(A/N: Well, after browsing through the angsty J/C fics around here, I began
to feel quite sad and angsty myself. I'm an anti-J/Cer, but let me tell
you, it was hard not to submit to the J/Cing will with some of these.
Anyway, while reading I found a lot of "Chatokay writes to Janeway" fics,
and couldn't resist the urge to give one a shot. So, I was up 'till one in
the morning... not being able to stop writing. This is my (hopefully
successful) attempt at something more dramatic, and I'd really, REALLY
appreciate reviews for this one. So here we go... I called it "It Can Never
Be". I hope you enjoy it!)
I'll always remember that day, that planet, sitting there with you,
Something sparked between us, and I think you knew it, too.
I thought it was the beginning of something beautiful and grand,
Instead, you pushed me away, hiding behind protocols and command.
I tried so hard to reach you, your true self I longed to see,
But that cold ice kept building, you wouldn't show yourself to me.
I wished to break those awful chains and set our two hearts free,
However, I just heard you whisper, "It can never be".
I saw all your burdens; I hoped to make them lighter,
But as I learned the hard way, you can be such a fighter.
I wanted to wipe away your slow snowfall of tears,
I wanted to drown with you in your sea of hidden fears.
Love was how I wanted to care for you,
But you wouldn't let it happen, away from me you flew.
People were enveloped in your auburn wings each day,
I only longed for your warm compassion in a different way.
Every time I thought you were close to kissing me,
You shook your head and softly whispered, "It can never be".
We've both been through the impossible together,
Now that we're home, I want to stay with you forever.
For seven years, you were the light of my life,
I'd always hoped that one day you'd be my wife.
You've long since moved on, I thought I was the same.
Unfortunately as I've discovered, love is a difficult game.
However, now it's far too late,
We've turned the key and sealed this fate.
I'll always be your dearest friend,
That's something that will never end.
But I'll never know why you denied it,
We had something, couldn't we have tried it?
I know today you see my pain,
As I sink in my silent rain.
Nothing's changed; you still look at me,
And sadly whisper those four words: "It can never be".
