Selphie

"K-Kill you?!" I ask in disbelief. What madness caused him to want to die?!

"I hate my life. Everything just sucks now." How can he say that with just a straight plain face?! Oh, wait I get it...he's just joking...heh...heh...right?

I look at his face and it doesn't change, not a single muscle moves. He's not joking?! What the...

"What do you mean everything sucks?! Why do you hate your life so much?! I don't get it! You're giving me a headache!!" I yell out loud. I grab my head and try to calm it down.

"You won't do it?" he asks me plainly.

"Of course I won't do it?! Why do you think I would?!"

"You said 'anything'..."

"Count me out! You'll just have to kill your self then!" I yell at him as I turn. But then he pulls out a pocket knife and offers it to me.

"No suicide it not cool." He sticks his hand further out closer to me. "Come on, do it." He says plainly. I grabbed the knife away from him, careful not to hurt either one of us.

"Gimme that! What do you think you're doing?!" I'm so shocked and angry with him at the moment. I don't get it. He was like the happiest person on earth that I ever knew! Why did he suddenly have to change?!

"You've never thought about it?" He looks at me plainly. I feel like just blowing up in his face right now. Thank Hyne that no one was in the hallway at this time.

"NEVER!" I yell at him. What scares me the most, is that he doesn't seemed moved at my anger towards him right now. He's just leaning against the wall and looking at me with that dull face expression of his.

"Thought so. Fine I'll just go and find someone else to do it. You think Seifer would? He still hates me right? Maybe if I provoke him enough..." He began to walk away. There was no way I was letting him go and get himself killed. I ran after him and shoved him against the wall.

"Are you serious?! What's the matter with you?!"

"Me? I told you already...what's you're deal anyway? You think you know every thing huh? Don't try to make me like you."

"No, I wasn't..." I let go of him and backed away. What's he talking about? I just wanted him to be happy...

"If you're happy with that stupid cowboy great, but stop interfering with my life! You don't know anything about me!" he yelled at me. That ticked me off. I grabbed out the knife that I snatched from him and stabbed it a cm away from his neck.

"You're right, ever since four years ago, I've been too busy that I haven't been able to spend time with you. That's why I'm trying to get to know you better...But you just sit there...and say how you want to die..." my eyes start to water up and I feel some sliding down my face. I look up at Zell. He actually seemed surprised to see me crying.

I can't take it anymore...just looking at his face makes me angry yet sad...so I do the only thing I can think of.

"Go to hell Zell! You jerk, idiot, moron!" I ran to my room crying. I ran off knocking Squall over and leaving Rinoa to help him. I didn't even see who was behind them but I'm pretty sure it was the rest of the group. I can't handle this...

Zell

"What's she crying for?" I asked my self. My gaze follows Selphie as she nearly knocks Squall over. She didn't even look back to see who it was.

"Weirdo..." Great, everyone's looking at me now. I pull the knife from the wall and put it in my pocket. The next thing I know Irvine's up in my face.

"What did you do?!" he yelled at me. Gawd, can Selphie actually stand this guy? He spits everywhere when he talks.

"Nothing, just talked." I said truthfully. What's his problem? Why won't he just go and ask Selphie himself.

"Like hell nothing happened! Tell me why she ran off crying then huh?!" he grabbed my collar and pushed me against the wall.

"Beats me why don't you go ask her yourself you're her boyfriend after all. Why don't you go and comfort her instead of trying to pick a useless fight with me?" ok this is getting old. And I'm getting tired of him trying to get me to go deaf.

"You bastard!" he swung at me but I ducked and landed a blow in his stomach. He fell over clutching it tightly. He looked up at me angrily. Man I was getting bored. Irvine isn't even worth the time anyway. I turn and walk away but what happens? Cowboy here won't give up.

"Come back here you coward!" he yells at me. Coward? I think not. He tried to punch me again. I think he forgot who the martial artist here was. I easily dodge it and did a spinning back kick at him. He flew ten feet back and slid another 5 feet as he landed. I hear Rinoa scream and run to Irvine's side. Quistis also goes to his aid. Hmph, just the same jackass cowboy girl magnet he always was. I'm getting sick and tired right now. I turn and walk away as nothing happen. But oh no, that is not the end of it.

"Zell!" now its Squall's turn to go pissy mode on me.

"What?" I reply coldly.

"You know what..."

"No I don't know, enlighten me." I reply with mock sarcasm. He seemed to be shock with my tone and behavior. He sighed and crossed his arms over his chest.

"I'm going to have to suspend you from Garden for awhile." He said. Why the fuck did I have to get suspended?! What about Irvine?! He's the fucking asshole who attacked me first! I was just defending myself. Hmph fine if they want me out, then I'll leave. I don't need to put up with this bullshit.

