LOVE OF THE MOON
BY XANTHAE
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DISCLAIMER - CCS is not mine and it never will be.
AN: Chapter four is here! Thank you for all those who reviewed! Thank You! Thank You! This chapter is a bit sappy and waffy. This chapter is a bit longer than the others. I hope you enjoy it.
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CHAPTER FOUR - CONFESSIONS OF THE HEART
Through the eyes of his false form, Yue could see the beautiful white wingless angel walking down the isle. Beautiful couldn't describe her. Her golden brown hair cascaded down to her waist like soft gentle waves. They glittered like the stars under the soft light of the room. A small crown adorned with white roses decorated her head. The gown that she wore hugged her perfect figure revealing her appealing curves enhancing her beauty.
He couldn't help it but stare at her. Yue wanted to reach out to her, to hold her in his arms. He wanted to feel her silken hands against his own. He wanted to catch her scent again. He wanted to be with her so much yet she was out of his reach. She was not meant to her his. She belonged to someone else.
He was meant to be alone like the solitary moon in the night sky always watching over the world but couldn't join in. Like the moon, he can only watch never join. He can only come out in darkness and leave before dawn. He wondered if he truly meant to be alone. How he wish now that he never awaken from the book that his former master sealed him in. If he never awakened, he would never feel so broken right now. He would never be hurt a second time.
In the dark sub-consciousness of his false form, a trickle of a tear fell from his eyes, down his cheeks to the invisible floor. Yue reached to touch where his tears came from. More tears flow down as his heart was crumbling within. He stared out once more and his eyes locked onto his mistress. Through the thin white veil, he could see her emerald eyes staring at her. Her beautiful emerald eyes that held so much love for those around her. Eyes that he could drown in. Eyes that was always soft to him and brought smile to his lips whenever he saw them. He was going to lose it to the descendant of Clow!
He couldn't bear it. He wanted to come out and run to her. However, he knew he couldn't. As tears stream down, he closed his eyes. His hands tighten in a fist. His body trembling. His heart racing with fear of those words that she would say to someone other than to him. He keep himself from exploding out and calling for him, he curled himself in a ball tightly fighting the pain of his heart. All he could think about were the happy times that they were together. Telling himself that she loved him like a friend but never real love. Telling himself that they were just friends and nothing more...
Nothing more than just friends...
Nothing more...
Yet that was hurting him more and more. Tears won't stop.
"NO!"
Yue's head jerked up. His eyes connected to those of his false form. He could see her. Her cry, her yanking her arms from her father's arms, her running away. Tears. He could see her tears flowing. The clutch of his locket around her neck.
Yue's eyes widen. His locket! She ran holding his locket in her hand. Does that mean she carried for him. His heart raced. He needed to know. He needed out. He needed to see her. He has to talk to her, ask her. He has too now.
From behind him came a flash of bright white light. Blinding him. He had to cover his eyes with his arms.
Touya was completely stunned by his sister's action. He stared at her as she ran clutching a locket around her neck. He wanted to go after her and was about to when there was a blinding light by the alter. He stared and his eyes widen. It was coming from Yukito. He froze and watched what happened.
Yukito glowed with white light, blinding white light. Everyone had to shield their eyes with their arms. However, he remained frozen and his eyes locked on Yukito. Yukito's body shimmer with light before white wings sprout forth from his back. His body seemed to stretch into something unrecognizable. From that something separated from Yukito's shimmering form. Two shimmering bodies took shaped. One with wings and the other without.
Touya's eyes went wider. The other figure was no other than Yukito's true form, Yue. Yue is separated from his false form. As he stared, Yukito collapsed to the ground. Touya immediate reaction to was run to his fallen friend. The light has faded away yet.
Gathering Yukito in his arms, he looked at the winged angel. He could see the complete shock on the angel's face when his face was upon his false form now separated from him. Yue stared at himself then at his false form. Touya then noted something. There were tears in the angel's eyes. One question came to mind, why?
