Author's Note – Hey I actually have important stuff to say today. Yay for me!
Sweetsoutherngal– Thanks for the time you put into your review. It is nice to know that I have regular readers out there who enjoy my fan fiction. It's alright if you criticize me though. It wasn't as if you were purposely bashing my work for no reason, you were constructively critiquing my work so I thankyou for that. But I do have to add, I did realise that they are of course muirn beatha dans, therefore making them soul mates, so I know that they wouldn't have doubts, and there was all along a reason as to why they are suddenly falling apart, which you will find out in the end. ï Keep reading and reviewing!
Darke-MacEwan-Witch – Cool name by the wayï. Thanks also for your review. It is a bit depressing at the moment isn't it? Ok more than a bit but I like happy endings and I'm not that mean so hopefully it won't remain like this for long. I did write the poem actually. I'm so glad that you thought so highly of it. It was really good because I just sat down and wrote it in about 10 minutes, the words were flowing. Anyways, thanks again ï keep reading and reviewing.
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Mama – I won't even bother making an actual reply to that because I know that you won't read itï
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Disclaimer –I now disclaim the characters and intellectual property of Cate Tiernan.
I now claim everything by me!!!
Chapter 12Morgan, Be a Good Girl
AKA - Blood
Morgan's POV –
"Hey just wait a second for me ok? I need to go the bathroom."
"Sure, I'll wait."
I walked through the wooden doors of the ladies to what looked like quite a dilapidated bathroom.
"You'd think the health inspectors would have something to say about this ramshackle place." I thought to myself.
I stared at myself in the mirror. I am me. Morgan Rowlands, or perhaps Morgan Riordan, or Morgan McEwan...who'll never be a Morgan Niall...never ever...
I fetched the tiny bottle out of my pocket and inspected the label.
"Take 1-2 tablets every 2 hours on its own or with ¾ of a glass of water per tablet. Do not exceed 10 tablets in any 24 hour period of time as this could be fatal."
"Hmm, I wonder what 15 at once is like." I laughed evilly at my ugly reflection in the mirror and downed about 15 pills in one shot with what seemed like water that came out of that moss-covered tap.
"Thanks for the time Morgan, see you in the next life."
I smiled a parting smile to my reflection and left behind the remains of my sanity.
The drugs had no immediate effect on me so to Mia I must have looked fine, but no matter how much I told myself what I was doing was right, I had a sick feeling in my stomach, a constant jabbing pain that was telling me I did wrong.
"So, when's the party starting?" I asked cheekily to my blonde friend, trying to push back my fears and let myself have one last night, one last night to set myself free.
"Here, take it," and she passed over a shot.
I'd never had tequila before, or any type of alcohol really, except for some wine on special occasions. The fear I once had almost immediately drained away, causing me to throw away my morals and convictions and be Morgan. No last name Morgan, I'd be like Madonna except I didn't know who I was.
A few shots later the drugs started kicking in.
"Damn this, ahhh!" I yelled once I tripped for the 3rd time off my stool.
Michael still hadn't come so we just got on with it without him. I was laughing my head of. I had totally forgotten about my drastic suicide attempt and was enjoying the affects the alcohol and drugs had on my body. It was freedom, no inhibitions, no "good girl Morgan".
"Hey! Maybe you should have a few more to make you feel better" Mia asked, mocking my inability to sit.
"Ahh, yeah, sure, I guess that'll really help" I replied in a sarcastic tone.
She pulled me over to the bar again and by now everything was blurry. I could feel the magic inside of me get out of control and the effects of this came when suddenly a few glasses that had just been sitting there, drying on the old rusted up rack, shatter into tiny pieces all of the floor and bench top.
"Ooops!" I laughed stupidly and had another shot. I didn't actually like the taste but it just grew on you. Everything was going fine until I suddenly felt depressed. Out of nowhere I realised that what I was doing was totally stupid and irresponsible. I was committing suicide, a mortal sin.
"Ugh!" I said softly, I was doomed. My head ached and everybody in the room just seemed as though they were laughing at me. There were some scary looking men in the corner and Mia was nowhere in sight.
"Mia!" I whispered urgently. I tried to leave but they wouldn't let me. They wouldn't let me get past their barricade.
I was sweating profusely and panicking. Everything was spinning, spinning spinning...The colours were blurrrrrrryy...........
"Huh" was the biggest sentence I could string together. Within the next second, when I thought that I was doomed to become these peoples next rape victim I stumbled to the ground. The last thing I remember was the taste of blood in my mouth. Blood.
Author's Note – I'm a bit worried that with the issues I'm dealing with in the latter part of this fan fiction (drinking, suicide and misuse of drugs) that perhaps I should up the rating. At the moment it is PG 13. But, you know, it is not as if I haven't warned you, parental guidance was recommended for people under 13 and I'm guessing that most of you are over that age. I mean, there are plenty of teenagers out there who have to deal with these kinds of issues, and I'm not trying to endorse them as good things. Just please, if you feel like it is getting a bit heavy for it's PG 13 rating, don't make me find out from that little list of author's that have put you on author alert or whatever, just review and tell me, I'll be happy to push it upï
