Title: My wish

Disclaimer: Any of the characters in this fan fiction do not belong to me. They belong to all-might CLAMP, worship worship. Songy belongs to See Saw.

Rating: PG-13 for now, rating might go up in later chapters.

Summary/spoilers: Yes, spoilers for Tsubasa but nothing major I think. An AU fic, Sakura has regained her memories and returned home, but is it a happy ever after? What if what happened to Sakura affected Touya more deeply than what he initially let on? Inspired by Tam Chronin's 'To those left behind'

Warning: Shounen-ai- YukixTouya

Other notes: Please read and review! Author works faster with comments. bows This chapter was done to the music of See Saw, special thanks to all who review!

Artyx- I know I'm evil... I do feel bad for Yuki now... As for the situation getting worse... oh it will don't worry. XD mwahha...

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We used to have so much together,

But the dusk is already a different shade.

Don't you know what is it like?

To wait at your bed countless hours after night, before dawn, during the day.

So many hours that have no meaning whatsoever.

Time just seems to stop while I'm with you, but I can't take it anymore. It hurts, every time. What are you doing? Doing to us?

Am I just not important anymore?

You used to always hold me gently, now

you only push me away.

Your coldly cast away heart is

wandering aimlessly

The anger won't dissipate from me. I feel betrayed by those closer to me. You and Fye.

Why?

All I wanted was to be by your side, did I ever ask for me? Even now, it still hurts, why am I waiting for you to come?

If you say such mischief exists,

it's strange to close your eyes

beneath the wintry sky

You won't.

Yet, I'm still here.

One day, I guess that's what they'll remember me by, foolish Yukito. I guess it was foolish to give your everything to someone who was not going to do the same in return.

We used to have so much together, but

I can't get by on just one word.

Quickly leave, now is the time

I'm so tired.

The hurt won't go away, no matter how many countless hours I wait. No matter how many scrolls I dig into. It won't go away. My dreams won't go away. Yet, they are mere fragments now, shattered by your cold will.

You and him.

Everything inside this disgusting place reminds me of you, I hate it. As I hate you and him.

We used to have so much together,

But the dusk is already a different shade.

At least I can sleep quietly in the moonlight

Why won't I eat?

The food refuses to settle in my stomach. No matter how much I try, eating when you sit in front is impossible.

Am I pale?

I've always been pale, Touya. I thought that was what you liked about me, but he is even paler, so his fair complexion outshines my own. Although I have known you since childhood... I feel like the third wheel.

I feel like a bad joke.

If the moon and my fate were to pass away,

wouldn't I surely be sad and lonesome?

How many times did you not want to hold me?

My powerless words can pass the weary night

Touya, I'm still here waiting.

Yet you would not come, am I that unimportant?

Or is it just because you know that I'll be here. You know, that I'll be here, so you don't bother to look?

I'm still here, in case you do look. I want to show you that I'm here.

Maybe... a part of me wants you to stop me. It's too late for that now, isn't it?

We used to have so much together, but

how can this irregular couple

make it in such a place?

You knocked on my door, you wanted to talk.

There was nothing to say.

Why did you bother calling in the first place?

To remind ourselves of the shadows of strangers we've become?

Fye would see I'm offended, but I always choose to be silent, and not let any word slip out my mouth. Doesn't there come a point where you have enough? I've reached that point now.

Nothing, absolutely nothing, is worth this kind of pain.

We used to have so much together, but

when we started to meet something was revealed

in your mysterious, dark profile,

Suspended in the deepest confusion

I think I understand now, thank you. I understand... to never give yourself away to anyone. Never entirely.

I'm going, I need to go. Seeing you revolt my senses, my longing hasn't gone away. Will it ever stop?

I hope so.

Where is your heart?

Where is it floating?

It's as if those eyes

are misleading

To go away, somewhere very far away, a place where nothing will remind me of you. There is a need, that I do this for me.

To stop hurting.

To do what I have to do.

Something for me. For a change, Fye, something for me and no one else. It's alright to be selfish sometimes right?

We used to have so much together, but

I can't get by on just one word.

Your passion began to flow

Never ask me why, you wouldn't understand. The fact that you aren't here tells me, how much you don't know me. Don't ask me to be here if you are not prepared to meet me halfway.

I guess, to forget this all, I have to kill it from inside. Until there is nothing left, and I'll do my things, while you do yours. Strangers who were once friends. Did you really think I could get over the hurt?

You're smiling now.

I'm glad for you, enjoy your life and stay away from me. It won't hurt forever, will it? Just stay away, and don't come back. There isn't anything to say. Not from my side. With this letter I've said everything, there's nothing I can hide.

It doesn't matter I guess.

I'm far too gone.

If the moon and my fate were to pass away,

wouldn't I surely be sad and lonesome?

How many times did you not want to hold me?

My powerless words can pass the weary night

But you know what I really want Touya?

I want a wish.

My wish.


Note: ;;;; That came out angstier than originally planned, but I hope you guys can enjoy it. I suppose... Yuki really needed to vent out how he felt about everything and well.. the song was playing in the background while I wrote this.

As for what happened at the end of Chapter 6... well. XD You'll find that out in the next chapter. I promise. Sorry again for the short chapter. XP

Also, I'm going away tonight and won't be back till Tuesday, only to leave again on Saturday... so updates might take a while... but reviews encourage me to write faster- no matter the circumstances. throws plushies to attract reviwers