Yue looked up at the door. "Sakura..." his voice filled with longing and need. Touya's eyes somehow softened. He felt he understood the angel. The angel was properly in love with his sister or something like that.
Yue then took off after his sister. He was left holding to Yukito in his arms. The light faded away and chaos insued.
Sakura ran like there was no tomorrow. Her vision blurred with tears. The pain in her heart hurt her more than she could bear. She ran blindly until she couldn't anymore. She fell to her knees panting as tears fell unrestraint.
How could she do this to Yue? How can she leave him alone like this? Doesn't he deserve to be loved? He was always there when she needed him. He was there to give her advice and ears. He doesn't treat her like a child. He always protected her. Yet has she done for him? All she has done was support his existence and use his powers in combat. All she ever does was use him and never once did he complain.
She closed her eyes and wept. As she wept, her own heart and mind unconsciously reached out to the Moon Guardian. Once she touched his aura her eyes snapped open wide. She froze. She turned around quickly.
The angel landed. Her heart raced. Did he really felt that way? Did he really love her?
Yue found her. She had run all the way to Yukito's house. She was on her knees and she was weeping. He landed behind her but it seem that she had sense her coming. She turned to him with wide eyes, eyes brimming with tears.
Yue looked at Sakura and saw something in her emerald eyes. Her eyes soften and emotions seem to fill her eyes. Tentatively he stepped forward. "Sakura..." he stopped. He didn't know what to say to her. How can he explain to her? How do he approach her?
However, it seem that he didn't have to. She ran to him hugging tightly to him. Her body molded against him perfectly. Her warmth flowed from her body to his. Her scent filled his senses. He could do nothing but hold her. "Yue..." she whispered brokenly. "Yue... I'm sorry."
His eyes widen. Why was she apologizing to him? "Sakura? What is wrong? Why did you run away from your wedding?" he asked trying to sound neutral but failed miserably.
Sakura loosen her grip on him and nestled her head against his chest. She didn't look at him. "You love me don't you?" she asked softly.
His eyes widen. Though she wasn't looking at him, he turned his head away. He remained silent. Did he love her? Better yet, does he deserve her love? He has done nothing worthy of her love. In this world, from what he learned from his false form, love meant being able to give something back to the one you loved.
What has he given her? What has he given her worthy of her love? Nothing! Loving her meant being there for her physically and mentally being there for her not his false form. His false form and him are two different hearts.
Loving her meant providing her. He never lived with humans before. All the human contact was restricted to his mistress, her best friend, her brother and his false form. He never experience living like a human before. What can he do to provide for her in this world?
"Yue... I can feel it in your heart... You love me. I can feel it between us," she said softly rising her head to look at him.
He looked down to his side. He let his hair hide his face. Tears were threatening to over flow. "You should've married him," he said coldly.
"Yue!" Sakura brushed his hair away.
He closed his eyes and his body trembled. He didn't want to breakdown in front of her. "He should've married him," he paused for a moment to collect his voice and control. "You should've married him. He loved you... He loved you more than I can. He will there for you when I cannot. He can provide where I can't. He can love you more than I can," he said was closed his eyes tighter. Yet tears managed to escape from them.
They escaped, flowing down his cheeks. He tried to hide them behind his hair and his hands. However, the tears refuse to remain hidden. He was unable to stop, unable to stop them from flowing.
Sakura's eyes soften as she watched the moon guardian trying to hide his tears, trying to stop them. He was failing miserably. Broken to see her like this, she took him into her arms, holding his trembling body as the tears kept on flowing.
Once Yue's seem to have subsided Sakura lifted his head up so that they face each other. Tears still linger in Yue's eyes. She gave him a soft smile as she wiped his tears away from his eyes. He just stared at her with longing in his eyes. She cupped his cheeks and she leaned forward.
She closed her eyes as their lips touched. His lips parted for her as hers pressed against his. She could taste him. His lips were of vanilla, soft and warm. He returned her kiss. Their kiss became more passionate with each other longing for each other.
