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Chapter 6- How could I care?

Kagome leaped out of the water as if she was burned. After quickly drying herself, she wrapped the towel around her before skidding out of the bathroom. She dived onto the bed and ripped through the sheets for the books. One book was the history of demons and the other was the book about rituals Sesshomaru had given her earlier. She frantically scanned the pages for something that would explain this to her.

It said: Multiple Suitors is uncommon but not impossible. It is uncommon because the female and the male must be compatible into to become each others Choice. If that is to happened the arm of the most used on the female has her Suitors Symbols in the order of preference.

Her mouth flew open and she flipped through the pages over and over trying to see if she was reading this right. When it finally dawned on her she frowned. WHAT THE FUCK?! She hated that cold hearted bastard! This book was full of lies. Her first instinct was to through it off the balcony but she knew what would come from that. Her and Sesshomaru? The thought to her was so vile that she wanted to vomit.

Thoroughly disgusted, Kagome threw the books back onto the bed and walked back out to the balcony. Sesshomaru and Rin were gone. 'Thank Kami, I didn't want him ruining the view.' She frowned as she looked up at the sky. It was night by now, why hadn't she transformed yet? The full moon shone down and illuminated the gardens. Wait full moon, wasn't the new moon just two days ago? But then again, she hadn't been able to ask how long she had been unconscious. Inuyasha was human on the new moon, maybe the full moon was when she stayed human. Just her luck! Things like this always happen to her! 'Kami, what did I do to deserve this?!'

Disheartened, she found a light blue kimono hanging in the bathroom and put it on. She supposed it wasn't SO bad, considering the circumstances. She had a bed, a real bath, and Rin was full of cheer. But she longed for her old life. Of bathing in rivers, sleeping on the ground, smacking Miroku, yelling at Inuyasha, her talks with Sango, Shippou cuddling up with her. Kagome bit her trembling lip, is it possible to be homesick when the place you were missing wasn't your house?

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Inuyasha sat with his crossed arms. This was not the time for discussion, this was a time for action! Kagome was probably with that bastard now, and who knows what he did to her. But sense there was no scent trail to follow and he didn't really know where Sesshomaru's palace was he would have to wait. He glared across the fire at the kitsune. Oh, Youko knew exactly where it was, he just refused to tell him. He said that they needed a plan, not to rush in. 'Feh, what does he know?'

The fox in question looked thoughtful. "So you have no way of tracking her down?"

Kaede shook her head. "Her miko aura surrounds her and shields her. But there is something else that is disrupting ye search."

At that Inuyasha leaned forward. "What?"

"I don't know for certain, it isn't negative but it isn't positive. As far as I can tell, it poses no danger to her yet."

He rolled his eyes and sat back. "What good are you old hag? This is nothing but a fucking waste of time!"

Youko's eyes snapped in his direction. "I want to find Kagome just as much as you do, make no mistake. I *should* be able to sense her now that I'm Courting her but I can't. I don't want to go barging in there recklessly endangering myself and her. And I'm not even positive that it was his palace that he took her to."

He cut his eyes dangerously at him. "This is getting us no where fast."

Kouga glanced between them both. "I can have my clan search for her."

Kaede nodded. "That sounds like a good idea."

The prince smirked triumphantly. "I'll go to them now." He walked away but stopped at the door. "Don't try anything stupid while I'm gone." And with that he left.

Inuyasha glared out of the doorway. Why did it feel like that last comment was directed toward him? It was killing him to just sit and wait but there was noting he could do. Kagome. Where are you?

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Kagome wept into her pillow. Why? Why her? She had been reading the Book of Rituals when she had found out some disturbing news:

A female can reject a male at anytime during the Decision Period. She must be absolute positive that that is not the one she wants. When she is then she will be able to declare so out loud.

That wasn't the bad part. Her heart thumping with glee, she opened her mouth to reject Sesshomaru but found that she had no voice to say it. Frowning she decided to say something else. "The sky it blue." Not the most intelligent thing but at least it was something. She decided to try it again but she still had no voice. So she continued reading.

If the female is not positive about her decision she will have no voice in which to utter her rejection.

That was when she threw herself on her pillow. But it wasn't her pillow was it? It was his. It was Sesshomaru's, never hers. She sat up as if the pillow had burned her. Then she realized something. In a fit of fury and madness she shredded the pillow to bits with her teeth. Tricked! She had been tricked AGAIN! Youko had made it seem as though she had to wait a whole year to get rid of her Suitors. That sneaky little fox! She threw the shreds around the room and pounded her fists on the walls. "LET ME OUTTA HERE!!"

