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Paul pulled in into his arms and kissed me so gently. I pushed him off me. "GOD DAMMIT PAUL! I HAVE CANCER!"

"I always get what I want." He said smirking, just a little.

"Paul! Do you know what Cancer means? It means dying. I won't live any longer than your grandfather!" I hissed.

"Suze, if you just leave that De Silva, and come with me. I can do anything for you. I will pay for your cancer."

"Damn you Paul! I don't need your money!" I said pushing him away. Because I was pissed, really pissed. What got me pissed in the first place was Jesse. Ever since the day that I told Jesse that I was dying. He never came back. And it hurts so much to know that-that-

And how I got really pissed? Paul and his money. I didn't need his money! I'm not poor or anything. Okay, so my family has been saving money for my cancer. They even took some from David and Brad's college fond. Which is sad, because I'm not expecting to live or anything. Even Sleepy's tolling in, which is so sweet of him. But I didn't need money. Not even Paul's money.

I turned to leave. But Paul grabbed me by my waist and swirled me around.

"Suze. Don't leave I didn't mean it."

"Paul." I said through gritted teeth. "I don't need your money."

"I could pay for your cancer, and get the best care that you needed, if-"

"There is no 'ifs', okay Paul?"

He grinned down at me, "Oh, I just love it when you're angry."

"Paul-"

Then, he pushed me against the door. And started kissing me. I managed to wrestle my lips off his, and give a shout, "JESSE!"

"He's not coming Suze." Paul smirked.

"What did you do with him?" I knuckles turned white.

But he grabbed my wrist before I could punch him in the face. "I didn't do anything. He doesn't care for you anymore-"

"Shut up Paul!"

"-He only likes live once. And now that you're dying-"

But he didn't get to finish, because my fist exploded from his grasp.

"OW! What the-"

And I made a run for it. But I didn't get very far before Paul materialized before me.

"What the-"

"Susie Susie Susie. I always get what I want-"

"Spoiled."

He ignored me. "-And I want you, Susannah Simon."

He leaned in for another kiss.

Oh my god, Jesse. Where are you when I most needed you? Don't you care anymore? I sobbed. Sitting in the corner of my room. If was nighttime. I wanted Jesse. No, I needed him. But he isn't there. The window seat in my room is empty. Could Paul be right? Does he still care about me?

I couldn't think about Paul. Not when what happened today....when I lost my virginity.

"Where are you Jesse?" I screamed, my voice hoarse.

Nobody appeared. Nothing happened. I felt so empty. I have lost my life, lost my soul....to Paul Slater.

"You called for me?" I looked up, hoping it was Jesse. It was Paul.

"What are you doing here Slater?"

"Aw, Mr. Rico Suave didn't show up? So sad." He said shaking his head.

"GET OUT OF MY ROOM!" I hollered.

"Aw, Suze, don't be like that. You're just going to have to learn to like me. After all, you did-"

But before he could finish, I kicked his shin. Hard. Sending him screaming. Then, he dematerialized. How does he do that? I've got to learn how to do that. To get me away from sticky situation. Cause if I did, then maybe I wouldn't have lost my virginity.

"You called for me Susannah?"

"NO, I DID NOT PAUL! SO WHY DON'T YOU GET THE HELL-" But when I looked up, I saw Jesse. Oh opps.

"Susannah?" He looked confused. "What did you-"

"Jesse," And when he finally looked up and me, and when our gaze finally met...I sucked him one on the face. "You...." I have no idea what I said exactly. But I know that I said lots of curse words. And lots of unpleasant things.

"Susannah...."

"-WHERE THE FUCKING HELL WHERE YOU WHEN I MOST NEEDED YOU???? AND DO YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO ME WHILE YOU WERE ON YOUR LITTLE VACATION FROM ME????? I LOST MY VIRGINITY!!!!!!!"

He looked up at me in disbelief.

"YES! THAT'S RIGHT! I LOST MY VIRGINITY! AND GUESS TO WHO DID I LOSE IT TO???? YOU DON'T KNOW? I'LL TELL YOU WHO! PAUL FUCKING SLATER. THAT'S WHO! AND WHERE YOU??? OH, I DON'T KNOW, IN YOUR OWN, 'I'M TAKING A BREAK FROM SUSANNAH STUPID SIMON ISLAND?"

Jesse opened his mouth to say something. But that's when one of my really bad headache come in. And before I know it. I was in Jesse's arms. He held me close, whispering softly in my ears....

End of chapter.

Yeah, I know. I said lots of bad words in that chapter. Ellen is such a bad girl. But that's what makes it more interesting. I didn't want to make Jesse so mean. Jesse's such a sweetie. I could have just made him leave Suze there hurting. But that would seem so mean. I'm not sure what's going to happen. But what's really important is that....Suze lost her virginity to Paul Slater! AHHHHHH!

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