Her arms wrapped around his neck as his arms held onto her waist and back. Their bodies pressed against each other. He felt so warm against her body. This felt so right to her. There were no regrets at all.
Sakura stopped the kiss when she felt hot tears falling down her cheeks. They were not her tears. Her eyes opened, she saw that Yue open his eyes and stare at her. Tears just streamed down. It was that instance that she knew, he truly felt for her.
"Yue..." she wanted to tell her what was in her heart. However, Yue silenced her with a soft touch of his finger upon her lips.
At first she waited for him to speak but instead he look down with a sad expression. His eyes were soft brimming with more tears. But then, he turned to her. "I love you. I have always loved you ever since I first saw you. But you were just a child. I shook it off believing it was nothing. You loved Yukito like a father; maybe what I felt was the same. I cared only because Yukito cared for you. But as time went by, the feeling grew and grew.
"With every battle we fought, with all the time we spent together, that feeling never died down. I tried to push it away but the feeling got stronger and stronger until I can no longer deny it any further. Yet I couldn't tell you.
"I tried so hard to live with this feeling but it continues to eat at my heart. Every time I see you, my heart aches with longing. All I wanted was you and only you. Yet you didn't love me. You loved him. I wanted to take you from him yet I didn't. I didn't want you to hate me. I just what you to be happy..." Yue said turning away from him. He let his hair hide his face again.
"Yue..." Sakura was moved by his words. His words touched her heart more than anything. She felt so happy to hear them. She closed her eyes. She reached into her own heart. What did she feel?
She felt something she never did before. Something special, something wonderful. She brush is hair away. She looked at him lovingly. "I love you too," she said softly to him.
His eyes widen before they soften. He returned the smile with love in his eyes.
AN: Longer than my other chapters so far. I was thinking about ending it here but I think I'll continue on. Anyways, for those who review this story and you know who you are: Thank You! Thank You! Thank You! Please continue to review! I appreciate your thoughts on the story so far.
BY XANTHAE
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DISCLAIMER - CCS is not mine and it never will be.
AN: Chapter four is here! Thank you for all those who reviewed! Thank You! Thank You! This chapter is a bit sappy and waffy. This chapter is a bit longer than the others. I hope you enjoy it.
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CHAPTER FOUR - CONFESSIONS OF THE HEART
Through the eyes of his false form, Yue could see the beautiful white wingless angel walking down the isle. Beautiful couldn't describe her. Her golden brown hair cascaded down to her waist like soft gentle waves. They glittered like the stars under the soft light of the room. A small crown adorned with white roses decorated her head. The gown that she wore hugged her perfect figure revealing her appealing curves enhancing her beauty.
He couldn't help it but stare at her. Yue wanted to reach out to her, to hold her in his arms. He wanted to feel her silken hands against his own. He wanted to catch her scent again. He wanted to be with her so much yet she was out of his reach. She was not meant to her his. She belonged to someone else.
He was meant to be alone like the solitary moon in the night sky always watching over the world but couldn't join in. Like the moon, he can only watch never join. He can only come out in darkness and leave before dawn. He wondered if he truly meant to be alone. How he wish now that he never awaken from the book that his former master sealed him in. If he never awakened, he would never feel so broken right now. He would never be hurt a second time.
In the dark sub-consciousness of his false form, a trickle of a tear fell from his eyes, down his cheeks to the invisible floor. Yue reached to touch where his tears came from. More tears flow down as his heart was crumbling within. He stared out once more and his eyes locked onto his mistress. Through the thin white veil, he could see her emerald eyes staring at her. Her beautiful emerald eyes that held so much love for those around her. Eyes that he could drown in. Eyes that was always soft to him and brought smile to his lips whenever he saw them. He was going to lose it to the descendant of Clow!