She would have to stop, throwing tantrums would get her nowhere. Kagome sat on the ground with a thud, she needed to think rationally. Yes, she would go along with her plan. Tomorrow night she would escape.

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Sesshomaru's eyebrows knitted together. Her incessant shrieking was annoying. Ever since she got here, his nerves have been on edge. He twirled the dagger he had been examining in his fingers, wondering if he should go and kill her now. It would certainly end his irritation. Yes so simple, just walk into her room and end her pitiful existence. So easy. But for once, he decided to wait before he killed her. It was all that damn book's fault. There was a time when given the opportunity, he would gladly snap her neck without a thought. But that book, that fucking book, ruined it for him. It made him curious.

Just why did him, the Lord or Western Lands, need *her*? So far, all she did was act like a child. Whining, crying, shouting when she didn't get her way. Rin was much more mature than she was. "Jaken."

In an instant he was by his side. "Yes my lord?"

"Go tell the bitch to shut up."

He bowed lowly. "Yes my lord."

"And Jaken?"

"Yes my lord?"

"If she refuses to cooperate, tell her I'll shut her mouth permanently."

"Yes my lord." He bowed out of the room.

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Kagome thrust Aisaiga through the air before sweeping it up in a half crescent. After her second breakdown, she decided to use her pent up energy to practice with her new sword. She repeated the moves she saw Inuyasha use over and over. Inuyasha. Her heart contracted with another wave of homesickness. She swallowed the lump in her throat and thrust forward again.

"Lady Kagome." Jaken said, as if the whole diner episode had never happened.

"Toad." She swept the sword down and up then hacking to the right.

"Lord Sesshomaru wishes that you refrain from making so much noise."

"Well you can tell him that I'll be happy to *refrain* when he releases me." She said pleasantly, all smiles. Then her expression darkened. "Until then he take his wishes and SHOVE IT UP HIS ASS!"

Jaken's eyes narrowed. "You don't know what you're saying, surely."

"Yes I do and I don't like your tone." She feinted left and stepped to the right grabbing his collar and picking him up.

He struggled and kicked. "If you don't let me go, Lord Sesshomaru will kill you."

"Oh believe me this will be well worth it." She place Aisaiga on her bed so that the point faced up toward the ceiling. Then she walked out onto the balcony. "Now, don't you want to tell me how to get thought that wall?"

"No!"

She held him over the edge by his collar. "Tell me or I'll drop you and you'll appear right above my little sword."

"Put me down."

"Uh, sorry wrong answer, try again." She was now only holding him two fingers by his collar.

"You'll be sorry!!"

"Toad kabobs anyone?" She was now dangling him by one finger.

"Put. Him. Down." A cold voice said behind her.

She didn't turn around. What did she have to lose? "Why should I?"

In an instant he was behind her with his cold fingers clasped around her throat. He dangled her over the edge. "Unless you don't feel like dying today I suggest you shut the fuck up and do as you're told."

Kagome smiled mysteriously. "But if you do, you can't get your answers."

He faltered. How did she know about that? "What answers?"

"Come on don't tell me you forgot. The other night you said you wanted answers. I just might be able to give them to you."

Sesshomaru sniffed the air around her. She wasn't lying. "Tell me."

"Uh uh, not until you put me down."

He glared at her fiercely but slowly put her onto the balcony. "Well?"

She glanced around, not looking at him. She had not really lied, she said that she *might* be able to answer him. But she had a feeling that if she didn't tell him something soon, he would chuck her off the balcony. "Which question do you want me to answer?"

"The Book of Truth said that I needed you, why?"

"Because I can sense jewel shards." She said simply, hoping he would buy it.

"Why would I want you for that? I don't even want the jewel." His eyes narrowed dangerously.

She thought rapidly. "Because if you complete the jewel you could make a wish."

"What would I wish for?" He asked, patience at her vague answers growing thin.

Kagome raised her eyebrows. "You know *that* at least."

He thought for a moment. A wish? What for? He didn't need anymore power. Although, he did still want his brother's sword.. "What else?"

"What else what?"

He growled lowly at her thickness. "What else can you tell me?"

She wagged her finger at him. "You have to *ask* the question before I can answer it."

Sesshomaru held her over the side of the balcony again. "Don't be a fucking smart ass." His fingers tightened around her throat. She winced, knowing there would be a bruise there in the morning. If she lived to see morning that is. He smiled. "I could kill you now couldn't I?" His fingers tightened as his grinned wickedly, enjoying it. She was gasping for air but her lungs would fill up. Her vision started to get dark. "And I should kill you now. You nothing but a pain-in-the-ass bitch." She crawled desperately at his fingers.

