Hello all! I'm really happy from all the reviews that I got and THANK YOU SOO MUCH!!! You guys are so great! Well…I really don't have much to say, cuz well I really wanna get to the story.

Oh and to Ying Hua, just to answer your question, Syaoran is happy that he gets to see his cousin that he hasn't seen in a long while, which makes him forget about Sakura going out with him for awhile. But then he recognizes it later on.

And Mei-Fong, DANG…must of took you awhile to write that…lol.

To Ann, I was thinking about adding Meilin…but I don't know. Maybe. ~_^

To Sakurabunnie, aww…don't cry. I'm sorry! Don't hurt Sakura too much, I need her for my story! Lol…

Tsuki, I really don't think I'm amazing but hey thanks a lot! *hands her a tissue *

These were just some reviews that caught my eye and that I just had to answer them. I would've done everybody again…but I was too wowed by the many reviews I got! Even if your name is not there…I STILL LOVE YOU!! Oh my gosh…THANKS A WHOLE LOT! I love you guys! On to the story!

Oh yes…I'm sorry…but I bring you more angst…Don't hurt me!

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In Syaoran's Room…

Syaoran laid his head on his pillow and sighed.

Smiling Sadly. Whatever made me come up with that name. Oh…Nevermind I know why.

Sakura's loving someone else, while they're loving her back.

But where do I fit into all of this?

I should belong somewhere in this category.

Cause well… I'm loving Sakura too.

^^Chapter Eight^^

::I Shall Shed No Tears::

Silent.

It's quiet.

I feel lonely.

Those are three words that mean a whole lot. Yeah, there are lots more words that are just as strong as those 3 words 'I love you'. Like there's 'I hate you'. 

But 'I feel lonely'. Well, that's way strong. Don't you think?

I am lonely.

Syaoran walked into the building to head straight to his desk. Once he got seated…he went to how it used to be, before he met Sakura.

He sat there staring at the wall in front of him. What a sight.

-Tip Tap-

There he goes again. Tapping his pencil along the desk. Staring at the blank wall in front of him. Doesn't this seem familiar? Only thing wrong is…well Eriol's not at work. He's taking the day off with Tomoyo.

Sakura's deadline is coming up. The deadline on her to decide on if she's staying with Xie Ling or going on to find a new person.

Syaoran guessed she would be staying, with him, I mean. Syaoran really had no clue what he was doing at work, if Sakura is not even over with.

"Xiao Lang?"

Syaoran looked up to whom called on him. His bored face quickly blew away and a terrified face came upon it.

"Oh my lord."

"Hey Cuz!"

A girl about Sakura's height, with long black hair and piercing ruby eyes, appeared in front of him. Instead of her 2 buns, all her hair was left down. A smile remained on her face and she seemed to be holding hands of 2 little boys. Behind her was a tall young man, just about as old as she is, who was holding her shoulders. This guy looked almost like Syaoran himself, but his hair wasn't as messy and he had dark brown eyes.

Syaoran looked at the two young boys, who were almost identical. Both had messy hair just like Syaoran's. One of them had inherited her ruby eyes. And the other had the guy's eyes. Their messy hair was blackish brownish kind of color, but both had a stern face.

"Me-Mei-..Meilin!"

"Well, I'm glad you recognize me." She said sarcastically. She looked up at the guy behind her and smiled. 

"Xiao Lang, this is my husband, Jun Fu. Jun, sweetie, this is my cousin, Xiao Lang, Syaoran in Japanese." Meilin said introducing them. Syaoran quickly stood up from his desk and stood in front of them.

Jun stepped out from behind Meilin and fronted Syaoran. He bowed politely and smiled.

"It is exciting to know that my cousin-in-law is the future leader of the Li Clan." He said. What is up with this Future Leader of Li Clan thingy? Geez, it's not that big, is it?

Syaoran bowed back in respect.

"Well I thank you very much. It's really nice to meet you." Syaoran said grinning. Never would ever think that Meilin would get over me. I still don't think she did. This dude looks almost exactly like me.

Syaoran looked behind Jun, to look at the two young boys. 

"And who are these young boys here?" Syaoran asked stepping near Meilin.

"This is young Xiao." Meilin said pointing to the one with ruby eyes. 