"Whatever you say...Headmaster." Ever since Cid was gone on a break, he left Squall in charged. I gave him a royal mocking bow before I turned and left to anywhere but here.

"I also want you to apologize to Irvine before you go." He said. Ok now this was getting ridiculous.

"For defending my self against HIS attacks? Fuck that. It's not my fault he tried to attack me. And doing a piss poor job at it too."

"You WILL apologize to him before you go." Oh puberty boy is getting angry.

"No. You'll have to kill me if you want anything from me." I shot them all a death glare before I walked off.

I walked towards the entrance of the building before they could say anything else to me. This was so troublesome. I really hate Balamb Garden now. It's like I'm the one who's causing all the problems here. All I've done was just talk to somebody and made her cry. What guy doesn't make a girl cry? I mean it's not like I was insulting her anyways. Maybe it's best if I leave Balamb Garden for good. Being a SeeD is getting kinda boring anyways. I guess I'll just have to wait until the REAL headmaster comes back. Squall won't let me go without an 'apology' for something Irvine did.

"Hey wait...he suspended me right? Then I could just leave then." I go back to the dorms to get some of the things I might need. I'll leave all the other things that I won't need for a long, long time. When I open my door I find Selphie sitting on my bed, looking at a photo.

"Selphie?" she looks up at me with her red eyes. Has she really been crying the whole time?

"Remember when we were celebrating 4 years ago year? And you ate all those hotdogs and near died choking on them?" she chuckled a little bit. That was one memory I didn't want to remember but I guess it was pretty funny.

"Yea what about it?"

"You were smiling a real smile back then...but now your smiles are really empty." She noticed? Zell, Zell, Zell, what happened to that barrier wall you built around yourself? Did you let it crumble because of this girl?

I walked up in front of her and looked down at the picture she held in her hand. It was a picture of all of us one year ago. Squall had rolled his eyes at Rinoa swung her arm around his neck. Quistis was smiling with her arms crossed over her chest and Selphie had Irvine's cowboy hat on with his arms around her waist. I was smiling my toothy grin that I always had on.

"Why are in my room?" I asked. I thought she would be in her room or with Irvine at least. He was probably in the Infirmary or something.

"Heard you beat up Irvine...and that he's in the Infirmary right now." She didn't even seemed worried. Wait, that had nothing to do with my question...whatever.

"Yea, he was spitting all over the place and wouldn't get outta my face. It was his fault trying to hit me first." I said. I didn't even have the slightest guilt in my voice. I hated Irvine. "Aren't you worried about him?"

"No, he has his fan girls all over him right now. I couldn't even get to him." So he was so crowded with girls that Selphie couldn't even go see him? Is that why she's in my room?

"Bastard, after being with you for almost a year, he still can't get off with his girly magnet habits? Typical of him. Guess he can't really change then..." What the hell is up with Irvine?! First he acts like he's concerned for Selphie yet he'd rather have the company of girls who he doesn't even!? And he doesn't even care...that's what pisses my off the most.

"Yea...I can't really tell if he's just being with me because he can...or if he really does have feelings for me. It's like every time I'm with him, I only have a fourth of his attention. Maybe even less...I dunno, maybe I'm being selfish..." She's starting to cry again. I sit down next to her and wrap my arm around her shoulders.

Wait what the hell am I doing?! Comforting her? But I can't control my body...it's acting but it's self. Why am I being so nice to her? Is it because she's Selphie or what?

"No, you're not being selfish. Irvine should give you all his attention since he was the one who asked you out, right? It's not your responsibility to get his attention. It should be the other way around." She looked up at me with her adorable green orbs.

Oh god...I'm getting all mushy. What surprised me next was that she wrapped her arms around me and leaned her head on my shoulder.

"Thanks Zell...you know, you really are confusing. First you tell me to kill you then you beat up Irvine and here you are now, comforting me..." she had a small smile on her face.

"I guess I'm just messed up." I smirked. I looked down at her to see that she fell asleep. When was the last time she slept? Oh well, guess I'll just let her rest in my room since she's already here.

I slowly lay Selphie down and put the blanket over her. I stood up to get my things together only to feel a hand wrapped around my wrist.

"Heeey, you were really warm...I don't want you to go." She said. What does she mean by that?

"But I've been suspended, for...defending myself against your boyfriend-"

"Don't call him that...he doesn't really seem like a boyfriend to me."

"Oh?"

"Well...besides from not having much of his attention. He's practically everything a girl could ask for. He's charming, funny, has a weird personality, cute, he understands what I feel...sometimes...and he smells really nice..." I rolled my eyes as hers turned dreamy, "He's everything I look for in a guy...but...he means nothing more than a friend to me. He doesn't make my heart pound..."

I saw her bring her hand up to her chest. Poor girl, she's confused.

So I do the only thing I can think of at the moment...sing to her.