Just an Experiment

Chapter Thirteen

Take me Away


Me: Whoa! I can't wait to get back to Canada D I bought a bunch of cool stuff and got INUAYSHA DVD's! And got some stuff for you Kachi Mirande! (Katie Miranda) So here's the next chapter, hoping that it will be a little more interesting.

Disclaimer - I don't own Inuyasha. I might own a cooler anime someday! But I'd have to learn Japanese and write a manga before that, which is almost impossible. But I'll try!


I cannot find a way to describe it. It's there inside, all I do is hide. I wish that it would just go away. What would you do if you knew? What would you do....

"Sango.........chan...." Kagome said, choking out the 'chan'. She looked on the dispointed expression on her friends face. "Was what you said - was that true?"

Sango widened her eyes. She had let Kagome heard everything. She wish she didn't. She wish she could turn back the clock. But if she could, so much could have been avoided. But still, letting Kagome and Miroku hear what she had said wasn't the best idea....

Kagome turned to Inuyasha. "Inuyasha, that's not true - is it?"

Inuyasha flinched. He had never found himself in such a tight spot before. He never felt so embarassed before, he had never felt to guilty before. He looked over at the houshi who's face was darkened, staring at them both with a solumn expression. Cold, heartless. It didn't look like Miroku at all.

"Is it?" was all he said, after a long silence.

Inuyasha couldn't lie to them. He'd knew it would just let out the obvious. He had to nod, he couldn't speak. It was as if his throat was paralized.

Then they all went silent. No one could respond to what he had said.

Kagome put one foot ahead. The air remained still. She walked closer to Inuyasha, her bottom lip trembling. She put her hands on his shoulder. He watched closly as her lips started to move.

"Would you even do such a cruel thing, Inuyasha?" she asked softly. Inuyasha narrowed his eyes. Would he do something like this? He had been thinking it, Sango had been thinking it.

But could either of them do it?

"Inuyasha.." Kagome murmured, closing her eyes. Inuyasha felt his body relax as he stared at Kagome's face.

"Ano.." he murmured quietly.

"Osuwari!"


All the pain, I thought I knew, all the thoughts lead back to you. Back to what, was never said. Back and forth, inside my head. I can't handle this confusion, I'm unable come and take me away......
Kamara steadily walked along the edge of a river. She kicked a rock aside and looked back into the still water. She could see Inuyasha and herself playing in there.

Stop thinking about him, she scolded herself. He is only making you weak. Her angry expression softened.

Did he really try to use me?

She was so confused. It was if God was playing with her. As if she was being tried on for size (A Crowned King classic!). She felt so worn out.

She couldn't help but thinking of the fun days. The days which she thought she could put her trust into the hanyou. But she was wrong....or was she?

She stopped in her tracks. She could still smell their human scents by the river, where she stood. She had never been a human before. She felt alone and scared, but Inuyasha helped her through such a time.

Kamara narrowed her eyes and couldn't help but feel cold tears in her eyes. She blinked like crazy. She didn't want the tears to fall. She didn't want to show any signs of weakness. But why? No one was around, no one could see her.

Am I just trying to prove to myself that I am strong inside? Kamara asked herself. She shook her once. I am not strong. I am weak inside. I let that man get the better of me. I gave him my soul.

The soul is like a beautiful glass ball. Kamara thought bitterly. A person's life is contained in this glass ball. The person himself will be gentil as he can be with this ball. Unless thinking otherwise. But I was careful. I tried to keep it safe.

But once the glass ball is handed into the wrong hands, the new possessor will toy with the soul. Until he toys too much, and shatters it into tiny pieces.


I feel like I am all alone. All by myself, I need to get around it. My words are cold, I don't want them to hurt you. If I show you, I don't think you'll understand, cause no one understands
These reflections made her think of the shikon no tama. She thought of the tama with powers beyond imagination. It is what brought her to life. Should she be happy?

She wasn't.

She put the blame on the jewel of four souls. She would rather be dead then be put through so much pain, through so much anger. But she was alive and she blew it. But now that she was still here, she would turn her life around. Yes, that's it. She would erase all her memories of Inuyasha, Kagome, Miroku and Sango.

She narrowed her eyes. The shikon no kakira caused so much pain. She wondered if it was this for everyone. Should she toss her's aside?

She reached for the back of her neck and her finger skinned the shard. She gasped as she felt a tiny shock that emerged from the jewel.

The jewel won't let me escape. Kamara thought. The power of the Shikon no tama becomes more beautiful when it is tainted with malice. So was there really bittery, angry, ugly feelings flowing inside her body? Yes, there was. She had fueled the shard. And now she had to complete what she started in order to be free.