Kagome's kicks and struggles weakened. 'I'm gonna die. I was stupid and should've kept my mouth shut but I didn't and now I'm gonna die.'

"You've talked shit ever since I brought you here and I *won't* tolerate it. You *will* obey me or you'll die." He flung her onto the floor of the balcony. "Talk or die."

Kagome sputtered and coughed. She winced and rubbed her sore neck. "Truthfully I don't really know anything myself.." Then she went on to tell him everything that had happened. After she was done her eyes grew and she clamped her hands over her mouth. She hadn't meant to say so much. Tell him so much. Slowly she looked up into his eyes.

He was staring down at her coolly with thoughtful eyes. He had not known she didn't know ANYTHING about the Ritual. He thought that she had only been excluded bits and pieces, not *everything* but some key elements. Though he couldn't help thinking how her cheeks flushed and her eyes sparkled when she talked about something that made her angry. Sesshomaru tilted his head to the side, his slivery locks falling softly over his shoulders. He chose his words carefully. "I have given Jaken two books that might help you learn more about your *situation*."

Kagome looked down, her bangs covering her eyes. "I meant to thank you for them earlier."

He snorted. "Don't thank me. I don't require it nor do I want it."

She felt a sudden pang of sorrow at what he said. It reminded her of Youko. 'It pleases me to see you happy, that is all the thanks I require.' She sniffed and bit her lip. "What are you going to do with me?"

There was silence for a while. He glanced at her sidelong. "The only reason I have not really killed you is because there is a side to myself that stops me. My demon blood is taking my Courting you seriously and it wants to protect you and not harm you." He cut his eyes at her. "Its very annoying having conflicts with myself. I never had until I met *you*." His words were accusatory. "For now, I'll keep you around but give me one reason to get rid of you and I will snap your frail neck before you can even inhale the breath it takes to scream." With that he swept off the balcony and into her rooms.

She sat there for a while. Sesshomaru. He was so strange. He was cold and full of hatred but then he was understanding and intriguing. He was mystery that she'd love to solve. But a part of her heaved. Sesshomaru was a bastard. A bastard that tried to kill Inuyasha. Kagome got up and shook herself. That settled it, he was officially her enemy and she WOULD escape as soon as she got the chance. She hopped onto the bed and drew the covers over her head. Yes tomorrow she would leave this place.

But when she couldn't sleep, she stared at the ceiling, wondering what he would look like if he was human. He would have long fair almost white blond hair. His eyes would a bottomless icy gray. His face would be smooth with creamy skin maybe even lightly freckled. Kagome mentally slapped herself. Sesshomaru was the enemy and that was that. She turned over and squeezed her eyes shut.

But a few tears managed to leak out. Inuyasha. Thinking of him sent a pang in her heart. She messed him so much. She even missed his snide remarks about how stupid and weak she was. She missed the way he glared at her, they way his ears twitched when she yelled, the he smelled. Even if she did get out of here, Kagome could never tell him. He could never feel the same about her.

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Sesshomaru twirled his dagger between his long tapered fingers while he stared into the fire. Kagome. What to do about Kagome? Kill her or keep her? The Book of Truth said he would need her then maybe he shouldn't kill her. But damnit did he want to! But then again he wanted to see her, smell her, be around her. That pissed him off to no end. Human, she was human. A filthy, pathetic, idiotic human.

But what if.What if she was a whole demon? Would he want her then? He closed his eyes and imaged what she would look like. She would have silky straight sliver hair to her waist and a matching soft furry tail that reached the back of her knees. Her skin would be like milk, fair and soft, and her cheeks would have two red stripes. Her eyes would be like pools of melted gold and her slender ears pointed at the top. And she would smell of the beginning of spring and morning dew.

He opened his eyes. If she was a youkai then maybe..maybe..

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Kagome opened her eyes slowly, then snapped them shut when the blinding light reached them. She yawned them attempted to open hers eyes again. She jumped off the bed and stumbled into the bathroom. She was starting to get a headache and her throat was sore. After slashing cold water onto her face she peered into the mirror at her reflection. Her knees almost gave out. There in the mirror, staring back at her was a hanyou.

How could this happen?! It was in the middle of the morning! This was supposed to happen at night, not in the middle of the fucking morning! Kagome sank to the floor and leaned her head on the cabinet. Just when she thought she had everything figured out, everything gets turned upside down. She slowly stood up to look into the mirror and blinked rapidly. She was human. But-what-wasn't she just-didn't she just see...? Maybe her eyes were playing tricks on her. Yes that had to be it.

