Title: The Darkness Within

Author: SelenaK16

Rating: R, for bad words, bloody, graphic fight scenes and some sexuality

Disclaimer: This story is based on characters and situations created and owned by JK Rowling, various publishers including but not limited to Bloomsbury Books, Scholastic Books and Raincoast Books, and Warner Bros., Inc. No money is being made and no copyright or trademark infringement is intended.

Summary: The Dark Lord is growing ever stronger, and the time has come for a hero. A warrior will arise, one who is the antithesis to that which is evil. But will she be able to fulfill her destiny, or will she let her heart get in the way? (Warning: OC)

Author's notes: This is my very first fan fic! I hope everyone likes it (or at least some of you). I have tried very hard to stay away from Mary Sue elements in my OC. Also, currently I am searching for a Beta reader for this story. If you are interested, please e-mail me. Enjoy!

The Darkness Within

Chapter Six: Behind Blue Eyes

Here With Me

I didn't hear you leave,

I wonder how am I still here

And I don't want to move a thing,

It might change my memory

Oh I am what I am

I do what I want

But I can't hide

I won't know and I won't sleep

I can't breathe until you're resting here with me

And I won't leave and I can't hide

I cannot leave until you're resting here with me

I don't want to call my friends,

They might wake me from this dream

And I can't

Oh I am what I am

I do what I want

But I can't hide

I won't know and I won't sleep

I can't breathe until you're resting here with me

And I won't leave and I can't hide

I cannot leave until you're resting here

I won't know and I won't sleep

I can't breathe until you're resting here with me

And I won't leave and I can't hide

I cannot leave until you're resting here

Oh I am what I am

I do what I want

But I can't hide

I won't know and I won't sleep

I can't breathe until you're resting here with me

And I won't leave and I can't hide

I cannot leave until you're resting here

I won't know and I won't sleep

I can't breathe until you're resting here with me

And I won't leave and I can't hide

I cannot leave until you're resting here

Ava opened her eyes and yawned, feeling all of the sore muscles she had acquired from the night before. She glanced over at the clock on the wall, 'Only noon...not too bad...thought it might be later.'

As Ava began to climb out of bed, Jeevo, who had been waiting for the first signs of life from his mistress's room, came bounding in. With a low bow he squeaked, "Mistress! You have a visitor downstairs..." Ava looked sternly at the Elf, "I thought I told you to tell them to come back later. I'm not fit to be seen by company."

"I told him mistress was asleep, but he said he would wait. Said it was very important..."

Ava sighed. 'There's always got to be something...' She walked over to her dressing table and began to comb her long curly black hair. "Does this person have a name?"

"It is Lord Malfoy, mistress."

Ava's heart skipped a beat at the sound of his name, and she sat frozen in place. "Malfoy? Very good Jeevo, tell him I shall be right down."

"Yes mistress," and with a loud crack he was gone.

'Lucius...what does he want...surely he doesn't know it was me last night...or maybe...' Ava shook her head. This was not the time to start getting panicked. She took a deep breath and continued combing her hair. 'Must get my nerves calmed down before I see him...he could always read me like an open book.'

Finishing with her hair, she pinned back the sides, and then applied a little bit of eye liner, mascara, and lip gloss. Satisfied with the effect, Ava now went to change into something more appropriate than pajamas.


Lucius paced the drawing room impatiently, waiting for Ava to come down. He glanced at the clock on the wall and let out a sigh. '2 bloody hours I've been here. You'd think that damn elf would have woken her up sooner." He continued his pacing, pausing every so often to stare at the door.

Lucius was nervous. The Dark Lord had given him specific instructions to recruit more Death Eaters, and he couldn't think of anyone better than Ava. 'Pureblood, Slytherin, loyal to the cause...what could make her more perfect? Plus,' he thought with a small smile, 'I'll get to see her more often.' Lucius hadn't seen Ava for 5 years, ever since they had graduated from Hogwarts. He had tried to keep in touch, be she was never in the same place. She had written at first, but that had gradually stopped. 'After three years of no word from her, and with my parents continually pressuring me to get married and produce an heir...'