"And this is young Li." Pointing to the other boy. 

Syaoran raised an eyebrow. That was almost his name. 

"You named one of your son's our last name?" He asked. 

"Well Syaoran, if you recognized that I am married, I do not have our last name anymore." Meilin said laughing. Syaoran sweatdropped and then looked at the two boys.

"Well it's nice to meet you two." The two boys looked up at him and stared. No emotion was written on their faces. Eh…they remind me of…me. Syaoran thought. 

"Uh, well yeah. So Meilin, what brings you here?" Syaoran ask looking back up at her. 

"What now, I can't even visit my own cousin?" Meilin shot back. 

"No, I didn't say that. I was just thinking that maybe you had something to tell me or…" Syaoran said almost a little scared. Making Meilin mad was not good. 

"Well I came to visit my favorite cousin."

"Oh."

"Where is he?" Meilin asked. Syaoran looked at her weirdly.

"What?"

"I said, where is he? My favorite cousin. You know, Xie Ling?" Syaoran face faulted. 

"You knew he was here?" Meilin frowned a bit, but then smiled.

"Well yeah. And Geez Xiao Lang, you know you're my favorite cousin!"

"Um…Yeah." 

"Well anyways, I did come here to visit, but to also give some news." Meilin motioned Syaoran to follow her as the walk away from her two sons and husband. 

"Well, what is it?" Syaoran asked looking at her worried.

"It's about Xie Ling. Xiao Lang, Xie Ling is back in the Li name."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean that, Xie Ling, married one of our cousins, to get back in the Li Clan."

"HE'S MARRIED?!?" 

"Well yes Xiao Lang, that's what I said. What is wrong with him being married?" Meilin asked while putting a hand on her hip. 

 Syaoran mumbled under his breath for a moment and then went back to Meilin.

"It's nothing. Go on." 

"Well, as I was saying. Xie Ling got married to be into our family Clan. And he only got married to try to be the leader of the clan. To get you out of the spot…"

"But I…I'm already…I…" 

"Yes, I know. It is legal for him to do that. The Elders allowed it. But the only way you can officially be titled 'The Future Leader of the Li Clan', is if you have someone to be wed. I know it's a stupid rule, and that they've never told you that before, but they thought it was not important. Until Xie Ling brought it up himself. Xie Ling right now is able to run for the Leader of the Li Clan."

Syaoran took a moment to swallow it all up. Really, what he was thinking about was the fact that Xie Ling is married and is going out with Sakura. That pissed him off. But then adding on to this, Xie Ling was just using Sakura. It didn't take a scientist to realize he was using her. Xie Ling started dating Sakura to get the thought of Syaoran not ever having a chance to be with Sakura.

But Syaoran didn't know how Xie Ling knew that Syaoran loved Sakura. So many questions ran through his head, it was giving him a headache. He zoomed out of present time lost in the confusion, anger and sadness that took over every nerve in his body. Unable to move, he was left speechless and staring straight at the ground. 

Why is everything happening now? Why…? 

"Xiao Lang…" 

I don't understand. Why does it have to happen now? Why does it have to happen ever?

"Xiao Lang!"

Syaoran looked up at Meilin, eyes filled with fear. Meilin happened to catch it and suddenly grabbed hold on to his shoulders.

"Xiao Lang? What's wrong? Are you okay?" Syaoran looked down for a few seconds, then brought his head back up to look at Meilin. This time his eyes filled with anger. 

Frightened from the look, Meilin released her grip on him and backed up a bit. 

"Xiao Lang?" 

Syaoran took a few steps back and swung his arm around. A cold stern look was planted on his face as he made his way out of the building. 

"That bastard is going to get it." 

Meilin quickly followed behind him. She waved her hand to Jun Fu, to go get the kids and follow her. 

"What's wrong, Xiao Lang?" 

"It's nothing." He murmured.

"Well something has to be wrong if you're acting like this. What did Xie Ling do?" 

"He's using Sakura." Syaoran said making his way out of the building. He reached his hand into his pocket and pulled out his keys. He beeped the car to unlock and walked swiftly over to it. 

"Who is Sakura? What is he using her for?" Meilin asked trying to keep up with him.

"He's going out with Sakura. Sakura is a friend of mine." 