This was just too much. She was going to escape and she was going to do it now. Human or not. Kagome gathered the two books, sword, and clothes. She walked into her living room and searched the wall for a way to get out. When that didn't work, she set her stuff things and sat in front of wall. With her powers, she prodded at the wall to find it but all that she found was a complex spell designed to keep her in. Growling with frustration, she kicked the wall only to be thrown backwards by the force of the spell.

Kagome got up and looked at her fingers that now had claws. She had not seen wrong. She was a hanyou this morning. Trying to hold on to the power surging through their veins, she got her things and ran out onto the balcony. Slowly and jerkily, her hair grew up to the roof and pulled her up. She gritted her teeth against the pain. She landed on the roof in a crouch before she felt the power drain away from her.

Damn! She was human again! Kagome walked around carefully until she was standing above an open window.

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When Sesshomaru woke up he noticed how late it was. Well not really that late, it was still morning but he usually got up before dawn. He got out of his bed and sat at his desk. Then he just stared at It. The Book of Truth. He still had a lot a questions but he didn't know if he would benefit from the answers. "What should I do about Kagome?"

He opened the book. "You need her." Having the same reply was all the more alarming and annoying. He closed the book again and drummed his claws on the cover. The situation was becoming more and more clear. He would have to keep her around. The Book of Truth was never wrong. Never.

"Lord Sesshomaru." Jaken bowed low. "Anything that you require?"

"Besides something to make some fucking sense, no."

He glanced at him worriedly. "Is it about the child?"

His eyes narrowed until they were dangerous slits. "It's none of your damn business."

"Begging your forgiveness, sire. I thought that if you spoke of it that maybe things would start to come into prospective."

Sesshomaru looked down his nose at him. "I may allow her to stay here."

"If you don't mind my asking, how long, my lord?"

He answered slowly. "For a while."

"Are you considering to take her as your mate?"

He growled, baring his sharp pearly fangs. "I would never desire that vile creature to be my mate. Like I'd want to be stuck with that incompetent wench! She is good for absolutely nothing!"

"But sire don't you know that you have to be compatible in order for you to be her Suitor."

"I know that!" He spat. After calming down slightly he sat back in his chair and pressed his fingertips together. "Its just difficult for me to believe that *I* could be compatible with *her*."

"Think of it sire. You are strong and intelligent. She is a powerful miko and very good at archery. You will cover up any flaws she has easily. Finding a mate is like putting together a puzzle. She and you, my lord, fit."

Sesshomaru sat back a thought it over. It sounded reasonable, but was it the case?

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Kagome listened intently. "Are you considering to take her as your mate?" That was Jaken's voice.

"I would never desire that vile creature to be my mate. Like I'd want to be stuck with that incompetent wench! She is good for absolutely nothing!" And that was without a doubt, Sesshomaru.

She backed up and bit her lip. She trembled in fury. Vile creature?! Incompetent wench?! Good for absolutely nothing?! What that fuck? That mother fucking bastard!!!! How dare he say that about her? He had no right! None! Kagome clenched her fists and closed her eyes as she felt her powers come back to her. She stood and ran across the roof to the menagerie and to her freedom.

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It was silent for a moment when the wind blew in. Sesshomaru's nose twitched, he could smell her, she was close by. His eyes narrowed and he stuck his head out the window and sniffed.

Jaken frowned. "What is it my lord?"

"Kagome is on the roof." He climbed out on to the sill and sunk his claws into the stone and started to climb.

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Kagome ran like the hounds of hell were nipping at her heels. She was so close to escape that she could smell it. Her ear's flattened against her head, trying to block out the sound of the air rushing by. Soon she could see the roof of the menagerie. She smirked victoriously. She was practically home free.

She slammed into something that felt like a brick wall. "Going somewhere?" Sesshomaru growled.

In her moment of shock, her powers slipped away and she was now human. Damnit! Just her luck! "So maybe I am."

He grabbed her arm. "I told you that you leave when I say so."

"Let her go!" They turned to see thirty wolf demons standing on the roof behind them. Sesshomaru glared at them. With his tail he gripped her waist and prepared to kill them all. Kouga tsked. "Not so fast." He nodded to someone in the group. Forward came a wolf dragging a frightened Rin in his jaws.

Kagome's eyes were huge. He wouldn't *really* hurt Rin would he? No, not the Kouga she knew. But then again he did want to eat those people in that village when she first met him...

His lips curled. "Leave it to a wolf to hide behind a child."

"You can let Kagome go or I give the word and my man will eat her. It's a trade, the child's life for Kagome."

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