He couldn't bear it. He wanted to come out and run to her. However, he knew he couldn't. As tears stream down, he closed his eyes. His hands tighten in a fist. His body trembling. His heart racing with fear of those words that she would say to someone other than to him. He keep himself from exploding out and calling for him, he curled himself in a ball tightly fighting the pain of his heart. All he could think about were the happy times that they were together. Telling himself that she loved him like a friend but never real love. Telling himself that they were just friends and nothing more...
Nothing more than just friends...
Nothing more...
Yet that was hurting him more and more. Tears won't stop.
"NO!"
Yue's head jerked up. His eyes connected to those of his false form. He could see her. Her cry, her yanking her arms from her father's arms, her running away. Tears. He could see her tears flowing. The clutch of his locket around her neck.
Yue's eyes widen. His locket! She ran holding his locket in her hand. Does that mean she carried for him. His heart raced. He needed to know. He needed out. He needed to see her. He has to talk to her, ask her. He has too now.
From behind him came a flash of bright white light. Blinding him. He had to cover his eyes with his arms.
Touya was completely stunned by his sister's action. He stared at her as she ran clutching a locket around her neck. He wanted to go after her and was about to when there was a blinding light by the alter. He stared and his eyes widen. It was coming from Yukito. He froze and watched what happened.
Yukito glowed with white light, blinding white light. Everyone had to shield their eyes with their arms. However, he remained frozen and his eyes locked on Yukito. Yukito's body shimmer with light before white wings sprout forth from his back. His body seemed to stretch into something unrecognizable. From that something separated from Yukito's shimmering form. Two shimmering bodies took shaped. One with wings and the other without.
Touya's eyes went wider. The other figure was no other than Yukito's true form, Yue. Yue is separated from his false form. As he stared, Yukito collapsed to the ground. Touya immediate reaction to was run to his fallen friend. The light has faded away yet.
Gathering Yukito in his arms, he looked at the winged angel. He could see the complete shock on the angel's face when his face was upon his false form now separated from him. Yue stared at himself then at his false form. Touya then noted something. There were tears in the angel's eyes. One question came to mind, why?
Yue looked up at the door. "Sakura..." his voice filled with longing and need. Touya's eyes somehow softened. He felt he understood the angel. The angel was properly in love with his sister or something like that.
Yue then took off after his sister. He was left holding to Yukito in his arms. The light faded away and chaos insued.
Sakura ran like there was no tomorrow. Her vision blurred with tears. The pain in her heart hurt her more than she could bear. She ran blindly until she couldn't anymore. She fell to her knees panting as tears fell unrestraint.
How could she do this to Yue? How can she leave him alone like this? Doesn't he deserve to be loved? He was always there when she needed him. He was there to give her advice and ears. He doesn't treat her like a child. He always protected her. Yet has she done for him? All she has done was support his existence and use his powers in combat. All she ever does was use him and never once did he complain.
She closed her eyes and wept. As she wept, her own heart and mind unconsciously reached out to the Moon Guardian. Once she touched his aura her eyes snapped open wide. She froze. She turned around quickly.
The angel landed. Her heart raced. Did he really felt that way? Did he really love her?
Yue found her. She had run all the way to Yukito's house. She was on her knees and she was weeping. He landed behind her but it seem that she had sense her coming. She turned to him with wide eyes, eyes brimming with tears.
Yue looked at Sakura and saw something in her emerald eyes. Her eyes soften and emotions seem to fill her eyes. Tentatively he stepped forward. "Sakura..." he stopped. He didn't know what to say to her. How can he explain to her? How do he approach her?
However, it seem that he didn't have to. She ran to him hugging tightly to him. Her body molded against him perfectly. Her warmth flowed from her body to his. Her scent filled his senses. He could do nothing but hold her. "Yue..." she whispered brokenly. "Yue... I'm sorry."
His eyes widen. Why was she apologizing to him? "Sakura? What is wrong? Why did you run away from your wedding?" he asked trying to sound neutral but failed miserably.
Sakura loosen her grip on him and nestled her head against his chest. She didn't look at him. "You love me don't you?" she asked softly.