"WAIT! But Xie Ling is married. And this Sakura…Sakura girl sounds more than just a friend to you." Syaoran's cheeks burned, but he hid it from Meilin. 

As soon as Syaoran was in front of his car, Meilin stopped him and made him turn to look at her. After pondering for a minute, she finally understood. 

"Are you trying to tell me that, Xie Ling is supposedly using Sakura so you won't be able to get married, because you're in love with Sakura and you wouldn't just use anybody to marry unless you love them, so Xie Ling some how found out you love Sakura, so now he's using her to get you out of the running for the Future Leader of the Li Clan?" 

Syaoran stared at her for awhile. Then he nodded.

"Yes Meilin, that's exactly it." He said while opening the door to his car and jumping in. He shut the door and rolled the window down. 

"Bye bye! Tell your husband that it was nice meeting him and your two kids too. Bye cuz!" 

He drove off quickly, leaving Meilin standing there in the parking spot. Jun Fu arrived behind her holding both sons on each arms.

"What happened?" Meilin turned around and sighed.

"My cousin's in love, and my other cousin's trying to ruin it." 

"Oh." 

::*::

Sakura sat outside of Syaoran's building, thinking to herself. Xie Ling was at work, so she thought she'd visit Syaoran and hang out with him that day. 

"I wonder where he is…" As if on cue Syaoran comes around tossing his keys up and down, trying to get his mind calm. But as soon as he sees Sakura, everything started to build up again. 

Sakura looked up and her eyes danced in happiness when she saw him. She jumped up immediately. 

"Syaoran!" 

"Sakura, um, what are you doing here?" he asked, standing his distance. Sakura stepped forward and smiled.

"I was waiting for you. I wanted to spend the day together." Syaoran froze in his spot. Should I tell her about Xie Ling? Wait, she probably won't believe me. But…

"Syaoran?" 

"Huh? Oh, um yeah. Okay." I really think I should tell her. This is important. But then, that might have to mean, I'm going to have to tell her I love her, to know if she loves me back, so we can get married. But what if she doesn't love me? But she still deserves to know. 

"I'll tell her." He said aloud. Sakura looked at him weirdly.

"What? Tell who? Tell them what?" Syaoran looked at her and gazed.

"What?" he asked.

"You said, 'I'll tell her.' Tell her what? Who's 'her'?" 

"What are you talking about? I didn't say anything." Syaoran said, having no clue he said that out loud. 

"Yes you did."

"I did?" 

"Yes, you did." Sakura said taking his arm. She started pulling him towards his apartment. 

"Come on, you have to spend the day with me!" 

"Um…alright." 

::*::

"Um, so what do you want to do?" Syaoran asked sitting down on the couch. 

"Let's talk." 

"Okay."

"Well…talk." Syaoran looked down and sighed. Not yet.

"About?" Sakura shrugged and looked down. Silence took over. 

"Sakura?"

"Hmmm…?" her head tilted up to look at him, although Syaoran was still looking down. When his head came up, his eyes were full of fear. Sakura saw it and reached over to him, but he pulled back. 

"I really don't want to tell you this, but you need to know." He took a deep breathe in before speaking again.

"Do you love Xie Ling?" 

"Well, I um…" Sakura looked around, trying to not keep eye contact with him.

"Do you?" 

"I don't know. I like him a whole lot."

"Well, he…Xie Ling got back into my family name. Since he was already part of the Li name before, he gets to regain that last name." 

"What? Slow down."

"Sakura, my cousin got married." Syaoran stood up and walked away a bit. 

"That's not possible."

"Sakura…" Sakura stood up and walked straight up to Syaoran.

"Xie Ling would never do anything like that. And as matter of fact I do love him."

"Sakura…"

"No! I wouldn't believe you would reach that low, Syaoran. I'm sorry if I wasn't paying much attention to you, but it's not my fault, that I've found someone and you're still single." 

Syaoran gasped and backed away from her. Geez, that's harsh. I wasn't expecting this. 

"Well, if it wasn't for me…YOU wouldn't be over Akihiro and be protected from him. And YOU wouldn't have gotten a bastard like Xie Ling. YOU should be thanking me! And right now I'm trying to help YOU to recognize what a self centered jerk Xie Ling is!"

