cruel and sick joke. My heart wrencehed and tears once again formed. They fell down my cheeks like waterfalls and I made no move to wipe them away. The tears calmed me. I put my knees to my head and cried.
I don't know how long it was but I heard a knock at my front door. I didn't even clean up my face. It must have been a solicitor or something and I didn't care what they thoguht of me. I opened the door and there was InuYasha. I backed away from the door. Why was he here? Then I remembered. This wasn't past InuYasha. This was the InuYasha from my time. I could tell from his blue jeans and opened button down shirt with a wife-beater underneath.
"I knew you would come back. I didn't expect you to still be crying." He said approaching me with a softness to his tone. "You mean you knew? You knew and you didn't tell me?!" I said backing away even more.
"No I didn't tell you. Myouga told me if I told you the whole past would change. I would disappear and so would everyone elsefrom the past in this era with me. All I could do was tell you how bad it would be so it wouldn't hurt so much." He said still approaching and hugging me.
"Then why doesnit still hurt so much. My can't these tears stop falling?" I said as sobs racked my form.
"I know Kagome. I know." He said rubbing my back.
I didn't say anything and he just held me. Rubbing my back and holding close. He then picked me up bridal style and carried me back to my room. He put me down gently on the bed. took off his shoes, and got in bed with me. I closed my eyes and put my arms around his waist.
"When did you become so gentle?" I said not actually expecting an answer.
"I became this way when I lost you and found out how life is so lonely without you." He said snuggling against me and placed his chin on my head.
"I will never leave you, InuYasha. I promise." I said hugging him closer.
"I wish that promise came true." He said absentmindedly.
"You really have changed InuYasha and it has all been for the better." I said sighing.
"You won't feel that way very soon Kagome. Very soon your very image of me will be changed." He said shaking his head.
"You mean there is more. What is it? Is it worse?" I said in a worried tone.
"I can't tell you anything Kagome but it is much much worse." InuYasha said with a sigh.
"I'm scared InuYasha. I don't want to hurt anymore." My voice was light.
"I know Kagome. I don't want you to hurt anymore either but I can't help you with that. All I can do is hold you and comfort you the best I can." He said in longing.
"I know that InuYasha and it is the best thing I could ask for." I said wanting him to feel better. A/N: I just wanted to get this chapter out before I lost the momentum to do it. I start b-ball practice again soon so this might be my last chance. I gotta hurry though. I'm afraid my mom's gonna come in any second and find me on the comp. I'm
I stayed in his embrace wondering what in the future will have me hurt so much. Nothing came to mind. I just reveled in his embrace until my eyes slowly closed. Even when my head was full of puzzlement and worry his embrace loosened my worries and made me feel safe. When I woke up I was in my bed. InuYasha sat next to me on my chair. He looked peaceful with his shirt sleeves rolled up and black hair loosely tied back. He sat backwards on the chair with his arms resting at the top of the chair with his head gently cradled in his arms.
I sat up and put my knees to my chest, "What time is it?" I said with a slight yawn.
"It's almost 5:30. I think I should be leaving now though. I just wanted to make sure you didn't think I'd leave you all alone right after you fell asleep." He said smiling gently.
"You know what InuYasha, you've changed." I said my eyes taking in his new form.
"Is that a good or bad thing exactly?" InuYasha said.
"It's really good. You seem older. You act so mature." I said smiling at him.
"Good, that's exactly what I was hoping you would say." He said as he got up.
I got up too. I walked him to the door.
"Thanks InuYasha. Thank you for giving me the reassurance I need. I won't be back for a couple of days though. I'm afraid past InuYasha is irked at me for leaving so soon after returning." I said with a frown.
"Oh, well then when you come back give me a call and I'll be here 20x faster than the speed limit allows." InuYasha said with a wink as he walked to his car.
I closed the door. I sighed. Even if it was too late I should really go back to the Feudal Era. I still felt a sting of pain every time I thought of how I hurt InuYasha. It wasn't right for me to do that. I needed to apologize to him. Sometimes even the truth can't be said for it hurts far more than lies. I don't know where I heard that but it sounded oddly poetic.
I took a quick shower. My bag, in my rush to come and question InuYasha so I quickly jumped into the well. I ran for the village just as everyone began to eat.
"Welcome back Kagome. Have you eaten yet?" Kaede asked holding a bowl of stew for me.
"No I haven't eaten yet. Thank you." I said as I took a breath and noticed InuYasha absent.
"He isn't here, Kagome. He left soon after you left. Quite in a rush actually." Miroku said noticing my wandering eyes.
I nodded in understanding. So I did hurt him. Badly if he hadn't returned since I left. I knew he would have to know what he did with Kikyo wasn't a secret. He should have known that already. I guess me telling him wounded his pride as a man with slyness or something like that.
I sighed. I guess I just had to wait for him to come back. I would apologize then. I wouldn't go out looking for him. He needed his space and I was going to give it to him. Although I felt fairly odd during my whole wait for him. It was about 9 when I decided to go look for him. Everyone else was asleep but a restless wonder filled me. I couldn't sleep. InuYasha wasn't back yet and my restlessness would help my search for him.