His eyes widen. Though she wasn't looking at him, he turned his head away. He remained silent. Did he love her? Better yet, does he deserve her love? He has done nothing worthy of her love. In this world, from what he learned from his false form, love meant being able to give something back to the one you loved.
What has he given her? What has he given her worthy of her love? Nothing! Loving her meant being there for her physically and mentally being there for her not his false form. His false form and him are two different hearts.
Loving her meant providing her. He never lived with humans before. All the human contact was restricted to his mistress, her best friend, her brother and his false form. He never experience living like a human before. What can he do to provide for her in this world?
"Yue... I can feel it in your heart... You love me. I can feel it between us," she said softly rising her head to look at him.
He looked down to his side. He let his hair hide his face. Tears were threatening to over flow. "You should've married him," he said coldly.
"Yue!" Sakura brushed his hair away.
He closed his eyes and his body trembled. He didn't want to breakdown in front of her. "He should've married him," he paused for a moment to collect his voice and control. "You should've married him. He loved you... He loved you more than I can. He will there for you when I cannot. He can provide where I can't. He can love you more than I can," he said was closed his eyes tighter. Yet tears managed to escape from them.
They escaped, flowing down his cheeks. He tried to hide them behind his hair and his hands. However, the tears refuse to remain hidden. He was unable to stop, unable to stop them from flowing.
Sakura's eyes soften as she watched the moon guardian trying to hide his tears, trying to stop them. He was failing miserably. Broken to see her like this, she took him into her arms, holding his trembling body as the tears kept on flowing.
Once Yue's seem to have subsided Sakura lifted his head up so that they face each other. Tears still linger in Yue's eyes. She gave him a soft smile as she wiped his tears away from his eyes. He just stared at her with longing in his eyes. She cupped his cheeks and she leaned forward.
She closed her eyes as their lips touched. His lips parted for her as hers pressed against his. She could taste him. His lips were of vanilla, soft and warm. He returned her kiss. Their kiss became more passionate with each other longing for each other.
Her arms wrapped around his neck as his arms held onto her waist and back. Their bodies pressed against each other. He felt so warm against her body. This felt so right to her. There were no regrets at all.
Sakura stopped the kiss when she felt hot tears falling down her cheeks. They were not her tears. Her eyes opened, she saw that Yue open his eyes and stare at her. Tears just streamed down. It was that instance that she knew, he truly felt for her.
"Yue..." she wanted to tell her what was in her heart. However, Yue silenced her with a soft touch of his finger upon her lips.
At first she waited for him to speak but instead he look down with a sad expression. His eyes were soft brimming with more tears. But then, he turned to her. "I love you. I have always loved you ever since I first saw you. But you were just a child. I shook it off believing it was nothing. You loved Yukito like a father; maybe what I felt was the same. I cared only because Yukito cared for you. But as time went by, the feeling grew and grew.
"With every battle we fought, with all the time we spent together, that feeling never died down. I tried to push it away but the feeling got stronger and stronger until I can no longer deny it any further. Yet I couldn't tell you.
"I tried so hard to live with this feeling but it continues to eat at my heart. Every time I see you, my heart aches with longing. All I wanted was you and only you. Yet you didn't love me. You loved him. I wanted to take you from him yet I didn't. I didn't want you to hate me. I just what you to be happy..." Yue said turning away from him. He let his hair hide his face again.
"Yue..." Sakura was moved by his words. His words touched her heart more than anything. She felt so happy to hear them. She closed her eyes. She reached into her own heart. What did she feel?
She felt something she never did before. Something special, something wonderful. She brush is hair away. She looked at him lovingly. "I love you too," she said softly to him.
His eyes widen before they soften. He returned the smile with love in his eyes.
AN: Longer than my other chapters so far. I was thinking about ending it here but I think I'll continue on. Anyways, for those who review this story and you know who you are: Thank You! Thank You! Thank You! Please continue to review! I appreciate your thoughts on the story so far.
