:: What a Life ::

Disclaimer: How many times do I have to tell you people to stay away from me coz I don't own them so stop bugging me to admit it coz I wont' coz it hurt! TT cries I'm in a very deep emotional moment TT cries more

Pairing: SasuNaru / NaruHina (very, very little but no bashing…maybe)

Warning: Shounen-ai; Grammatical error (no Beta so I might repost this to cover the mistakes once I deal with the other chapter) language, AU

Summary: Just read it.

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Start-o!

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Naruto and I had been partners for years. Started when we had our first group presentation back then in Junior High School. He was the worst and I was the best. And believe it or not, we match each other.

Of course there were times where I couldn't stand him. There were also times when I felt like killing him, buried him alive, skinned him alive. And there were also times when I was glad that I had him as my partner, my friend.

I respect him the most. Because he always tried to do his best in everything. He lives for himself. He stands for himself and only for himself.  In my eyes, he's the best.

And for years we've been together. And for years also, I always almost cross the line. The limit for hanging out, as friends.

And I'm not supposed to have this feeling.

You know what that is? Love.

Infact, I can't love him. Not that I won't, I can't love him!

Oh, do you know what we are now?

When we graduated, I thought, man, this is the end. I have to confess. Now or never.

And then, you know what happened? When the entire atmosphere going out good and warm and makes things romantic, I snapped.

By hell, I fucking snapped it!

I ruined it! By saying: Man, I'm getting myself a girl.

What the-- hell. I'm gay. I'm not supposed to have a girl!

After a few seconds, I thought, the hell you were saying?!

And for the next few seconds, I thought, thank god I said that.

Because what, you know? He said: Me too!

!!

HE'S NOT SUPPOSED TO HAVE A GIRL EITHER!

But that time, though I smiled and congratulate him, saying nice things to him, I cried inside.

Okay that's enough for sentimental reminiscence.

Anyway, after I managed to cover up my lie, about me having a girl I didn't really have. I really get myself a girl. A nice decent one I say. I mean, she's okay – but not for real.

So I keep changing one after another. Girls, I mean. Can't remember how many anymore. It's not that I'm a player or something, it's just… no one just seem… you know, right for me.

And sometimes, well, it keeps me thinking why girls, I mean, not all girls are, but, most of them they keep appearing and throwing themselves at me.

So I just picked one up, walked with them for a while and dropped them out and picked one up again. And again, and again, and again for the rest of my entire fucking life if I don't have him.

He also got himself a nice girl. Not very pretty, but nice.

Her name is Hinata. He brought her to our apartment yesterday. She's quiet shy, rather closed and very predictable that she is completely in love with my best friend. He daddy owned the Hyuuga enterprise.

She's a fucking millionaire! And I bet Naruto hadn't learnt that his girl is a walking ATM. He doesn't read newspaper, he doesn't like politics, and he doesn't watch the news.

He said he met her inside the cab. Said he needed to get home soon and she offered him her cab and of course, being Naruto, he told her to go together. And that's how they met and fall in love. What a romantic story.

But it's not for me. If it wasn't for the cab!  If it wasn't for her stupid bird brain to offer some stranger, who's happened to be MY crush for years, her transport. Damn cab! Stupid cab!

I mean, she's the millionaire's daughter. What the hell she was doing walking around in a street without bodyguards in black – like one in TV – and taking a cab. She could get kidnapped for her father's money sake!

…Sorry, I got carried away.

So, after months doing nothing but college, which is sucks, me and him decided on something.

We could form a band!

So we did.

We both play guitars and we both can sing. So we play guitars and sing. And then we did some audition for a keyboard player and a drummer.

The keyboard player, unpredictably, fall to one of my exes hand. Remember when I told you… oh, I haven't? Well, I tend to forget my exes' face coz for me they all look the same and only for a ride. Okay, I was rude, forgive me. But I definitely remember her. We did hitched together, but it was, I think, only a week. Could be less. And I remembered her because, for as long as I'm breathing, there was only one girl who speaks too much and drools too much. I think that's the reason I dumped her so fast.

Not that the others last long anyway.

I don't like her, but she's good on what she's playing. Can't deny that, so she's in.

So anyway, getting out of line again, the drummer falls into another unpredictable person. Naruto's step-brother's boyfriend, Kakashi. He's so good that everyone else who plays drums as well looks like toddles with chopsticks.

So with me singing with Naruto. And I got the face, and the voice. And Naruto's high-picted voice is good as well as his voice – I think he's cute too. Sakura also quiet a show as well. And Kakashi is such a looker! And he plays like a damn God!

Within days, our first song reached the top and hit the score. So was our first album. And our second single. AND our second album.

We're so rich we started to waste the money for something that doesn't make sense. I buy myself a nice, very nice huge house and cars. Naruto waste his for his girl, buying things to her, jewelries, shop her clothes and give her a Mercedes Benz.

Yeah, and he still hadn't know that her father could buy her a city.

So a while I live a happy life. I mean, c'mon, who doesn't happy if they live like me.

But it doesn't last long.

Money and fame cannot entertain me anymore. Cars are just cars, and the house is so empty without parties. I mean, you know, I really can't do the thing I wanna do to 'him' to my cars.. if you get what I mean. (Yea, I clearly know what you mean)

I desire him for more and more each day it rots me alive. But if I hit too hard, he can run and left. So I watch, and wait.

Don't know how long, but I wait. Forever if I have to.

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A/N: good? Nah? Drop me a word or two will ya

Got the idea while watching MTV doin' nothing coz my PS2 is broken and my brother start saying sick emotional things on me.

Done it in June 18 – and I just post it now.. yeah, peace to you guys!