"I can't believe you." Sakura said, taking her stuff, and leaving at once. 

"Sakur-!" Syaoran sighed and sat back down on his couch. I knew she wouldn't take it so good. How bad is this going to get? 


::*::

 Tomoyo saw Sakura storm out of the apartment building. She was going to pick up a few things from Eriol and Syaoran's apartment. 

"Sakura!" Tomoyo yelled while trying to catch up with her. Sakura turned around while looking down. Tomoyo reached her right when Sakura looked up. Tears streaked her cheeks.

"Sakura, what happened?" Tomoyo asked while taking her to the nearest bench. 

"Syaoran…" Sakura wiped the tears away from her eyes.

"He told me that Xie Ling was married already. Something about getting back into the family name."

Tomoyo looked up at the apartment building. Syaoran…why would he say something like that?

"I can't believe he would reach that low." Sakura said as the tears decided to fall. 

Tomoyo sat there for awhile thinking about it. She sat there thinking of a solution to this. To find out the truth.

"I can't believe he would actually lie. It's not my fault that he has no one and I do." 

"Sakura, have you ever thought, that he was telling you the truth?"

"Yes Tomoyo, the whole reason on why I'm crying!" 

"Just think about it. If you can't believe Syaoran would ever lie, why do you?" Tomoyo reached over to wipe her tears away.

"Why don't we find out the truth?" Sakura looked up at her. 

"From who?"

"From the only who would tell the truth. And you know deep down inside that the only person who would tell, lives up there." Tomoyo said pointing at the apartment where Syaoran and Eriol live. 

Sakura looked up at where she was pointing and then nodded. 

::*::

Syaoran sat at his kitchen table, lying down his head. He felt miserable. 

I want to go home…I want to hurt Xie Ling….I want…want…Sakura back. 

-Ding Dong-

Bad timing whoever it is…

Syaoran got up and ruffled his hair a bit. Then he answered the door. He opened the door to see Tomoyo standing there. 

"Oh hey Tomoyo, where's Eriol?" Tomoyo smiled.

"He went to stop by work and stuff." 

"Oh…come in!" he said opening the door wider. Tomoyo stepped in, followed by Sakura. 

"Sakura!" Syaoran stepped back a bit. Tomoyo closed the door and looked at Syaoran.

"Syaoran, we want to know the truth." Syaoran looked at Tomoyo then back to Sakura. He sighed, then walked to the couch, where they both followed. 

"Well…like I said, Xie Ling did get married, to one of my cousins. Just to get back in the family name. He can get back in the family name by marrying one of our family members, only because he was once apart of our family." Syaoran knew that he had to be very cautious because he knew that it hurt Sakura with every word he spoke.

"He wanted to get back in the family name to run for the Leader of the Li Clan. To be against me. There was a rule that, the future leader was to be wed before he became leader or right after he became leader. Supporting is a big thing in our family, and they needed to make sure that we had someone to support the leader." 

Syaoran stopped for a bit because this was the part where he was going to have to tell her…

"And how do I fit into this?" Sakura asked, on the break of crying again. Syaoran sighed big.

"Xie Ling, some how found something out. To stop me from being wed."

"He found out, Sakura, that…I…I…I love you." Sakura froze. Syaoran looked down and held strong. I shall shed no tears. 

Silence covered all of the apartment. Tomoyo sat there shocked, but Sakura's heart jumped to a happy beat. But she didn't understand. 

Syaoran couldn't take it anymore so he got up and walked to his room. She didn't say anything back to him, so he thought it meant something. 

Sakura saw him leave, and she felt pain. No time to think of Xie Ling, she ran up to him. 

"Syaoran…."

Syaoran turned around to look at her. He didn't want to keep eye contact with her 'cause it would hurt, so he looked down. 

Soon enough he felt arms being wrapped around himself. 

"Thank You." 



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eh…that's the end of this chapter! IM SO SORRY I TOOK SO LONG!! SCHOOL WAS A CRACKHEAD!! BUT SCHOOLS OUT SO ITS OKAY! I'll get my chapters up a lot easier now that school's over…so forgive me please. I'll try to put more chapters up as soon as I can. REVIEW!!! LOVE YA ALL!!

~LiLDraGoNGuRL28…aka May