'Narcissa won't like it...'

But the door to the drawing room had opened, and she walked in.


He was more handsome than ever. Ava felt her heart beating wildly and wondered if he could hear it. Lucius had aged well; his long silver hair lined his face perfectly. 'Merlin he's gorgeous...stop that Ava...he's a Death Eater...' She could feel his eyes on her and wondered if they still had the ability to turn her to rubber. Ava strained to keep a mask of calm, bored indifference. Slowly, she raised her eyes to his.

She was breathtaking. Lucius' heart began to speed up until it was beating madly. He was overcome with memories of her. Her hair had gotten longer, and he remembered the silky softness of it. 'If only she would look at me...but, she seems rather bored...maybe she really doesn't have any feelings for me.' Lucius strained to catch her eye, and slowly she raised her head and looked directly into his eyes.


'His eyes...the same icy blue I remember...but something's different now...' Ava walked towards him and said, "Lord Malfoy. What an honor to have you here in my home. What can I do for you?"

Ava thought she saw a flicker of surprise in his eyes, but it was gone in an instant. His face was a perfect mask of indifference, and she was uncomfortable with her inability to read him.

"Really Ava, do we have to resort to formal titles? Do call me Lucius," he drawled.

"Alright Lucius. Care to take a seat? Or perhaps I can offer you a cup of tea?"

"No tea thank you and I'll remain standing if you don't mind. I'm not here on a social call."

Ava smiled, "Well, that much was obvious Lucius. If it were, you wouldn't have waited 2 hours to see me."

He didn't smile back, but began to walk towards the window. Ava followed him, waiting for him to speak.

"Do you remember what you said in our 7th year? How you would join the Dark Lord if I did?"

Ava was glad his back was to her, or else he would have seen her mask drop and the look of pure fury on her face. But she struggled to bring a calm eagerness into her voice. "Yes, of course I do. In fact, I spoke to MacNair yesterday about it."

If Lucius was startled he didn't show it. "Really. And what exactly did he tell you?"

Taking a deep breath, Ava moved to stand next to him as he gazed out the window at the fresh snow on the ground. "He asked me whether I had seen you or any of the others from school. When I said no, he asked if I wanted to come to a party last night at your Manor. I declined, seeing as I had not been invited by you. I asked what type of party it was though, and he alluded that it was one for followers of the Dark Lord."

Lucius turned to look at her, "Is that all he said?"

Ava turned her gaze toward him and replied, "No actually. He asked me whether I was interesting in learning more. I told him I'd have to think about it..."

"And are you?" Lucius interrupted.

Ava grew silent for a moment. 'Should I do this? The chance to get into the inner circle...'

"Yes," she replied, "I am."


Ava's first week at Hogwarts was a whirl of activity. Transfiguration and Charms with Hufflepuff, Potions and Herbology with Gryffindor, Arithmancy, Care of Magical Creatures, and Astronomy. Ava had no problem with Transfiguration, Charms, Arithmancy, or Herbology. In fact, she was way ahead of many of her fellow students. But Potions, Astronomy, and Care of Magical Creatures were torture. Instead of being at a fifth years level, she was more at a third years level in those classes.

Right now she was struggling to complete the Vanishing potion before class ended. Lucius kept trying to help her, but there was little to be done. Professor Philtrum strolled over towards their table to check on their progress. "Excellent job Mr. Malfoy. Correct shade of pink..." Professor Philtrum's voice trailed off as he glanced at Ava's potion. The potion now greatly resembled concrete and was giving off the odor of rotten eggs.

"Ms. Servo, this potion is a joke. You will give me a 4 foot long essay on the correct way to prepare the Vanishing potion. In my hands next class time."

Ava turned red as the rest of the class turned to look at her. The Gryffindors smirked at her as Professor Philtrum continued to criticize her potion. Next to her, Lucius' hands clenched into fists as a boy with messy hair from the back of the class yelled out, "Typical Slytherin. Not good for much else then slithering!"

"10 points from Gryffindor Mr. Potter for that uncalled for remark. And Ms. Servo, please see me after class."