I put on a light coat and walked out of Kaede's hut. I walked into the forest and looked around. Glimmers blue light were seen from one part of the forest. I wondered what it was. I knew it wasn't InuYasha but yet it intrigued me and pulled me towards it. I walked towards the light. Maneuvering around the trees and branches was no problem. When I got into the clearing however the sight shocked me.
I must have been wrong in my assumption that it wasn't InuYasha. It was. I just stood there in awe. He was with Kikyo. That wasn't the surprise though. It was what they were doing that surprised me. InuYasha was...he was having sex with her. My eyes went big. I was paralyzed. Tears began to form at my eyes. It hurt. It hurt me so much to see this.
InuYasha turned and saw me. His eyes looked so hollow. He looked right into my eyes and smirked. He continued knowing I was there. Tears were now freely flowing down my face. He knew I was there and yet he still continued doing it to that corpse. Was this some kind of sick revenge?
I finally got the strength to leave and ran as fast as I could run. Tears blurred my eyes as branches smacked against my body. I came out of the forest. My breath was labored and my body bruised and scratched. I started running again until I reached the hut. I slipped inside still sniffling. I dropped down next to Miroku.
I shook him, "Miroku wake up." I said hiccuping.
Me moaned a little, "Kagome, what is it?"
"Can I talk to you outside? I don't want to wake everyone up if I haven't already." I said sniffling.
"Yeah sure." He said getting up sensing my uneasy words.
"Miroku I'm going back to my time for a while. Can you tell everyone that?" I said hiccuping once again.
"Have you been crying, Kagome? Has something happened?" Miroku said in a worried tone.
"No, nothing has happened. I just need to go home because I forgot um... that I have to take a really important test tomorrow." I said not wanting Miroku worrying about me.
"You know you can tell me anything. I won't hold anything against you." He said in a brotherly manner.
"Yeah I know. Nothings wrong." I said shaking my head but i knew he knew the truth.
"Okay then Kagome. I'll see you soon." He said going back into the hut.
I sighed as I walked to the well. For some reason the tears had stopped. No thoughts came to mind. My mind was blank. I don't even remember making it back to my room. I woke up the next morning. I actually didn't have school that day. My class had went on a field trip to Okinawa. So I stayed in bed. My mom and grandpa weren't home I guess. Then I remembered. My family had gone to a family reunion. I was all alone.
I sighed. This wasn't what I wanted. I did wish for something different but...This kind of different wasn't the kind I wanted. I know it is selfish as I have said before but... I don't know. I thought I was confused before but this made me even more before. I thought I could handle my feelings but after last night I found out I couldn't. Everything was so overwhelming.
Last night...he knew I was there and yet he still continued. His eyes were hollow and his smirk was evil. He wanted me to see them together. I think he was actually happy about it too. What a cruel and sick joke. My heart wrencehed and tears once again formed. They fell down my cheeks like waterfalls and I made no move to wipe them away. The tears calmed me. I put my knees to my head and cried.
I don't know how long it was but I heard a knock at my front door. I didn't even clean up my face. It must have been a solicitor or something and I didn't care what they thoguht of me. I opened the door and there was InuYasha. I backed away from the door. Why was he here? Then I remembered. This wasn't past InuYasha. This was the InuYasha from my time. I could tell from his blue jeans and opened button down shirt with a wife-beater underneath.
"I knew you would come back. I didn't expect you to still be crying." He said approaching me with a softness to his tone. "You mean you knew? You knew and you didn't tell me?!" I said backing away even more.
"No I didn't tell you. Myouga told me if I told you the whole past would change. I would disappear and so would everyone elsefrom the past in this era with me. All I could do was tell you how bad it would be so it wouldn't hurt so much." He said still approaching and hugging me.
"Then why doesnit still hurt so much. My can't these tears stop falling?" I said as sobs racked my form.
"I know Kagome. I know." He said rubbing my back.
I didn't say anything and he just held me. Rubbing my back and holding close. He then picked me up bridal style and carried me back to my room. He put me down gently on the bed. took off his shoes, and got in bed with me. I closed my eyes and put my arms around his waist.
"When did you become so gentle?" I said not actually expecting an answer.
"I became this way when I lost you and found out how life is so lonely without you." He said snuggling against me and placed his chin on my head.
"I will never leave you, InuYasha. I promise." I said hugging him closer.
"I wish that promise came true." He said absentmindedly.
"You really have changed InuYasha and it has all been for the better." I said sighing.
"You won't feel that way very soon Kagome. Very soon your very image of me will be changed." He said shaking his head.
"You mean there is more. What is it? Is it worse?" I said in a worried tone.
"I can't tell you anything Kagome but it is much much worse." InuYasha said with a sigh.
"I'm scared InuYasha. I don't want to hurt anymore." My voice was light.
"I know Kagome. I don't want you to hurt anymore either but I can't help you with that. All I can do is hold you and comfort you the best I can." He said in longing.
"I know that InuYasha and it is the best thing I could ask for." I said wanting him to feel better. A/N: I just wanted to get this chapter out before I lost the momentum to do it. I start b-ball practice again soon so this might be my last chance. I gotta hurry though. I'm afraid my mom's gonna come in any second and find me on the comp. I'm
