Chapter 3
Longing Morgan's POV – As I sat outside on my balcony in the coldness of the night I went through my options:

A. I go away to university, therefore making my parents proud and giving me the tools I need to build a successful future for myself. In the process breaking Hunter's, my muirn beatha dan's, heart.

B. I go away to university, therefore making my parents proud and giving me the tools I need to build a successful future for myself. In the process keeping a steady long-term relationship with Hunter.

C. I stay at home, wait for an acceptance letter from the other local colleges I applied to, obtain the tools I need for a successful future and maintain a healthy close distance relationship with Hunter.

C was definitely out of the question. Like my parents would let me do that. They would never let me pass up such a once in the lifetime opportunity.

B would never work. I'm not that pretty, I'm pretty ordinary. Even though Hunter loves me inside and out, I don't think our relationship would last very long.

A is the only one left. I have to break his heart; I have to make them proud. Would he understand? Hunter was such a down-to-earth kind of guy. He is sensible and responsible and I'm sure he wouldn't want me to pass up such an opportunity. Would he really though? He is only human. I wouldn't blame him if he gets angry or upset. I would be so upset if he left me.

Argh! This is getting me nowhere. I still feel like a rusted up piece of old crumpled metal. I'm hurting so much. Why did this have to happen? I am longing so badly for the life I had before, before I found out that I was adopted, before Wicca, Cal and Hunter... I stopped myself quickly. "No how could I say that? With good comes bad, I just have to accept it." I said aloud.

Perhaps I should try scrying? I got out my altar and cast a circle in the middle of my bedroom. I lighted my candle and concentrated on only that. I let everything else pass. The sound of grasshoppers outside, the ambulance howling in the nighttime, just focus the energy on the flame, my friend. I blocked out the sounds and entered a deep trance. I asked the Goddess to help me find out what will happen after I tell Hunter about the scholarship. I saw something blurry. Gradually it became clearer and clearer.

It was Hunter. He was standing outside in an unfamiliar street. All cobbled and old looking. There was ivy growing on the walls and he was smiling. "What was he smiling for!?" I thought to myself outraged. "His girlfriend had just moved to a different country!" My anger made the flame on the wick of the candle abruptly go out.

My scrying had never lied to me before. Perhaps it was all a mistake. Or maybe things would turn out after all. But when? I wasn't specific about the time. Maybe it was showing 5 years from now, or the date Hunter and I were going on tomorrow? "Stupid me! I should have specified when!" I had gotten a headache from trying too hard and my anger with myself was welling up inside me so I decided to finally go to bed. "Maybe my dreams will foresee what tomorrow shall bring?"