Ava fought back tears as the rest of the class filed out of the room. "We'll wait for you, Ava" Bellatrix called out as she and Severus walked towards the door.

"Ms. Servo. Come here please." Ava walked to the front of the classroom where Professor Philtrum was standing. "Yes Professor?" she asked in a meek voice.

"Ms. Servo, your progress in my class is appalling. I would like you to come here every Tuesday and Thursday night for remedial potions. Should you continue to make no progress, I will be forced to place you in the third year potions class. I shall speak to your head of house about this, and I'll see you tonight at 6:00 pm."

"Yes Professor. Thank you." Ava hurried towards the exit of the dungeon where Bellatrix, Severus, and Lucius were waiting for her.

"So," Bellatrix asked as they climbed the stairs toward the Great Hall, "what did he want?" Ava grimaced, "He wants me to come for remedial potions every Tuesday and Thursday night." Severus suppressed a smile, which Lucius caught. "No point in being smug Sev just because you're the best in potions. I though the Vanishing potion was hard as well," Lucius commented. He looked over at Ava and winked, bringing a blush to her face.

"You mistake my smile Luc. I was remembering Potter's face when Professor Philtrum took 10 points away from him." Bellatrix giggled, "Yeah, that was rich. Poor little Potty..."

"Care to finish that sentence?"

The four Slytherins turned to see James standing with two of his friends outside the Transfiguration classroom. The mood of the group grew instantly tense. Severus' eyes narrowed, Bellatrix reached inside her pocket for her wand, and Lucius gave James his best arrogant look. Ava wondered what was going on, it was if her friends were preparing for battle.

"Mind your own business Potter before we mind it for you," Lucius spat out. Ava saw Severus also go for his wand, his hand clenched so tightly she could see his knuckles turn white.

"Trying to protect your newest snake, eh? No surprise there Malfoy, but I though you already had a girl. Or perhaps she's yours Snivellus..."

James never got the rest of his sentence out as Bellatix cast the bat bogey hex on him. His two friends immediately went for their wands, but Severus turned to them, "Don't even try it Lupin. And don't make me laugh Pettigrew, you couldn't hex the side of a barn." Lucius and Bellatix started laughing, and even Ava couldn't quite hide her smile as she watched the bat bogies flap all over James' face as he tried to unhex himself.

"Pity the blood traitor isn't out here with you. Been meaning to have a talk with him," Bellatix scowled.

"Did somebody say my name?" A tall good looking boy emerged from the classroom, and right behind him was Professor McGonagall. The boy grinned and winked at Bellatix who quickly put her wand away.

"Mr. Snape, Mr. Malfoy, what do you think you're doing. 10 points from Slytherin and detention for the both of you. As a Prefect Mr. Malfoy, I really expected better behavior from you. Be sure I will be talking to your head of house about this. Move along now." Professor McGonagall said as she unhexed James' face. Severus and Lucius grimaced and threw dirty looks at the four boys standing in the doorway. Reluctantly the group continued walking.

As soon as they were out of earshot Lucius exploded, "Bloody Mudblood lover! How dare she threaten me? Talk to my head of house indeed, I'd like to see her try."

While Lucius continued his rant, Ava turned to Bellatrix and asked, "What was the deal with that group?"

"Ah, yes, you have yet to know the relationship between Slytherin and Gryffindor. Let's just say it is a fierce rivalry. Potter's group in particular needs to be taught a lesson, especially the blood traitor." Bellatrix explained.

Ava was still confused, so Lucius continued Bellatrix's explanation. "We don't appreciate those who are lower than us who challenge our superiority. The whole lot of Gryffindor is full of Mudbloods and Mudblood lovers. Like Bella said, Potter and his friends have crossed us from the first day we've been here, and it's been an ongoing feud since then. Especially for Sev here."

They glanced at Severus who had remained ominously silent. "Well, forget the old biddy and let's go for some dinner. Ava needs her strength for remedial potions tonight," Lucius joked.

"A joke Lucius? I wasn't sure you even knew what that was!"

Ava turned to see Narcissa bounding towards them. "Hello darling," she said as she kissed Lucius.

