Nothing but a rosary

Chapter one

A story made by Kalinenaka

Ten seconds.

That's all I need.

Ten seconds and one step forwards.

Don't look back.

I can do this.

Just one more step and it's all over.

No one is here.

Just take the last step.

I can do this.

I can take the last step.

Then why am I not?

There's nothing for me to stay for.

They won't miss me.

They want to gone.

...everyone...

My dear family, especially my mother. She told me so many times herself I lost count.

The teachers, they surely could do without the pranks I pull in class.

Even my friends wouldn't miss me, that is if I had them.

My live is doomed to go wrong.

Since the day I was born I could have known.

I did.

It's just that I didn't take actions.

Now I am.

Just take the last step.

I'm finishing what I should have done long ago.

I should have saved other peoples troubles.

I don't know where it went so terribly wrong.

But I do know what the turning point was.

Last year..

It is was my friend who suffered.

It was him who could have died.

The Shrieking Shack incident.

I sent Snape to Moony.

Therefore I betrayed Remus.

James saved Snape's live.

Therefore he betrayed Moony.

Why I sent him, do you ask?

He asked me the same question.

And the teachers did to.

Because.......

I answered.

Not a word more.

I didn't know why I told Snape to past the Womping Willow. Well, maybe I do know it.

He told me that he had prove that Remus was a death eater. Every time he was gone is was because he was meeting them. Or maybe it was because I run away from my home. Maybe because I had a terrible year at school. Maybe because it was Snape. Or maybe just for the kick.

See, I don't know it any more.

I lost anything that was once dear to my heart.

My friends. My mind. My soul.

And my body will go today.