Screw that. Kamara thought bitterly. I'm never going to see Inuyasha again.

She was too scared to go back to Inuyasha. She had let her feelings weaken her. But she wasn't that weak. She could still kill him. SHe stared at her hands. I could kill him with these two hands. The thought pleased her, but she somehow held back.


All the pain, I thought I knew, All the thoughts lead back to you. Back to what, was never said. Back and forth inside my head. I can't handle this confusion, I'm unable, come and take me away.
I will not face Inuyasha again. Kamara decided. That is a must. But I will find Kaguya and make her pay. Then take her shards away so that she can't be brought back to life again.

Kaguya....

That was the woman who started it all. Kaguya made her feel grief, anger, sorrow, all these feelings. She had brought her into this world against her own will. To destroy Inuyasha. But she would not have anything to do with him anymore.

She had the rest planned out. Killing Kaguya was her only goal for now.

But then what? She asked herself. What will I do once I accomplish my task? She never thought of such a question before. She had no real friends or family. What could she do? Go on tormenting people, going on a journy to find the rest of the shards?

But that will only lead me back to Inuyasha. She thought sadly. She stopped and turned to the river. She hadn't moved from the spot. The spot she remembered clearly that she and Inuyasha had spent a night together.

She couldn't help but miss him just a bit. But he used her, she couldn't forgive such a sin. She wanted to go back, talk it out. But she already knew what had happened. She knew the story. Talking it out would only endanger her life.

She stood up, her back facing the stream, her heels on the edge and let the wind push her back. Back, back, until she had hit the water, letting sparking tears trail after her.

She closed her eyes and thought of the man who sealed her fate.

Inuyasha.....


I'm going no where....on and on and.....I'm getting no where....on and on and....I'm going no where.....on and on and off and on....
Inuyasha lifted himself up. He stared Kagome in the eye.

"You shouldn't be mad at me." he said stiffly, as if he changed a whole different tune. "It's not like she was your best friend."

Kagome grunted. "I just gave her sympathy because I gave you sympathy." she murmured.

"What's that supposed to mean?!" Inuyasha demanded.

"She's different." Kagome said, looking from Inuyasha to Sango. "You've felt that way before Inuyasha. I know you have."

Inuyasha opened his mouth to speak up, but kept it shut.

"She's alone." Kagome said quietly. "Wouldn't you hate to be alone in the world?"

Sango narrowed her eyes. She knew how it felt to be alone. She could picture Kohaku and her father being killed. She couldn't stand the thought.

"Wouldn't you show sympathy to someone you had in comman with?" Kagome asked softly. Inuyasha let out a 'keh' but no more.

It was as if Kagome's words were eating right through them.

"Good way to put it Kagome-sama." Miroku said after a long silence. Kagome smiled, but didn't say anything after that.

"Yeah." Inuyasha murmured.

"I guess." Sango said.

Kagome glanced at Miroku, then they both started to walk away.

"Kagome-chan." Sango said running up to her. "Houshi-sama, where are you going?"

"To find Kamara." Kagome said. She looked over at Inuyasha. "You coming?"

Inuyasha paused, then nodded. "Yushi, let's go."


All the pain, I thought I knew all the thoughts lead back to you. Back to what, was never said. Back and forth inside my head. I can't handle this confusion, I'm unable come and take me away.......


Kamara walked around, she'd been following this routine for hours.

I'm lost. She thought sadly. I don't know what to do from here.

She stopped. Her clothes were dry by now. There wasn't too much wind thought. She sighed and started to walked forward, instead of the circle she had been doing before.

She stared at the sky. So much life, so much beauty. She at one time had life, but she felt like the life had been drained fom her body. As if time had stood still for her. But so much has happened in such a small amount of time. It was depressing.

Her head jerked up. She could pick up a familiar scent in the air. It was faint, but there. And she could also feel a wind pick up, which tossled her hair. She didn't dare look back.

The wind didn't feel like an ordinary wind. It had a slight tinge of - evil. She widened her eyes as a shadow fell over her.

"I have found you Kamara."

She turned around - and gasped.


Me: WOW! I realized that I haven't updated in the LONGEST time. Sorry for keeping you guys waiting. Augh, I swear the action starts from here on. Juss listening to shinjitsu no uta. Waahh I love that song. I lost my Do as Infinity CD, so it kept me from writing for a while. But I think I'll be okay now, if I can ever get a replacement. (sigh) Oh well. Please R&R!