"Really Cissy, do you have to do that?" Lucius turned to walk away from her and into the Great Hall. Ava felt Narcissa's eyes on her as she followed him and Severus to the Slytherin table.


"Look Cissy, I don't see what you're so upset about. Ava's cool, you don't have to worry about her. You know Lucius isn't big on public affection." Bellatrix hated playing common sense to her younger sister's irrationality. 'Sure, he's been a little...different...since Ava came, but that'll stop soon..."

"No Bella, I'm telling you, he likes her. Please, don't be nice to her anymore. The bitch is trying..."

"Cissy, I'll say this one more time. You have nothing to fear from Ava. Besides, rumor has it our blood traitor cousin is after her."

"I don't care! Keep her away from him. You're the only one who can do it for me...I only see you guys at meal times," Narcissa was starting to get frantic, so Bellatrix quickly said, "All right, all right. I'll look out for him. Just try to behave in a more appropriate manner. Merlin, do try to act with some decorum. We have a reputation to uphold..."


Ava checked her watch. 5:55 pm. "Shit! I'm going to be late!" She scrambled to grab her books, jumped up from the Slytherin table, and ran towards the door.

"Wait! Ava!"

Ava turned to see Severus coming after her. "You left this. I think it might be somewhat important," Severus said dryly while handing her her potions book.

"Oh, thanks a million Sev!"

"It's Severus. And don't worry about potions...it's not as hard as you think."

He turned and walked back into the Great Hall, leaving Ava alone as she dashed madly towards the dungeons.


'Finally...thought that class would never end...' It was 8:30 pm and Ava had just finished her remedial potions class. She started to clean up her table when she heard a voice.

"All Alone?" Ava jumped, scattering her potions ingredients onto the floor. She turned to see the same tall, good looking boy from earlier standing in the door way of the Potions dungeon. "Do I know you?" she asked coldly as she bent down to pick up her belongings. "No," he said, "but I'd like to know you." He moved from the doorway towards her and held out his hand and said, "Sirius Black. You're Ava Servo, right." Ava stood back up, leaving her potions ingredients on the ground. She looked down at his hand, but decided to ignore it. "Black, huh? Not related to Narcissa or Bellatrix are you?" she said coldly.

Sirius cocked an eyebrow and smirked, "What an astute Slytherin you are. Yes, they're my cousins. Not by choice, unfortunately." With a sigh, Ava bent back down to pick up the last of the ingredients. As she stood back up, she found that Sirius was standing right in front of her, looking down with a smirk on his face. 'He's still here? What the hell does he want?' Ava wished that he would stop staring at her. 'It's time to put a stop to this, he's starting to get on my nerves.' "Look, what exactly do you want? I'm rather busy at the moment, and dancing attendance to a stuck up Gryffindor is not something I planned to do today."

Sirius' eyes flashed with anger, and just as he was about to open his mouth, Ava held up her hand. "No, don't even try to come back with some half-ass retort. Why don't I just do you a favor and leave?" And with that she gathered her belongings and walked swiftly out of the dungeon, leaving Sirius staring dumbfounded after her.


'How refreshing, a challenge for once,' Sirius thought as he watched Ava walk away. A smile came to his face. He was just about to follow Ava out when he saw something out of the corner of his eye. Frowning he bent down to retrieve the object from its spot under the table. It appeared to be a book of sorts....it had a lock on the front. 'Wait...I know what this is...' The smile came back to Sirius' face as he pocketed the book and strolled out of the dungeon.


Yay! Thanks so much to my very first reviewer, Dianatyne!!!!!

To answer your question, yes the thing with the wings will be explained later. So will the hair and eye color change that Ava has from the first chapter to now. Hee, hee, yes that was on purpose to all those out there who thought I couldn't remember the color of my own character's hair and eyes.

Hope the story is interesting so far. Can't wait to get to the real plot of the story, since I'm still setting things up now (as you can see).

Oh, and this will be a Snape fic. I know it doesn't seem so right now, but have some faith!

Hmmmm, how about Sirius shaped confetti to reviewers?