Chapter 22
So,here I was. In Spirit World,not knowing what was happening. I wanted to go down there. I didn't care if I was going to die. I wasn't afraid of death. I was afraid of what was going to happen to Kurama if I didn't get down there to help him.
Botan took me to my room as soon as we got to Spirit World. She told me that it would be wise if I got some rest. But that was the last thing I needed at the moment. I didn't want to be here at all. But I was here because of what Kurama said. I was here because I loved him.
So far,nothing happened down on Earth,even though Yusuke was dead. I was glad too. Please be ok Kurama,I thought. I don't want you to die on me. I love you so much Kurama. You mean everything to me.
"Nicole?"Botan asked as she opened the door to my room.
"Yeah?"
"Are you ok?"
I sighed and thought to myself. Am I supposed to tell her the truth? Do I have to tell her how much I want to be with Kurama? "No..."
"What?"
"No Botan. I'm not ok. Let me go down there..." I got up and started to walk out of the room,but Botan grabbed my arm.
"What are you doing?!"
"Do you see this fear in my eyes Botan? I fear for the only person I care about right now. The only person who loves me the most,is somewhere getting killed by Sensui. I need to go down there and help him because I love him. I promised him that I would stay be his side. Now move!" I shook her arm off and started to make a run for it,but I was stopped by Koenma.
"You aren't going anywhere,"he said. "You should be honored that Botan brought you here,or you would be down there,just getting ready to be killed like everyone else."
I didn't know what to say.
"I know you're scared Nicole. We all are."
At that moment I let my emotions come out again. Koenma hugged me again as I started to sob again. "God I'm so sorry..."
"It's ok..."
"I didn't get to see what had happened to Yusuke. But now I can feel wants happening down there. I don't want Kurama to die. I love him."
"But you're going to stay here for the time being until everything is over."
And when will that be,I thought. When everyone is dead? When I have no one else to care for. When the love of my life can not be by my side anymore? I want to know Koenma. You know everything,so tell me dammit!
"Go get some rest. You really need it." He then walked off and said nothing.
I didn't know what do them. Should I listen to him,I thought. Maybe I should. But then again,maybe I should ran away.
But soon Koenma stopped. "You want to know what happened? Yusuke took his life because he knew he couldn't win. I was there. I saw everything because I attempted to stop Sensui myself. I wanted to take him down with me for eternity.
I helped create Sensui so I thought I could go down with him. But Yusuke thought that wasn't my decision to make,so he asked Sensui to kill him....and....that's exactly what Sensui did... If you want to know where Kurama is now,he's down in Demon world with Hiei and Kuwabara hoping to kill Sensui." And with that,Koenma disappeared.
"You didn't know about this did you Botan?"
She shook her head. "No. I went to see King Yama,and then I went back down to Living World to get you and Keiko."
"Oh."
"But you had really better go and get some rest."
I nodded and went back to my room,with the fear still covering my body.
